Nothing Is Right

Nagihiko and Sky Jack are both suffering from Clow Card issues. But at least they're not alone.

Date: 2017-02-21
Pose Count: 31
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 04:05:08 71420
Nagihiko has spent the last...hour? debating on which brand of chips to get. Before that, he spent fifteen minutes on candy. Before that, what to drink.

Basically, he's been taking his sweet-ass time trying to keep busy with the most inane things. It's better than what he has been doing, which has been basically going to school, pretending to be Aloof Polite, and going home to just lay in a corner until he fell asleep and school came back around. (And dance practice. Which has been...sucky at best.)

Now, though, he's purchased his goods for the day and he's stepping out into the crisp night air. He would enjoy it if he were more happier. But as it is, it nips at his cheeks and causes him to hide deeper into his hoodie.

Which probably means he should have taken that jacket instead...
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 04:24:18 71421
Kukai Souma is awake. Sleep isn't exactly something he needs right now, since his mind has been Changed by one of the Clow Cards into the body of Norie Okana, a.k.a. Lacrima. The disguise of 'Norie' exhausts him, so it's gone. Thankfully, it's Tokyo at night. White haired little girls in purple lacy outfits don't draw as many looks as you would imagine.

It's been a long day. She was hungry for most of it, and even with Norie-K's help she couldn't find anyone deserving of eating. She'd finally taken the time to first drain a drunk guy lying out behind a bar - it had torn her heart up even further to turn his drunken stupor into a several hours out cold sleep plus a pounding headache, but it would work for now. Her stomach gnaws at her faintly now though as she walks the streets, trying to figure out what to do.

The thing is, doom doesn't come every so often. It tends to come all at once. So as she was turning the corner around a familiar looking minimart she looks up just in time to see a familiar, beloved face exiting - Nagihiko. A sharp intake of air practically cuts her in half - there's no way he won't see her, there's no way she can't see him, and... oh no, oh, no. Not like this. He hadn't told anyone what was going on because it tore him up, even if Norie-K was going to spend the night with Kaido and the brothers, and she was supposed to be spending hers with Norie's family - she couldn't go home without food. Oh nononono.... All of this means she stares at Nagihiko in stunned silence, trembling all over.
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 04:34:20 71422
He pulls up short of the unexpected girl. For a moment he expects an attack. Or to get yelled at. But after a moment his shoulders just sort of deflate.

"If you're looking for a fight, it'd kind of be unfair since I'm pretty much unarmed. If you're looking for a fight with Kukai, he broke up with me like...a few weeks ago so I couldn't even tell you where he is right now. Maybe with...this girl I know. But I don't know where she is, because she's kind of a bitch."

And he looks tired. He sounds tired. The heavy bags under his eyes pretty much say he's tired.

Still, he shrugs. "If it's none of the above, I'm not doing anything if you want a coffee." Not that he's desperate for contact. He isn't. It's just been school-home-sleep for him the past...however long.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 04:45:00 71423
Kukai-N just.. stares at Nagihiko for a moment. There's no love inside him. He can't feel the warmth and glow of love, the cheerful, life-affirming emotion of happiness that he always feels every time he sees Nagihiko or Nadeshiko. Even though he and Nagihiko were apparently broken up, still, seeing him seems to be tearing up Kukai-N more than anything else up to this point.

Her hands grasp at her dress, kneading it, as she stares at him. "...No, not .. I don't ever want to fight you. I.. I know about you and Kukai. I'm so sorry about that." Her voice sounds miserable, even. "And I hope he's not with whomever else because you and he do good together."

Kukai-N looks back and forth for a moment, trying to find an escape, trying to figure out what to do next, and then starts as he offers to take her out for coffee. "I... I... yeah. Yes. Coffee would be ok. I don't... it's not.. yes. Coffee." She frowns a little, looking down. "OK. Let's get coffee." How can you ask a stranger you love to hold you in their arms when they don't know you? Coffee is a good enough substitute.
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 04:54:15 71424
His eyes widen for a moment. "H-how do you know?" Wait, no, it's okay if people talk, calm down. "I mean...yeah. So." He shrugs. "As long as he's happy?" And he feels it in his toes, but the selfish part of him is still railing at the fact that apparently Kukai couldn't be happy with him. Which hurts as much as getting torn in half did.

His eyebrows furrow as he looks at Lacrima for a moment. His head tilts in confusion. Finally, he points in the way of That Coffee Place before...pointing in the other direction. "Well, there's a place up here that serves decent coffee. Not the best in town, mind you. The best in town would have obstacles along the way and I doubt you'd want that."

He starts walking before looking at her again, head tilted. "Are you okay? You look worse than I feel."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 05:06:57 71425
Kukai-N hmphs. "I don't know if Kukai can ever be happy. He's probably miserable right now." She hugs herself around the middle, thinking dark thoughts. She moves over and takes Nagihiko's arm, hanging onto him as she nods. "I don't wanna go back into the park right now anyway. Well. Maybe I do but you wouldn't enjoy it. I'm..." She looks down. "Well maybe I'll find somebody who wants to steal your wallet or something."

She shakes her head and hugs his arm. "No. I'm not ok. I'm never ok. I may not be ok ever again. I'm trying to get to comfortable and I can't get there. It's making me insane."
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 05:16:30 71426
"Of course he can! If anyone deserves it, it's him!" His words are snapped out a bit more harshly than they should be so he sighs. He's a bit...startled when she takes his arm, very much not expecting it, but he doesn't take it away. He does look alarmed at her statement. "I'd...rather not get mugged at all, really."

He rolls his eyes, just a little. "Well, you're acting more not okay than normal. Usually you'd be...trying to chew on my energy or something."

He lead her toward the subpar coffee shop. Before they reached the door he stopped to look at her. "If you don't wanna talk about it, it's fine. But I've been realizing that bottling shit up can be...worse for your health than anything. Exhibit me? I'm single, probably because of that."

And then, gentleman that he is, he holds the door open for her.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 05:29:06 71427
Kukai-N winces as Nagihiko yells, shivering. She doesn't exactly know how to respond to the idea that he deserves happiness right now, so she just walks along with Nagihiko. "I know. Well, you wouldn't get mugged, but that's besides the point."

Kukai-N pushes Nagihiko roughly but not too hard when he says that bit about munching his energy. "No! Not you. Not... no. No. I won't. I will not!" She shivers a little, walking along with him, until he stops in front of the door. "... You wouldn't believe me if I told you what was going on. You'd look at me and tell me to get lost, who'd believe such a stupid story, even if I could prove it. And I don't wanna hurt you at all, so... maybe I shouldn't say anything."

She rubs her arms and then looks up at him as she walks past, a sad look on her face. He's less single than he'd imagine right now.
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 06:00:29 71428
"Yeah, but...I'd just rather it a possibility?" Because draining people is scary.

His eyes widen at her vehement response. "Um...glad to hear it?" He rolls his eyes, though, because really? "Trust me. The month I've been having? It can't be anymore weird than getting split in half. Literally." He thinks for a moment. "Sort of."

He rubs the back of his neck in confusion as the girl slides past him. With a shrug, he makes his way to the counter. "Okay." He pulls out his wallet and sifts through bills. Its more so he doesn't have to look at anyone than counting. He gives his order this way, fingers shaking and voice trembling just a touch. When the barista asks if he wants milk, he flounders for a moment before a rushed 'yesplease' leaves his mouth. He flops his hand at Lacrima. "Andwhatshewantsplease."

While she orders, he closes his eyes to breathe, because holy cow Peopling is hard.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 06:20:39 71429
Kukai-N sighs and mutters something about inevitability as she enters the cafe.

She snorts and then shakes his head. "How about if in addition to all the other things going wrong in your life you got your mind swapped because of a frigging magical frog vole card thingy into the body of somebody else who couldn't feel anything good or happy and had to drain the energy of people to survive? I'm pretty sure that would be weirder than being split in half." It's not like she responds weirdly to his comment about being split in half - sort of like she knows what he's talking about?

She watches Nagihiko babble and shake his way through his order, then hmphs, looking down. "Coffee, black, strong, with a shot of espresso."
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 06:38:55 71430
His cheeks turn pink then red as Lacrima rants. He feels as though he's being berated and it makes him shift in place but oh goodness don't act too down because people hate it when you feel sorry for yourself this isn't about you you selfish asshole no wonder you're single.

"Yeah, um, I guess that would be worse..."

But wait, how would she know that? The only people Nagihiko is aware of that knows are Kunzite, Kukai, and...hell he doesn't know who else. Aside from Nadeshiko. Amu, obviously. But he can't really think of a way for Lacrima to know this.

His cheeks nearly burn off his skin at the 'hmph.' He's doing better! He can at least order things! He's trying!

A confused look at the coffee order. It wasn't exactly uncommon, but there weren't many people who'd order black coffee in a coffee shop. Well, maybe the expresso was a bit froofroo. But where's the milk? Where's the sugar?

It's not long before the coffee is ready and he's doctoring his up with sugar, cinnamon, some flavorings, and anything else to basically leave only a hint of coffee flavor. Because this place isn't the other place, and not all coffee is good.

He shifts his eyes toward Lacrima and away, wondering just exactly how to ask things.

Well, it's actually easier to talk to someone when you already know they don't like you, right? Unless it isn't hyperbole and she's being literal.

He blows at his coffee as he leads the way toward an empty booth. "If you're not Lacrima, who are you?"
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 06:51:55 71431
Kukai-N grumbles and then nods. "You bet it's worse. I want a hug worse than anything. At least Norie's in my body and running around being happy. I bet she's smooching all sorts of people." She grumbles, looking down and trying to forget about how she feels and get past it.

Kukai-N had eaten a bunch of things today. None of them were enjoyable. For now she just wants something she knows she probably won't like, because the odds are she'll feel the same about it she does anything else. She follows Nagihiko over to the additive counter, seeing him doctoring his coffee and sniffs. "Man and you worry about not being a girl anymore. She probably drinks hers blacker than pitch, and you turn yours into dessert." Haaarsh.

She seats herself, and then watches him, drumming her fingers, sipping the tar she'd ordered. It was at least warm and filled her with heat. Finally she looked away and frowned. "I don't want to say. It's embarrassing."
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 07:03:39 71432
He blinks a bit and looks horrified. "Unless you gave the go ahead, I hope she's not smooching all sorts of people." He thinks for a moment. "Unless...that's not weird?"

And then his blush turns a different shade, and it's the more unpleasant burn he's become accustom to. "This is why I'm not hugging you. I'm constantly worried about offending people just by breathing, and it's my coffee you're offended by?" He pulls his mug closer to him and sort of huddles. "Besides, if she's drinking coffee, of course it's black, because she'd be drinking the good stuff."

He becomes more and more nervous. He rolls his eyes. "Fine, don't tell me. It's not like you have me at a disadvantage, apparently knowing all my deepest darkests." He tilts his head and bites his lip in thought. "I'm trying to figure it out, but 'cranky' and 'apparently hates my guts' doesn't give as many results as you would think."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 07:15:35 71433
Kukai-N growls. "She better not be. Or him. Or however you wanna think about it. I'm .. he. Or she. Or something. I dunno. It's so confusing." She rests her head on the table, chin first, tired and hungry.

She sniffs, sitting back up and then poking his shoulder. "You should be doing what makes you happy, because that's what's important, as long as you're not hurting other people or breaking any laws or anything. And what's wrong with my coffee? It fits my mood - thick and bitter and crappy."

She watches him roll his eyes and hmphs. "...yeah maybe I went too hard there. I do kinda know... some things." She frowns, staring into her coffee. She hadn't meant to tell him so much about who he was. She was. Whatever! "The dark energy makes me hate everything. There is nothing good right now. I feel awful. Maybe I should go..."
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 07:33:10 71434
Nagihiko shrugs and stirs a spoon in his coffee. "You're...however you feel. If you were a boy then and wanna be now, you're a boy. If you feel like a girl, you're a girl. If you wanna be both, fine." He sips, then, because it's awkward talking about this with someone he doesn't know. Or at least, someone he's pretty sure he knows, but doesn't really know. Or...something.

He jumps a little before he pokes back. "Yeah, but how can I do that when what I did to be happy was because of her? Mostly. Just...bah."

He just sort of...shrinks into himself. How does she know? Who told? Was it Kukai? But why? He stares out the window for a moment, desperately wanting at least a semblence of what passes for normal for him.

He shrugs. "If you want? But I hear misery loves company." He shrugs and holds the coffee mug in front of his mouth, taking the occasional sip. "But hey, tomorrow's bound to be better, right? Or the tomorrow after that? If it wasn't, I'd likely just offer you a smorgasboard and be done with it, so."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 07:49:52 71435
Kukai-N hmms and then frowns. "I wanna be me again! I'm a boy and this stupid body isn't mine! This is such a screwed up situation!" She shifts around and then sits up, looking at Nagihiko with determination. "And I... oh, I can't think about that now. I just can't. I have my own problems to deal with. Sorry..." She looks down.

Another harumph. "Well I'm pretty miserable right now. If... you wanna hang out with me, that would be good." She looks down, then back up at him. "I dunno if it will be or not. Sakura is trying to get the card to recharge but she's bad at everything, so it may take a day or two." Probably more than that, seeing as how Kukai-N made her keep trying till she and the card were exhausted....
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 07:59:40 71436
"I-I know you do! I wasn't trying--! You suggested I--!" Flustered, he just burries his nose in his coffee for a moment. Far longer than his sip lasts. Because she asked and he wasn't trying to do things like that, he'd thought they were conversing and this is why he didn't go out in public.

"Of course she's bad at this, she's ten years old. But you know what caused this, right? It may not seem like a lot, but it's something. It may only be a candle flicker in the distance, but at least you're not floundering in the dark. It will be okay."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 08:07:03 71437
Kukai-N stares at Nagihiko for a long moment before reaching over, grasping his hand. "...I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Everything I'm doing right now is powered by this awful darkness and nothing is right. I just... I just meant I don't have the brain power to think about how to help anybody but myself." She draws back into herself, a little miserable now. "...and I'm hungry. Which is awful awful."

Kukai-N sighs and nods, looking into the last of her coffee cup. "I know. I know she caused it and she can fix it when she recovers. I know..." She looks up at Nagihiko, about to say how she knows he doesn't have that same candle. "I can't hope. It's too positive an emotion. I just have to ... drag this out, one step at a time. I just want to lie in bed and cry, but even so I have to ..." She growls faintly. "And I have to eat even more than silly Lacrima does because of... reasons. Which REALLY pisses me off. But I gotta go out and find some... body... before I go rampant."
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 08:16:07 71438
He just...blinks at her hand on his for a moment. It's as familiar as it is foreign and he's glad when she lets go because it was causing a weird little ache in his chest.

He tries this joke thing he's heard so much about. "You can cry? Have a good one for me, too." But jokes aren't with humorless laughs.

And he's still awkward and weird, and she's still a cranky bitch. But he's pretty sure now that whoever she is, she doesn't hate him.

His eyes narrow a bit as he tilts his head and bites his lip. "I'm pretty sure I'm supposed to try and stop you from feeding on innocent people. And then, after you win, you'll be even more hungry and will probably slip."

He leans forward a bit more and tilts his head the other way. "There's only one logical conclusion. Ulterior motive? Maybe I'll get more than two hours of sleep. And you'd also get that hug."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 08:31:02 71439
Kukai-N hmphs at the joke. "That's a really bad joke. I guess I can cry, though.." She sighs and then looks at him. She absolutely doesn't hate him. Much the opposite.

Then he bites his lip and even in another body Kukai-N finds himself leaning up on the table, staring at that lovely habit with wide eyes, before shaking her head and sitting down, praying he didn't just give it away. "Yeah, yeah. What you said. I mean.. um."

She catches the last of it, then frowns. "Maybe... if you're not sleeping. You'll wake up with a solid headache, though."
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 08:41:18 71440
He shrugs a little, but hey, Not!Lacrima gets a small smile out of him. "At least I'm joking? That's an improvement, I think."

He leans back when she leans forward, blinking large eyes in confusion. What's that look? He's pretty sure he could almost see it on someone else but he can't quite put his finger on it.

But then it's over and she's sitting down like she hadn't looked two seconds from kissing him or something.

He shrugs. "Well, I could drink water and take some headache medicine before I go to sleep. That's what my parents do to fight off hangovers. Might be kind of like that, right?"

He sips his coffee again. It's almost gone, which is good, because he had to use way too much stuff to make it taste as little Crappy Coffee as possible.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 09:02:07 71441
Kukai-N lets out a small whew as he doesn't catch on. "Yeah. Well.." She nods. "That would be really good. I guess it would work. If you want to go somewhere and do this, that would be really nice." She sets her empty mug down on the table and nods to him. "I... thank you for this."
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 09:08:28 71442
Nagihiko finishes up his own coffee and stands. He shrugs a bit as he does. "Well, I mean, it's probably good for both of us, sort of. So."

He walks over to open the door and holds it open for her again. "Any place you had in mind? Or just some random back alley with a wham, bam, thank you ma'am?"
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 09:10:24 71443
Kukai-N sniffs. "Somewhere you can get to sleep in a hurry, because you're not going to want to move a lot when I'm done. So unless you -want- to wake up in the alley sometime tomorrow afternoon, it had better be your house." She stands as well, then looks at him. "Thank you for this..."
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 09:17:27 71444
He's...not really expecting that. Still, it makes sense. "Okay. But a bit quiet. They usually get confused if I bring someone home that I...normally don't bring home."

It's not a long walk to his house. It's maybe a couple blocks past the school, which is a couple blocks from where they are. He's quiet unless she speaks, arms crossed to keep as much bodyheat close as he can.

It's weird. He feels kind of nervous. Which is ridiculous, because its not like this is a date.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 09:28:04 71445
Kukai-N nods and then hmphs. "I know how to behave in somebody else's house." She follows along beside him to his house, trying not to fidget with her steadily growing hunger. She also looks around, curious as to where Rhythm or Temari had gotten off to - maybe they were both with Nadeshiko right now? Who knows. Saying anything about them might actually give away the secret of who she was.

She doesn't speak at all unless he does, so they both stay quiet. The wind doesn't bother her, but what was about to happen had her guts tied up in knots. As long as she stopped in time, it would be ok...
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 09:34:27 71446
Nagihiko snorts. "I didn't say you didn't." Rhythm and Temari were indeed both with Nadeshiko. They've been with her since, well, the break-up. And he misses them both, but he's not exactly in the best place for them to be around.

They're able to sneak past the gate and into the house without getting caught. Soon his slippered feet are padding down the hallway. He passes Nadeshiko's room and goes into Nagihiko's room.

For a normal teen, it would likely be considered clean. For him, it's...not. There's actually a dirty pile of clothes near the closet and a few food wrappers on the low table in front of the couch. His bed isn't made. Probably hasn't been for awhile.

"Well, here we are. Home sweet home." He looks around a moment before standing in front of his bed. "Last time I slept on the couch my neck hurt for the day."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 09:48:34 71447
Kukai-N nods and follows him into the house quietly. An idle memory crosses her mind for getting back out, but first up, she needs to... do this thing. It wasn't exactly something she was looking forward to, but. She was carrying her shoes along with her, wearing a borrowed pair of pads as they make their way to his room.

Kukai-N looks around the room, setting her shoes next to the door, then pokes one of the food wrappers. "You could at least clean up tomorrow. OK?" She eyes him as he talks, then nods, pushing him gently to where he's sitting on the bed. "... ok. OK. I'm.. I'm gonna do this and I'll be ... gentle."

She reaches down, taking his larger hands in her smaller ones, and closes her eyes. Part of her mind wants to resist this evil thing, part of him knows what happens if it doesn't happen, what could happen to some random person out there. The knot in her stomach is what pushes her over the edge. "..Drain." Energy begins to pour out of Nagihiko and into Nadeshiko, not painfully, but in a wave, filling that empty place within her rapidly and quickly making Nagihiko feel as if he had spent a few hours in dance practice. Then part of a day. Then all day. And more...
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 10:01:10 71448
He snorts and rolls his eyes. "I wasn't exactly expecting company. Besides, aside from you, no one's been over in like...weeks. So. Why?"

He knows why, of course. But part of him is feeling petulant.

He sits at her guidance and just looks up at her when she takes his hand. His muscles relax and his eyes grow more and more heavy.

Finally, he thinks, he's as tired physically as he is emotionally and mentally. And it sucks hard when those three aren't in sync.

He doesn't fall back onto the bed. He slumps forward, head falling against her shoulder as his eyes close. He's not asleep, but just barely.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-21 10:07:15 71449
Kukai-N shrugs at the 'why'. She knows why he's being like this, but she doesn't say anything. She has something else on her mind.

She finally pulls herself away from him, yanking her hands away, and pants, feeling more full and mentally refreshed and complete than she had in two days. She goes over, and then gently guides him backwards to lie down on the bed, pulling his legs up onto it as she works, then looks down at him with something approaching contentment.

One hand comes up and caresses his cheek in a caring fashion as she watches his eyes close. "...sleep good, Na-kun." Then she turns, going over to slip on her shoes, and focuses, thinking. How was it Lacrima had done this? Just.. think wispy, think... mist. A black, hazy form appears where she was, and the mist trails along out the door of the room and along the hallways, back through to the exit and outside of the gate, where it reforms into Kukai-N. She sighed, and then turned, thinking through how she was going to interact with Norie's family when she got to their home.
Nagihiko Fujisaki 2017-02-21 10:13:33 71450
He's easy to maneuver, going where she prods and curling on the mattress. He has enough brain left to tug the blanket up.

His breathing is slow and even as he drifts, and even as a part of his remembers about the water and headache stuff, he's actually feeling pretty good right now. The way you do when you haven't slept in ages and are finally able to.

He feels her hand on his cheek. He hears her words. And he's just far enough away to mumble out an instinctual reaction. "...night Kukai."

Besides. There's not many people who do call him that and there's really only one his misses at the moment.