What Anshi Wanted


Sachiko is almost out of the hospital. Lacrima tries visiting.

Date: 2017-01-29
Pose Count: 20
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 09:01:57 69723
It's been a week since the miraculous news that Sachiko Hayakawa awakened from her coma. The hospital, determined to see her recovered, has been pushing for a swift discharge, but deep pockets have ensured a few more days. Today, however, is destined to be her last official day in the hospital.

While Sachiko's adopted parent deals with paperwork, Sachiko has been left alone in a play room, in her wheelchair. She hasn't got much personal mobility, so she's sitting in the play room by herself, near the window, with a table pulled up next to her. Leaning forward, Sachiko is concentrating, stretching her little hand out, trying to grasp a figurine of a small ballerina doll. She's struggling to pick it up.
Lacrima 2017-01-29 09:11:07 69725
Norie Okana wanted to visit Sachiko again. She's not sure the reaction she'll get. Sometimes she wonders if she'll scream. Or try to run or panic. That hasn't happened yet, but you never know. She doesn't want to force her into another coma through sheer stress. She'd never forgive herself then. That isn't even an energy drain.

She softly walks into the playroom, having been pointed to her general location, and she looks around. No one else.

She walks forward and gently purses her lips.

"Sachi-chan." she says softly. As best she's going to get to 'kind' or 'loving' in tone, just a quiet deadpan.

"Do you need help with that?" she asks.
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 09:13:18 69727
Sachiko doesn't stop reaching, but she does turn her head a little to look up at who's talking to her.

Recognition flickers through Sachiko's brown eyes, as she considers Norie thoughtfully. "Oh," she murmurs quietly, then draws her hand back just a little. "Norie-chan."

Slowly, and with effort, Sachiko sits back up in the wheelchair, clearly struggling with physical activity. She pants a little, then catches her breath and looks down to the ballerina doll just out of her reach. "It doesn't matter," she admits quietly.

"Why are you here?"
Lacrima 2017-01-29 09:29:09 69731
Norie Okana softly reaches down to pick up the ballerina and moves it a little closer within reach- for when she wants it. She then frowns. "You seem more coherent. That's good!" she says. "But it seems you still need time..." she says quietly.

"I was thinking. Of talking to someone I know that might be able to replenish some of your energy." she says softly. "He's kind. He'd help if I asked." she says softly. "For this."

She head tilts. "I'm here because I wanted to see, how you were doing. I don't think I'd be a very good friend if I stopped visiting you here just because you were all well." she says softly. "But it looks like you're being sent home finally?" she asks.
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 09:32:32 69732
Sachiko looks at the ballerina while Norie moves it, but her expression remains disaffected. She looks up from the doll to Norie, then tilts her head just a little, almost exactly at the same time as Norie does.

"Good friend," Sachiko replies, as if testing the words. Or perhaps accusing Norie by them.

The words linger in the air for a few moments like a heavy burden, before Sachiko asks, "Can he give me Anshi back?"
Lacrima 2017-01-29 09:42:33 69734
Norie Okana shakes her head. "I don't think he's able to... give you Anshi back, Sachi-chan." she says softly. "He can help you heal, and that would be it." she says quietly. "I'm sorry." she says.

She softly sits at the table and clasps her hand in her lap. "I'm sorry for a lot of things." she says quietly. "But there's not a lot I can do to fix things." she says quietly.

"If I could bring her back for you. I would." she says. "-and if I find a way to... you'll know okay?" she asks softly.
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 09:44:00 69735
Sachiko shrugs just faintly and closes her eyes, leaning back in her wheelchair. For several moments she doesn't say anything else, as she simply rests.

Eventually, though, she does return to the conversation, mouth moving just faintly as she murmurs, "I wish you had killed me, instead."
Lacrima 2017-01-29 09:53:25 69738
Norie Okana is content to sit there quietly with Sachiko. She's willing to be here and to listen and to help. Quietness is okay. She doesn't expect Sachiko to be all talk and heelys yet. She then blinks when she finally talks.

"I wish you had killed me, instead.'

This makes Norie twitch heavily. "No. No you don't." she says a little more darkly than usual. "I'm dead. It's awful. I hate it." she says quietly. "I'm sure Anshi wouldn't want you dead either." she says quietly.

"Right...?" she asks.
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 10:11:05 69741
Sachiko opens her eyes and considers Norie, then shakes her head. "You're not dead," she replies with a faint sneer. But the other poiint does stand, and Sachiko has to consider it for a while.

"I think Anshi wanted me to not know about death," she replies quietly. "Anshi ... wanted me to not know about sadness. She made me not know about daddy or momma ..."
Lacrima 2017-01-29 10:21:42 69742
Norie Okana frowns. "I know it's really easy to dismiss it, because I am walking around and what not." she says quietly. "But I'm a vampire. Undead. I died. At some point, Sachi-chan." she says quietly. "Probably when I was in the hospital for that week." she says.

She head tilts. "Anshi wanted to protect you." she says softly. "If she didn't tell you about those things. She wanted you to be happy and not be sad." she says.

"And she worked really hard I bet for that, given what I do know about it." she says quietly.

"Kukai-kun is really happy you're awake." she says. "Lots of people are happy to hear you're okay."
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 10:22:56 69743
Sachiko shrugs just a little, then looks back at the little ballerina doll. "The doctor says if I work really hard, I might be able to dance again."
Lacrima 2017-01-29 10:28:10 69744
Norie Okana nods a bit. "I hope you will Sachi-chan." she says. "Dancing used to make me feel special." she says. "...but I stopped. Dancing. After what I did to you." she says quietly. "Mostly." she says.

"No one really wants to dance with me. And Natsumi-chan just steps on my feet a lot." she says.

"I.. don't expect you. To want to dance with me ever again." she says quietly. "That's okay." she says. "Considering..." she says, wrapping her arms around her a bit with a soft swallow.
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 10:29:51 69746
Sachiko's face darkens a little. She screws up her nose like a snorting pig and her eyes go beady with irritation. "I don't want to dance," she hisses unhappily. "The only reason I ever wanted to dance was for Anshi. And now ..." she trails off, looking up at Norie. "You can't give her to me. You can't give her back. And when you finally decide to make me feel better, you don't even finish it, so I have to wake up and find out that all of my dreams of Anshi were a lie, and now I'm back here, and I can't do anything."
Lacrima 2017-01-29 10:46:01 69748
Norie Okana frowns and seems to sort of curl up just a bit inwards when she snaps. "Sachi-chan..." she says softly. "You can still.. dance. For Anshi." she says quietly. "She may not be here." she says. "But I'm sure she's watching. Somehow." she says. She's seen too much craziness to not believe this isn't true in some way.

She frowns and squints a bit. "Have you considered... all options for that, Sachi-chan?" she asks. Sachi-chan is upset. She doesn't like seeing Sachi-chan upset. It hurts her deep inside in a bad way. A reminder she did something terrible.

Therefore, she says something that maybe Kukai will kill her later over again.

"What about... that little white creature?" she asks softly.
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 10:48:31 69749
Sachiko shrugs just faintly, clearly still unhappy. But it seems the upset has worn her out, and she doesn't immediately respond. Instead, she simply shakes her head a little, then leans forward, closing her eyes. "The Kyubey says that he can't bring her back. He says my karma diety isn't big enough." Whatever that means. "He says ... he says he can grant me any wish, but he can't grant me the only wish I want."
Lacrima 2017-01-29 10:58:03 69751
Norie Okana frowns. "Oh...." she says softly. "I'd wish for you... if I could. But I can't." she says. "I'm not even what he needs anyways." she says. "He needs human girls." she says. "I'm not human." she says.

"Maybe Momo-san can help?... she might know things I don't. Lots of people know things I don't. You don't know. Or others don't. I'm sure someone knows how to bring someone back like that. Somehow." she says.

She begins running through everything in her head.

Puella Magi... she just mentioned it. The White Rat says 'no'. Jewel Seeds...? No. Those are horrible and awful as far as she can tell. She's pretty sure Anshi's body is a goopy and/or desiccated mess at this point... else she could try the vampire embrace thing. She'd be willing to do it here if it made Sachi-chan okay.

She's out of options to suggest, so she purses her lips silently a bit.
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 11:11:11 69752
"Momo hasn't even come to see me," Sachiko replies quietly. "I don't think she likes me anymore."
Lacrima 2017-01-29 11:18:08 69753
Norie Okana shakes her head. "No. I don't believe that." she says. "After you... went into the coma. She came after me." she says. "Kukai too. He straight up tried to kill me for a bit. Took my arm off a few times." she says.

"Your friends care about you, Sachi-chan." she says softly.

"Maybe Momo doesn't know...?" she asks. Small girls aren't exactly known for watching the news.

"Do you want me to tell Kukai to tell her? It's possible it's slipped his mind." she says. "To do that already."
Sachiko Hayakawa 2017-01-29 11:21:34 69754
"It doesn't matter," Sachiko replies quietly, though it almost looked for a moment like it would. Right about the time Norie gave the suggestion that Momo doesn't know.
Lacrima 2017-01-29 11:27:34 69755
Norie Okana softly decides that she'll make Momo aware somehow. Either through Kukai or maybe she'll find her herself. Still. She softly purses her lips as she goes to say something else when there's some sort of commotion going on. Something about getting a van ready. Ah...

"It sounds like you're ready to go home Sachiko. If you... still live where you did. I'll try to visit soon, if you want." she says softly.

"Okay?" she asks as she begins to softly depart, though it seems she doesn't want to-- it's better to give the family their space.