What You Do With the Strength You Have

Ayana and Hannah catch up after the orange has faded from Ayana and she's begun seriously questioning her existence.

Date: 2016-10-12
Pose Count: 17
Ayana Tasogare 2016-10-12 01:57:59 57458
It's late. The rainy season is over, but it's still edging warm rather than cold. Moderate enough that Sports Day (yesterday) went well! Warm and humid enough that light clothes are still popular even in the evenings.

So why is Ayana huddled into a hoodie? Probably for the fashion, right? And why are her legs covered in thick black stockings to the thighs? That's surely fashion. Boots and short lycra shorts complete the outfit. She has hte hood up high, concealing her hair and her foxlike ears.

And here she is at the door of a woman she hasn't seen in months, sniffing at the air to ensure that it's still the right home. Sniffing, and then sighing. "At least she won't notice the color difference," Ayana mumbles quietly, before reaching up to knock at the door. "Boris-kun. It's me," she calls through the door. "Is Hannah-chan home?"
Hannah Sharpe 2016-10-12 02:10:50 57461
There's no sounds of a certain doggie! No, he's at Hannah's parents tonight, keeping a certain sick Hannahmom company! Instead, the knock crawls through the house. From the kitchen, there's the sound of a certain kickboxer pouring herself a bowl of soup!


The door swiftly opens to reveal Hannah in a long towel and her hair still wet. Blink. "Yo! Who is it? Come on in, it's late!" She sprouts a big ol' grin on her face. Company! Too bad she doesn't realize who it is yet!
Ayana Tasogare 2016-10-12 02:25:53 57465
Ayana's mouth opens, then closes, then opens, then closes. She hadn't expected Hannah to answer the door. (Especially not this undressed!) "H..hannah-chan," Ayana mumbles quietly. "It's Ayana," she says, not coming in through the door. Because really, she's not entirely sure she's welcome here. "I need ... someone to talk to. Someone who isn't Iki-chan."
Hannah Sharpe 2016-10-12 02:41:51 57473
There's a slow pause as recognition dawns. Suddenly, two arms reach, and practically vacuume Ayana into a tight, spinning hug! Oh yeah, she's getting foxhandled inside where it's nice and comfy!

"Ayana!!!" Her yell is one of surprise, joy, annoyance, and most of all, relief!

Finally, she lets go, and Ayana is being shoved freshly made stew! Vegetable beef, in fact.

"Eat up! You've got questions to answer. Where have you been? Are you okay? And what's wrong? It's been months, I was worried damnit!" Frown! Quickly Ayana is being brought couchward!
Ayana Tasogare 2016-10-12 02:49:24 57477
Ayana yelps in surprise as she's dragged inside. The force knocks her hood askew just a little, revealing the tufts of now-black hair. Not that Hannah can see it. But it's different. And her device can certainly take note.

Despite the surprise, Ayana returns the hug, squeezing Hannah even if it gets her a little wet (yuck), and holding on as long as Hannah lets her.

Right up until food is mentioned. THen she snaps right into a chair, unashamedly willing to serve herself a bowl and start eating. It takes her three spoonfuls before she remembers that talking was the point of coming here, not eating, and then she bashfully swallows and glances sidelong at Hannah before getting to the point.

"I'm okay," she says. "Mostly anyways. Ikiko's older cousin is a bully, and everyone at school is a bully, but ... but I live with Ikiko now. Her parents take good care of me, and they let me cook whatever I want for dinner, and I have a lot of chores which is awful, and they make me take baths which is more awful, but they also let me sleep in Ikiko's room, and don't mind that we're together, and give me an allowance to buy things I want like jerky and they don't mind that I eat everything in the house a lot because I cook it and ..." Really. She had a point.

"And ..." yep, she's gonna get there.

"And ... well .. um ... you see," Ayana says, "I thought you would hate me because I betrayed Taka-kun. But ... he was hurting me, and Iki-chan and her friends made me a fox again, and now I'm a real magical girl, not just a fake one, except ... I'm not really a girl. And ... and recently something changed. And I'm scared. And I don't know what to do about it." She really can say a whole lot of nothing.
Hannah Sharpe 2016-10-12 03:04:13 57485
It's Hannah's turn to get soup'd. Sitting down, she crosses her legs and frowns just a little. Slurp. Her Device pings her on the table nearby. She's almost completely silent as Ayana explains. Soup gets set aside, and Hannah sighs deeply.

"Not gonna lie to you, foxy. Yeah, I'm angry about that. A Familiar should be loyal. It's a bond that should never be broken. But it'd take an idiot or a narcissist to not realize just how bad off you were under Ta-kun's care. So no, while I don't like it, I think this works out for the best for everyone involved."

Concern grows, however. "What do you mean? What's changed? And 'not a girl'? I get that Ikiko somehow managed to make you a proper...well, a non-Familiar anyway. Level with me here, Ayana. Now's not the time to use a slippery tongue."
Ayana Tasogare 2016-10-12 03:09:24 57487
Ayana ducks her head, ears folding over in shame at the mention of loyalty. "It's not my fault," she whimpers quietly. "I didn't ask to be released from his bond. I tried to tell them not to do it; that he needed me. That he needed me to be his conscience. But they did it anyways, and now ... I don't ... I want ..." she trails off, then sighs and actually puts her spoon down, the bowl only a few bites in.

"I'm a bad familiar," she whimpers. "I don't want to go back. I don't want to be like that again. I love Ikiko. I love him, too. He's my master. Like a big brother. But I don't want to him to make me do those awful things anymore."

She squeezes her knees with her hands, then sighs, "I'm still just a stupid fox, though. I'm not smart like a human. I can do maths, because that's what he gave me, but I'm so bad at Science, and I don't understand why History is important, and I can barely say 'harro' in Engurish."

Ayana scuffs her foot on the table, then explains, "I can turn into a girl. I can pretend. I can even turn into a magical girl. But ... I'm still just a fox."
Hannah Sharpe 2016-10-12 03:36:49 57491
Hannah chews on her lip as she thinks. Really, she looks conflicted. Part of her wants Ayana to be loyal. But she knows what harm Takashi could bring, and /would/ bring. No, Ayana has a love, a place to stay, and a /life/.

She walks over, and flops down on the couch next to Ayana's chair, food forgotten. "Do you know what I'm hearing right now? A whole lot of whining! Who /cares/ if you're a fox or a human! You know what matters? You're Ayana. You've got somebody you love. Got a roof over your head, and I'd wager Ikiko's parents consider you part of the family, right?"

A wave of her hands. "So take my advice, stop looking gift horses in mouths and overthinking things. Or is there more going on here? R.T. says you look...different."
Ayana Tasogare 2016-10-12 03:39:25 57492
Ayana thumbs at the soup, then upends it quickly into her mouth, swallowing what's left of her bowl in a hurry. Then, she wipes her lips on the back of her sleeve and slumps her shoulders. This is the thing she wasn't sure she wanted to discuss. Except it's the reason she's here, too.

"Well," Ayana mumbles, as she kicks off her boots, and then crawls from the table to lay down with her head in Hannah's lap, "You know how ... with Takashi, my hair was black. I was born a black fox. But then when they destroyed the bond, I turned orange. I was orange for a long time. Except ... Orange broke last monthf or a little while. And when it came back ... I'm still black again. And I've got access to my gloom powers again. And I keep feeling the urge to just ... drain people."
Hannah Sharpe 2016-10-12 03:53:43 57495
There's a fox in her lap! To no one's surprise, there's abundant ear-rubs and hair-brushies! Thankfully Hannah's dry by now, so it's just one comfy hanners-friend! The young woman is good at this, she's had plenty of practice with Boris after all!

"So basically you haven't gotten the Orange back? Huh. Maybe since you weren't naturally that way, it just kinda...faded? Damn, should've kept some scans of you." Grumble grumble, curse you lack of foresight!

"But that doesn't matter. I'll be blunt. You're talking to a woman who's tried to weaponize Grief Seeds before, so, I'm kinda biased. But I believe that power should be used, and you shouldn't be ashamed of it. Do you /want/ to drain people? Then do it. If you don't? Then don't. Or just drain people that are your enemies. I know a lot of magical girls are probably going to bray on and on about 'evil' and 'Darkness' and all that. What you do with the strength you have matters a lot more than where it comes from."

A poke to the nose of a fox! "So. Ayana. What do you want to do with your power?"
Ayana Tasogare 2016-10-12 03:58:42 57497
Ayana dwells on Hannah's response quietly for a moment (or maybe she's just too busy nuzzling into the ear pets to respond right away). The words she used weren't unexpected, and in a way it's probably what Ayana wanted to hear. But nevertheless, it doesn't give her the sense of confidence and clearness she was hoping for.

"Thing is," Ayana mumbles quietly, "I don't know if it's my power. I'm only a girl again because Inari said so. And if I don't use the power the way he wants me to, mabye he won't let me stay a girl anymore. And then I'm just a fox again. Or worse, maybe he just kills me. I don't know, Hannah-chan. I don't know what I want. I just don't want to die."
Hannah Sharpe 2016-10-12 04:11:38 57501
Hannah gives a low nod at that. It is, indeed, a problem. Both arms by now are either hugging or scritching the fox comfortingly!

"Then, you need to find some way of making sure that power is yours. Otherwise? It sounds like you want freedom. So you need to find another way of getting power. Yeah, I don't want you dieing either kiddo. That's your goal, don't die, right? Fine. Fight for that, then, no matter what you have to do. I'm gonna take some scans of you back at WPS HQ, maybe we can figure out what kind of magic you use. Then we can find a specialist, figure out how to make sure it's your own. How's that sound?" It's about the best solution Hannah can think of off the top of her head.

"Gotta reach out and /take/ power, Ayana. If you sit there crying and worrying you won't end up right."
Ayana Tasogare 2016-10-12 04:16:16 57502
Ayana hesitates at those words. Scans at WPS? But Takashi can go to WPS, and that means this could be used to get her back to him. But Hannah wouldn't do that to her, would she? No, she wouldn't do that to her.

Ayana turns over until she can bury her face against Hannah's betowelled belly. She wraps her arms around Hannah, hugging briefly. But her tail still isn't wagging; it's just limply hanging off the edge of the couch. "Don't tell Iki-chan," she whimpers quietly. "I don't want her to be hurt by this. And ... don't tell Taka-kun, either. I don't want him to be hurt by this, either. But ... but okay. I trust you, Hannah. I just don't want to die."
Hannah Sharpe 2016-10-12 04:27:54 57504
Hannah wiggles just a bit! She's ticklish there! Squeeeeze! The kickboxer is going to make sure the fox-familiar at least feels safe for the night. Nope, she's not going anywhere! Even that tail gets pets and brushies.

"Not a word. This is our own little project. Besides, I've always been wanting to play god with other people's magical powers. You're doing me a favor. Don't you worry. You're in my hands now Ayana. And I don't let friends die if I can help it."

Then, she's laying back, cuddling the poor girl. "Stay here tonight. Anybody wants to get at you, they'll have to go through me. Because that's what friends do, Ayana."
Ayana Tasogare 2016-10-12 04:35:02 57508
That's not even hard. Ayana reaches into her pocket and pulls out a little cell phone covered in fox paws. She fires off a quick text, then drops the phone onto the table nearby and curls up with Hannah again. "You're not gonna make me take a shower, are you?" she asks with a mumble against Hannah's belly.
Hannah Sharpe 2016-10-12 04:38:01 57510
A devilish grin appears on Hannah's face. Tickle tickle tickle riiiight under that chin! She declines to comment about the ultra-cute cellphone.

"Make you? No. Bribe you with home-made beef jerky from the leftover beef cuts tomorrow morning if you get a shower tonight? Ab-so-lutely~!" She sing-songs. Flick. On goes the tv. It's a warm house, a good friend, and bribery. Delicious meat-based bribery.
Ayana Tasogare 2016-10-12 04:41:30 57511
Ayana twitches, twitches, kicks her legs, twitches again, then whimpers and wraps her arms over her head protectively. "Noooo. I don't wanna shower. Showers are bad. I don't like it. I'll stay a fox all night if you want. Don't make me get wet."