Please Don't Hate Me.


Lacrima needs to tell Amu the truth. It ends... with the truth.

Date: 2017-01-16
Pose Count: 45
Lacrima 2017-01-16 06:36:47 67847
Lacirma has asked Amu Hinamori to hold off on the visits for a week or so the past few days. She has called, and asked her to resume her visits and that 'she had something to talk to her about' in text to hide the tone of her voice.

Amu Hinamori arrives and nothing seems off. There is more wards across the fence. That's it.

Lacrima meets Amu Hinamori at the door and leads her inside and turns to face Amu. She doesn't offer Amu to sit down in the Vestibule like she normally does. She gently keeps her hand held down in front of her so Amu can see them and she looks... ashamed.

"Amu-chan.. we need to. Talk about. Something I did." she says quietly.

"Amu-chan. Please don't hate me..." she says quietly.

Well that's an ominous start.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 06:40:31 67848
Amu Hinamori had come over soon after and, once inside, gave lacrima a worried look. "Lacrima-chan, what happened? Are you okay? I got that message from you, and then nothing but silence."

She blinked a few times, then smiled, moving over and patting her on the shoulder. "It's okay, Lacrima-chan. I couldn't hate you. I'm sure no matter what you did, it was something you had to, right? It's not like you killed anyone or something."
Lacrima 2017-01-16 06:45:17 67850
Lacrima closes her eyes and just sits there a moment.

"I'm going to start from the begining." she says quietly.

"I have a friend. Alexis." she says. "Alexis.. recently broke up with his girlfriend. And the girlfriend... asked me to watch over him. So I've been visiting him more often." she says quietly.

"We. Met in the park." she says. "And we talked about a sign warning people off skating because of thin ice." she says.

"Then... everything goes dark. In my head. And he can't remember either. We both. Black out." she says.

"And we're waking up a long ways away in a woods. And there was an odd garbled text sent out..." she says. "During that black time." she says.

"And I was in the snow and he was in the snow and-- and.. Alexis. Was wrong. He was all wrong and---"

"I-- I turned him." she says. "Into a vampire. Not.. quite. Like me. But. He has to.. feed now and I can feel that power in him and--and---"

"And I had to teach him..how to be this awful thing and I am such a mess and---"

She just brings her hand to her face and begins crying again.

"I'm prepared to just.. just sit here...and let you..Open Heart me.. if.."

"I just..."

"I don't know and I don't want you to hate me and Kunzite thinks something else happened and I don't know because the only two people that were there don't remember...."
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 06:50:01 67851
Amu Hinamori nodded, listening. Smiling. Then... that smile faded. Inch by inch. Until by the end there was a look of just horror on her face. "Lacrima..." No chan this time. "You did this. You did THIS to someone else?" Her fists were clenched. Why? She reached out. For a second, she looked cold.

Then... her hands pulled back. 'Lacrima.... are you sorry?" She reached out again and held her shoulders. "Tell me. Are you actually SORRY for what you did? Do you feel remorse for what happened?" Her hands were shaking, too....
Lacrima 2017-01-16 06:58:18 67853
Lacrima doesn't move. Her eyes do close harder. She doesn't say anything. She's crying. It's less she's thinking over the response and more she's trying to unclench her teeth. "O..of course. I'm sorry! I don't wish this on anyone! I don't want this for anyone!" she cries out. It's not anger. It is shame and self-hate.

"I wasn't starving or.. or I wasn't even angry! or sad I just... next minute I'm here and then next minute I'm there-- and-- and..."

Amu is angry. She can sense it. She can see it.

She begins to wobble because her emotions are just kind of begining to eat herself. She falls back to her backside, sat up with her hands over her eyes. She wants to ball up but she can't.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 07:02:43 67855
Amu Hinamori is furious. She lets her go. "Don't," she said softly. "Don't start reveling in your own misery. How do you think Alexis-kun feels?" she asked. Her hands clenched into fists. "Would it do any good? To open heart you? wouldn't you just come back?"

She took a deep breath. A slow, deep breath. "Lacrima... what have you done? Is this going to be new? Are you going to be turning others now?" Amu was trying to be kind. Trying to be forgiving. Trying to accept. But this? This was horrifying beyond words. And, in a way, it was her fault. If she hadn't... let the girl go...
Lacrima 2017-01-16 07:09:19 67856
Lacrima bites her lip. "I don't come back if I'm fully purified. I just. turn to dust or something. It's the only thing that can kill me. It's why... it's why it hurts. So much." she says quietly.

She can't help but be miserable right now. "He's.. he's not. Upset. He's still... human? But.. not.. like...." she just shakes her head. "His emotions are screwed up. Deadened." she trails off.

"What!? No! It's not like. I have a drive to make more! I don't want more. So it doesn't happen! It shouldn't happen!" she seethes.

"He's.. he's trying to. Do good things. With what he is now. He doesn't like feeding. Like I do. But. We both have to.. or. Just. Bad things happen." she says quietly.

"He's out tonight...patrolling with someone new." she says quietly. "Making sure she's safe and..."

She just sort of sits there and just brings her legs to her head and hides between them.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 07:16:27 67858
Amu Hinamori nodded, before sitting on the bed and thinking. Finally... "Lacrima. We're going to find out what happened that night. And... And if you did this. If this is YOUR fault. I will purify you. Completely," she whispered. Her own charas didn't say a word. Not now.

"I want to believe this wasn't you. That... something else caused this. If you can't remember... fine. Then something probably did happen. But... if you're lying to me... I swear, Lacrima. I won't let you go a second time. I... I will find you. And.... I'll get Kukai-kun and Tadase-kun and Na-chan to help me. And... and we'll make sure you're not a threat to anyone ever again. One way or another."

She was quiet for a long moment. "... Or if you do it again. If you become such a threat to people that... that we can't ignore you anymore... then I... I'll... stop you. Myself. Do you understand?"
Lacrima 2017-01-16 07:28:14 67859
Lacrima is still on the floor, huddled. She's calmed down from crying but she's still sounding very sad and upset at herself.

"I understand." is all she says quietly.

She silent. "You don't need the help. I'll submit." she says quietly.

"I'm ready even now." she says quietly. "I offered. Just now." she says.

There's a long pause.

"Kunzite and Mamoru think... think something else happened. That something 'attacked' or I was otherwise 'compelled' to do what I did. Alexis was... missing things. A hairspray can. A ligher. That he keeps to. Blow up in the face of things since. He started dealing with things like 'monsters'-- and I wasn't. On fire. Or burned. Or hurt." she says.

"I'm trying to find where we woke up. So I can inspect." she says quietly.

"I've had to start. Feeding. Again." she says. "On others. Because. It wasn't fair to... ask." she says. "From you. When I did that."
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 07:33:40 67860
Amu Hinamori nodded, then reached out, grabbed Lacrima by the arm, and yanked her to her feet. "Here's what we're going to do," she said firmly, going into full cool and spicy mode. "You're going to stop moping. Because you don't deserve to mope. One of two things happened. You did this to him. In which case, you don't have the right to feel bad. You only have the right to be purrified. Or the second thing, and someone else made you do this to him. In which case... we need to find it and make sure it stops happening." If she tried to sit back down, she'd yank her back up.

"And stop your whining. What matters now is finding out what happened. Finding out if, whatever did this, can happen again. If you have time to feel sorry for yourself, then spend that time trying to find out what happened out there." She grabbed her hand and hauled her towards the door.

"We're going to go inspect, now. See what we can find." she paused, though. "And you did submit. And I'll do it... if you did this.If you're that big a danger to people... I'll... stop you. But If mamoru-kun and Kunzite-kun think something else happened. I'm inclined to believe them. And you should to. So come on."
Lacrima 2017-01-16 07:38:34 67861
Lacrima blinks and huffs as she's tugged to her feet. She blinks again as she listens and she's about to say something when Amu begins to tug her toward's the door. "What!? I don't know where it is! We woke up.. after blacking out and-- and I teleported us home because I'm an idiot." she says.

She huffs. "I .. don't. Want to go out right now. I'm compromised. I'm a mess right now and..."

Well purple tears have utterly stained her shirt and face right now.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 07:41:11 67862
Amu Hinamori took a slow, deep breath. "Then clean up. And I don't care if you're compromised. If you try anything, I'll stop you myself." This was... definitely a lot harsher than she was likely used to. From Amu.

"I'm one of the few who can take you down, Lacrima. And we'll go to the park and try to find where it happened. We'll go to where you last rmeember being, then we'll go from there. Got it?"
Lacrima 2017-01-16 07:44:19 67863
Lacrima frowns. She gently tugs her hand away from Amu and gently does that. She walks to the bathroom and rubs her eyes. She changes her shirt into something that looks similar to the one she was just wearing and she sighs and stares at herself in the mirror for a few seconds as she mutters something under her breath.

She gently turns back.

"Fine." she says silently.

She's ready to go it seems!
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 07:46:01 67864
Amu Hinamori took a long, slow breath before pulling her with her and then... taking her to the park. Once they were where she had been with alexis, at first, she'd nod. "Walk us in the direction you were going. And think long and hard. Is there ANYTHING else you can remember? Anything at all? Maybe something you heard or saw?"
Lacrima 2017-01-16 07:51:40 67865
At the park. She gently looks to Amu and frowns and she sighs and rolls her eyes as she walks to the pond. There sign is still there but it says skating hours now. "The sign said it was thin ice at the time." she says quietly. She's staring at it.

"Alexis comes up behind me and he says....

"'I bet you're thinking that it'd be silly if someone ignored the sign, eh?'."

"I turn around and face him and I say something like. "Maybe..." she says.

"Then...."

"Then...."

She grits her teeth. "Nrg...the next thing I remember is waking up in the snow. In the woods." she says looking around the wooded area that surrounds the entire area. That's a large area. Very large.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 07:56:53 67866
Amu Hinamori nods and starts walking... She put a foot out on the ice and... "Ran?"

"On it!"

Character change! She was able to move around the ice with her new abilities, moving about with ease as she searched for any sign of what happened.

"Do you remember anything about the wooded area? Anything distinctive?"

She looked for any sign of where someone might have fallen in.
Lacrima 2017-01-16 08:03:10 67867
It's been a good week. The ice has been smoothed over for skating. Nothing looks like it's 'healed' from a fracture beyond that. She sighs and shakes her head. "No. Just that I couldn't see the city line or the park, which means that it'd have had to been closer to the side of the park Pikarighako is toward's, because the side facing Mitakihara isn't that thick." she says softly.

"That still doesn't narrow it down." she says quietly. "And I could be wrong too."
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 08:09:23 67868
Amu Hinamori nodded. "Well, it looks like we're going that way, then," she said when she came back and started walking with her. "Lacrima, do you really think you did this?" she asked. "Don't you think it's a little convenient that, not only did you turn someone, but you just happened to not remember anything the time it happens? If you're not lying, that does mean that something likely happened. Something... bad."
Lacrima 2017-01-16 08:14:29 67869
Lacrima shakes her head. "I know..it was me. I just don't know. Why. or how." she says quietly.

"I promised. People I wouldn't do that. People who knew." she says quietly.

"That I could do that." she says.

She sighs and follows along with Amu.

"I don't remember anything." she says quietly. "Between that point and the next." she says.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 08:17:39 67870
Amu Hinamori nodded. "Then we'll look. And we'll look. And we'll keep looking. You know why?" She turned and glared lacrima in the eyes. "Because Alexis is... like you now. I don't think that can be undone. And one way or another, you might be responsible. You OWE him to find out why. To find out what happened. You don't have time to wallow in misery. You need to keep looking. Understand?"
Lacrima 2017-01-16 08:24:48 67871
Lacrima sighs. "I've been here and looking for the past many days." she says quietly. "I ran into Kunzite investigating yesterday morning." she says quietly.

"We're still searching." she says quietly.

A pause.

"How...fast. Are your Charas?" she asks softly.

"Can they travel far...?" she asks.

"If they all split up and if they can zip around..." she says softly.

"Kunzite says we're looking for something that looks like a recent altercation. We both run into old stuff though. Or stuff that looks like damage but it is just dead trees decaying." she says softly.

"Burn marks. Or Shattered trees or anything like that." she says softly.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 08:27:59 67872
Amu Hinamori nods. She then gesture to them. "Miki, su, spread out and see what you can find. Ran, stay close."

"Aye aye!" they yelled.

"Good. Then let's keep searching." She couldn't deny she felt... bad for Lacrima. A part of her wanted to hold her and hug her and say it'd be alright. Another part of her wanted to purify her right now. Would that be murder? Lacrima wasn't really alive, was she?

But amu had always treated her like a person. Alive. Which made it all the harder. What if... what if one of her friends were next? What if it happened to Kukai, because she didn't move now? It'd be her fault.

Was this her fault?
Lacrima 2017-01-16 08:36:43 67873
Lacrima sighs. "Jiaying is upset with me too... she... she used. Something that hurts me against her. Some sort of wood. Hurt but..not the same as purification. It burned...tingled.. from the smell." she says quietly.

"Peachwood?... I think she said."

She sighs and begins the walk to the woods. The closest part makes sense. She stops at the tree line and sighs.

"Are you sure you trust me going into the woods alone that deep?..." she asks.

"I don't..."

She wraps her arms around herself.

Charas go out. They find similar things. Broken trees. Same as before.

One of them finds something though. Something is entirely out of place.

Blood. Blood on a tree. Blood pooled into the shallow snow. Like someone was bleeding out very hard.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 08:42:27 67874
Amu Hinamori shakes her head. "No. But I trust myself to be able to purify you if it comes to that. And I have an extra pair of eyes to keep an eye on you." Best thing about being a guardian, never alone. Though... also the worst.

Upon finding that, she drags her over and... "Do you have a phone? With gps? I want you to send these coordinates to Mamoru-san. Can you... sense anyting from this?"
Lacrima 2017-01-16 08:55:00 67875
Being dragged into the woods. One of the charas say they find something. She walks over and she looks around. Her eyes search up and down...and left and right. "This... this is the place. I think." she says quietly. She looks around. Can't see the park or the city.

She does look down at the ground. "Blood....?" she blinks and looks down at her hands. "It isn't mine." she says. "I don't bleed blood." she says.

She walks over to it and reaches down to touch it. It's.. old. It's brackish by now.

"This may be old enough." she says quietly.

She remains quiet. She walks to an area and she lies down.

"...Yes this is the place." she says.

She stands back up. "I...."

"Panic... I feel panic." she says quietly.

She digs out her smartphone and taps and slides to the past messages.

"....I text...."

She slides to a new message. She taps the screen. She is entirely more calm right now. So her hands are not in the flurry of panic they were when she texted.

She types.

'Alexis is hurt, help'.

She blinks a bit.

She deletes this and tries again.

'Alexis is hurt, help'.

She erases it again but she ... squiggles a bit.

'dfewfg id wety/ hdgf'. It's something very similar to what she texted out.

She tries one last time. 'Alexis is hurt, help'.

She does frown. "'Alexis is hurt, help'." she says. "That's what... I was trying to text." a pause. "Instead. I was panic'ed. I just. Couldn't type." she says softly.

She does text Kunzite the GPS location. Kunzite is the one handling it. Mamoru is just aware. She walks over to the pool of blood.

"I walk over here and..."

"I...."

"Nrg..."

"I can't remember." she says quietly.

"Nrg.. Idiot." she says.

"Idiot. Idiot. Idiot..." she begins repeating to herself. This however. Sounds less like she's calling herself an idiot and more she's just...saying it.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 08:59:30 67876
Amu Hinamori nods, moving up besides her. slowly her hand reaches out, taking her hand. She then... smiled. "Alexis got hurt. You tried to help him. That's what happened. See? Something did happen. Something you tried to stop. Something you tried to prevent." She was starting to feel a little better. "Girls, keep looking." Leaving just Ran behind.

"You were scared. The blood triggered it. Maybe if we find something else, something else will trigger it. Okay? We jsut have to not give up. No matter what."
Lacrima 2017-01-16 09:11:03 67877
Lacrima frowns. "But...what if...I'm the one who hurt him!?" she says. "I..."

She looks down to her hands. They are covered in blood and she swallows and closes her eyes tightly and reopens and... they are back to normal. This is...

She shakes her head. "I don't know what happened." she says quietly.

She walks into the tree line and looks around she looks up and...

There's holes. Straight three the trees. Near the middle. Charas can find them too. They're big enough for them to fly through.

She blinks and lets herself float upwards. She looks down to her eyes and frowns. She summons up the 'blade' she uses sometimes made out of dark energy, extending from her palm and she stabs it directly into a nearby tree. She draws it back. Her cut isn't big, or deep.

She does this a few times. Sometimes the blade is thinner or longer. And when she gets as big as the size of the holes- there's awful 'burn marks' near the edges.

She can't make a hole like that, at least not without 'tell tale signs' that don't exist.

She floats back over and frowns.

She places her hand to the hole and palm out. Nothing happens.

"These are physical in nature." she says. Riventon /has/ been teaching her some examination things recently. Detecting the trace energy was one of those.

"There's no trace energy." she says quietly.

She turns around. There's a large LINE of them down the way."Excuse me a moment."

She phases into something...smoke like before she zips off and actually starts tracing the holes. She comes back, a few seconds later and reforms. Her body is fluid for a moment.

"...Those go all the way back to the park." she says softly.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 09:16:14 67878
Amu Hinamori nods. "Good! We're learning things, Lacrima. See? Come on. We'll go to both ends. Where they start and where they end. We know something happened here then, okay? Something bad. A monster or something. Maybe it attacked you two and... mind controlled you or something. That could be why neither of you remember what happened, okay?"

She tried to keep her voice steady, to keep her hands from shaking. She managed to keep it to just her feet tapping. When could Lacrima start doing that? How long had she been able to do that? Was Lacrima more powerful than she expected? Don't show fear, not now...

"Come on, we're on a roll. And... if you did it. We know what'll happen. I'll purify you."
Lacrima 2017-01-16 09:18:59 67879
Lacrima shakes her head. "Nothing is back there." she says.

"I looked. Just. Holes. If it was in the park proper...I'd found it already. Jiaying would had found it already." she frowns and looks back to the blood and begins walking back.

She thinks a bit. "Something...happened." she says quietly.

She thinks and she thinks.

"Idiot..."

"Alexis is an idiot."

A pause. "Why do I think Alexis is an idiot."
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 09:20:53 67880
Amu Hinamori shrugged. "Maybe you found out he was an idiot? Did you think he was an idiot before? If there's one thing I've learned, it's that most boys are idiots." Didn't stop her from falling head over heels in love with them again and again. She followed behind Lacrima, going silent as they walked. Lacrima was onto something, she could feel it...
Lacrima 2017-01-16 09:31:41 67881
This is not a real startling revelation. Alexis is an idiot. Countless people could tell you this before.

She frowns heavily. Nrg. "Ice..." she says. "Ice... Death..."

"Death Ice?" she asks herself confused. "Death ice..."

Her eyes search around and she frowns heavily.

"Amu Hinamori." she says flatly. "I am about to take out a device. You are to pretend you do not see the device. Thank you." this sounds serious.

Lacrima takes out a smooth, black phone. The kind Eclipse agents use. It has a wierd, futuristic holographic screen. She flips it open and moves a folder onto screen and she taps it. Various creatures. Flip flip flip.

She lands on one that looks like a weird.. icy spidy creature. A body with four spindly legs. There are pictures. She summons up one and then uses the holographics to...well she makes it 'life size'. It is huge. She floats to the other side and has it lift one of it's legs and fits it though one of the holes.

It's a perfect fit. Right down to the grade. She frowns a little more heavily and waves it off.

"... 'Carambano de la muerte.'. Death Icicle." She says flatly.

"..Not mine. They just. Monsters. In the Dusk Zone." she says. "I discovered this species. I named them." she says flatly.

"They're... heat thieves. They drain energy... heat. They ignored me. Because I am not a warm body. Or alive." she says quietly.

"Alexis is an idiot.... he..."

"I think he. Made a fire. To distract it. To distract it.. when...."

"....I was looking.... at the sign...."

"I turn to Alexis.. and.. I say maybe and then...."

"......."

"There is a wisp... snow. Forming... and.. this thing...appears and.... it starts. Attacking. People..." she mutters.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 09:35:38 67882
Amu Hinamori stares. Is totally NOT jealous. Does not feel her cheap flip phone in her pocket. The old, cheap thing that isn't even a smart phone. Totally not jealous. Totally...

Completely and utterly jealous.

"So it's some kind of ice... demon... thing?" she asked, staring at the marks. "Well, at least we know what attacked you. Does it have any... way of causing what happened? Of this? Something it could do to make you transform Alexis? Or... is it possible there was something else, too? How did it even happen to be here, outside of the dusk zone?"
Lacrima 2017-01-16 09:42:24 67884
Lacrima blinks. "Sometimes creatures break the viel to feed, Amu. This is why sometimes there is random attacks. They feed on things the Dusk Zone doesn't have. Life... energy... things like that." she says flatly. "It's no different than. A bear. coming out of a cave to go bop raccons on the head to eat them." she says frankly.

She frowns. "I turn to Alexis I tell him to go hide and I approach the creature to fight it." she says.

"I fight it but...the idiot. He threw that stupid...firebomb! He made it angry and it started.. chasing him!" she says angrily.

"Idiot...." she mutters.

"Into the woods. And-- all that did. Was make it faster. Because it's able to speed itself along places like that..." she motions to the holes. "It uses it's legs to propel itself forward in a similar setting in the dusk zone, but it's spires of ice." she says softly.

"He tires out and it goes to attack him... and I. Take the chance. To hit it's underside. I call out the spell. It blasts forward and...."

She sort of shakes her head- and sort of licks around her mouth. Like she has a bad taste in it.

"It reflects my blast. It has an ability I don't know about. Some sort of..ice screen. I oblitere myself and I have to reform.. and...."

"......it drives it's two large appendages down...." she looks towards the pool of blood.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 09:44:27 67885
Amu Hinamori doesn't say a word. But she can already imagine where this is going. How things are going. And she has a really, really bad feeling. Ran drifts closer towards her chest, as do miki and Su. Was... she going to have to?

LAcrima got hurt. Did she... feed... on alexis? Is that what happened?
Lacrima 2017-01-16 09:52:50 67886
Lacrima squints. "I am angry. I am angrier then I've ever felt.. I... fly into the creature. I begin... just..."

"Canablizing...it's energy form. I'm ripping apart... I'm devouring it's being and it begins to dissolve and...." she shakes her head.

"It's dead. I look toward's Alexis and..."

"Panic. That panic."

"That's when I take out my phone running. and shaking and I text and... I get upset.. because I can't type. Because I am shaking." she says.

"He's bleeding. He's dying. He's dying...I can. Sense. I can /feel/ his energy dim. His energy....just... his identity... drifting."

"I don't know what to do..."

"I'm not a healer...like Mamoru. I can't ... pruify.." she says.

"There's something I can do..."

"I don't want to do it." she says.

"I don't want to do it. Alexis deserves better."

She begins to shake again. Like she's reliving it as she begins to waver. "I promised people..."

"I /promised/." she shakes.

"But he was dying..." she falls flat against the tree, down to her feet, she buries her head again.

She begins crying again. It is her fault. She did it by choice.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 09:55:27 67887
Amu Hinamori stared at her. No. Please no. No no no. She walked up behind her and gently put a hand on her shoulder. "Lacrima. What... what did you do?" she whispered.

She suspected she already knew. She felt she already knew. But she had to have Lacrima say it. She had to hear it. She needed... no doubt. She needed absolutely no doubt...
Lacrima 2017-01-16 10:05:36 67888
Lacrima is a mess again. She is radiating anxiety all over again. It touches and tingles at the senses. Like a minor version of a Witche's Labyrinth.

"I turned him. I did it. I did it knowingly. I did it because he was dying. Because he wouldn't survive because... because... because I can't..imagine him dying."

"I.. I.. turned him.. then.. then I feel unconcious. I've never done it before... I felt dizzy and wrong..."
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 10:08:37 67889
Amulet Heart stared at her, her eyes going wide. Then... then she slowly pulled back. Lacrima would hear the sound. "Character transform, amulet heart!"

She'd made a promise! She... formed the heart with her hand and stared at Lacrima.

And stared. It would be so easy. The girl wouldn't fight. But... her hands shook. "He would have died if you hadn't? Are you absolutely certain? No doubts?" she was wavering. She... didn't want to destroy Lacrima...
Lacrima 2017-01-16 10:15:48 67890
Lacrima just sort of curls up harder. She knows what's coming. She isn't fighting it. That feeling grows. It begins to manifest as black mist in the area. But that's it. She's scared. That's all.

Amu speaks She answers.

"N..o... I'd never...!"

"He's... he's practically my brother he... he understood me...he didn't.. he dind't...hate me for what I was... I didn't judge him because he fights people because they do things like.. like make unwanted advances on girls..."

She begins crying.

"J--just do it!" she cries. "J..just tell. People. I went crazy.. just..."
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 10:21:50 67891
Amulet Heart reformed the heart. "Open..." It was coming any second. Amu could do it. Destroy Lacrima. She'd done the unthinkable. Turned someone into one of those. Into that. Her hands wavered though.

"Open..." It would be so easy. "Hear..." One more syllable. That was all it'd take. Not even a full word. A part of a word. It was her duty. It was what she HAD to do. If she'd done it before, then there wouldn't BE this issue now! Alexis might still be alive! Or... or hurt or...

"Open... hear..." Yes. Just do IT! What would sailor moon do? What would ANY of the other girls do? She was here, NOT THEM! This was her DUTY!

Her hands lowered and she stepped forward, wrapping her arms around Lacrima, hugging her tight. "Lacrima-chan... I'm so... so sorry..." Her henshin dropped and she held her friend as tight as she could, letting her cry it all out.
Lacrima 2017-01-16 10:33:18 67892
Lacrima /wants/ to die. This is ripping her apart inside. She wants to feel it. That burning. She wants to feel herself dissapear. She thinks very very hard, about Natsumi-chan.

That doesn't happen. Amu unhenshins and just...hugs her and she just sits there and cries.

The feeling of anxiety does begin to calm slowly, but it isn't easy.

"Natsumi-chan visited me..." she says quietly. "...and I had to tell her what I did."

"She didn't.. even flinched. She just said.. I probably had a good reason... and she called me... Norie..."

"I forgot that name. No one ever calls me Norie Okana. Everyone just calls me Lacrima."

"I was actually..confused. When she called me that Like. Who did she just call me...?" she begins to slowly unfurl.

"I..I need to figure out. How to tell Alexis." she says quietly.

"I need to figure out how to tell Kunzite..."

"Kunzite was right. We were attacked. But.. I..."
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 10:38:20 67893
Amu Hinamori nodded, holding the girl to her chest. Just letting her fall apart. "Lacrima-chan. You're..." She took a long, slow breath.

"You were watching someone you cared about die. You were watching them suffer." She took a long, slow breath, before making her look her in the eye. "Lacrima-chan, do you want to make this right? To make this as right as you can?" Her hand gently cupped Lacrima's cheeks. "Then take responsibility for it. Completely. Alexis... is new to this. He likely doesn't know what to expect or what he's doing. He's going to need your help. Desperately. And you're responsible to help guiding him."

She took another long, slow breath. "That means no easy ways out. No trying to get yourself purified. You have a duty, now. To help him. To make sure it doesn't get worse for him. It's not going to be easy. And it'll probably hurt at times a lot worse than me purifying you would..."
Lacrima 2017-01-16 10:50:09 67894
Lacrima shakes her head. "I know. Jiaying already gave me the talk. About being his keeper. I try to keep tabs on him. Where he is. Why.... Trying to teach him how to drain." she says. "He doesn't like it. But. It's better than going wild. Hurting people unnessacrily." she says quietly.

"Starvation is horrible. It makes me... us... what I am. Do things." she says.

She gently began to get up, softly trying to move Amu off her and standing up.

"I.. this. Took too much out of me. I need to go feed." she says quietly. "I'm sorry. C..can you. Find your out of the forest yourself..?" she asks quietly.
Amu Hinamori 2017-01-16 10:55:53 67895
Amu Hinamori nods. "Oh. Well, good Jiaying-chan, then." She said, taking her hand. She then paused and... "Here. Let's go back to your place and you can feed on me, okay?" Did she want to let Lacrima do it? No.

But it would be familiar. Something... to show that Amu didn't hate her. That Lacrima wasn't alone in this. That amu was still there for her. Despite what she'd done.
Lacrima 2017-01-16 10:57:33 67896
Lacrima shows concern. "I... Amu...." she says...

"Thank you...Amu-chan." she says quietly as she gently begins to walk back to the bus, so they can go back to the manor.