Kukai's life suuuuuuuucks

Amu meets with Kukai-N. It... goes decently.

Date: 2017-02-23
Pose Count: 38
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 20:15:06 71708
There are only a few clouds overcast in the sky as a mild wind blows through the streets of Tokyo, chilling those without a light coat. Fortunately for Kukai-N, she's inside the Manor that Lacrima usually stays at, conserving her energy by staying in 'bed', the coffin Lacrima used. Which is good, because she was in no mood to go outside right now anyways.

Norie-K had brought her Daichi's egg case, and right now he was asleep in his egg as Kukai-N tried to focus and concentrate, looking for that state of 'comfortable' she'd been told about. It was close, but not quite there. At least her stomach wasn't grumbling today - Naru's energy, while hard to get ahold of, was hearty and fulfilling, much like the beef jerky she'd compared it to the other night.
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 20:17:31 71709
Amu Hinamori sighed as she walked into the manor, giving a little shake. Okay. Okay, she could do this. "Norie-chan? It's me! Amu! Are you here?" she called out.

She knew Kukai was in her body. She knew all about it. But... she couldn't say. She had to let Kukai tell her on his own. So he could not feel betrayed or hurt. Because he was her friend. First and foremost. And she had to protect him. Like he always protected her.

She hoped he was doing okay.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 20:23:12 71710
Kukai-N blinked and sat up, looking towards the door where she'd heard the voice. Oh, well, crap. It's Amu. What is she doing here? Probably just came to visit. She idly wonders if Amu had heard... maybe, but. Anyway.

Kukai-N sighed and sat up, hopping out of the coffin, looking to all the world to be Lacrima, and headed for the bedroom door out to the hall. "I'm up here in my room, Amu." She blinked for a moment, then scampered back inside the room, grabbing Daichi's egg case, and after a few moments stuffs it into the coffin underneath her pillow. "Sorry! Just cleaning up for a second! Come on up!"
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 20:28:17 71711
Amu Hinamori nodded and soon arrived at the door. And just... stared. "Is... that a coffin? You... have a coffin in your room?" she asked, then... "Well, err, I guess there's... always something new to learn about your friends, right?" she asked, then smiled. "So, I'm here for our weekly feeding. How are you feeling? Everything okay? haven't seen you much at school and stuff lately. I hope I didn't do something to upset you. You know, if you ever need anything, I'm always there for you."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 20:44:20 71712
Kukai-N hmphs. "Yes, there's a coffin in my room here. I sleep in a coffin. It's traditional, isn't it?" She wraps her arms around herself, looking annoyed, then eyes Amu. "I guess so."

She blinks. Weekly feeding? Oh, well... crap. Sure, that sounds acceptable! Hey, if somebody had brought over a pizza when he was in his normal body, he'd consume it quite happily. This was less happy, but it was all right. "I'm... just having a bad week. I would rather be alone right now." SCHOOL. Oh, crap. She hadn't even THOUGHT about school. Oh, crap oh crap crap. Maybe she could convince somebody she was sick. Crap, crap, crap.

Kukai-N grits her teeth and shakes her head. "No, but everything upsets me right now. It's not your fault directly. Don't worry about it. And I know you're there."
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 20:50:39 71713
Amu Hinamori nodded. "Y-yeah. Traditional. And hey, if it's what you like to do, then morep ower to you."

She blinked a few times and then sighed. And then... suddenly hugging her! "Norie-chan, we've talked about this. I'm your friend. No matter what happens, no matter how tough things get, you know I'm here for you and i'll do everything I can to help you out, okay? If... it's really bad and you can't come to school, too? I'll find a way to make it work out. Okay? So... don't fret." Finally letting her go. "And if everything upsets you, well, that happens. Your powers are difficult to endure. I know. So... how about we chat for a bit, okay?"
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 21:10:11 71714
Kukai-N sighs and then acks as she's swept up into a close hug with Amu! She struggles just a little, uncomfortable and blushing, feeling almost unable to hug back, putting her arms around her but finding no joy in it. "...I know Amu. I appreciate it. I'll use you as much as I can stand to."

She sighs, leaning against the pink haired girl. "It's really bad. It's really, really bad. I should be doing a lot more than what I am right now. But I'll try not to... fret, like you say." She nods and then steps back, nodding and moving over to sit on the couch. "OK. Sure, chatting sounds good. I'm not super hungry right now, anyway, but..." She wiggles, unable to continue the rest of that conversation.
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 21:14:34 71715
Amu Hinamori nodded and then smiled, moving to sit besides her. "Yes. Do that. Use me as much as you need. We're friends after all, right? I know if I needed help, my friends wouldn't hesitate to help me." She paused. "Though, I guess I have trouble asking for it, too. But that's what I'm here for. And besides, I'm not working that hard, I can take a bit more on my plate."

Liar. With nades a bit out of commisiion, she'd been working hard to take over a lot of her duties. And with jack down too, well, Amu was doing all she could to keep up on the paperwork and help Tadase out. She was really stepping up and showing her colors, but gosh it was exhausting.

"And it's okay to take things easy once in a while. Kukai-kun's the same way, he always pushes himself to the extremes, but he keeps forgetting we're all there to help him, no matter what." She had to squeeze the couch a bit, hoping the little hint didn't... give away too much.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 21:31:38 71716
Kukai-N blushes and snuggles in against Amu, wanting the warmth and the feel of somebody next to her, even if she couldn't enjoy it like she normally would. "Mmmph. That sounds bad. Like more rotten than my usual rottenness. But I may need it for a bit." She looks up at Amu. "Yes. You have a lot of trouble asking anybody for help. And I don't want you to get sick again from me draining you. That would be awful."

For now, Kukai-N didn't really know anything about how things were going outside of her life, and honestly she might not care about it... She snorts a bit, leaning against Amu more. "Hmph. Kukai just doesn't think everybody can take care of things like he can, and he deals with some sensitive stuff." She blinks, then coughs. "I guess. I dunno. He may lay around being lazy all day, too."
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 21:36:39 71717
Amu Hinamori snorted. "Kukai-kun? No, he's one of the hardest working people I know. He may look really lazy and even act like it sometimes, but that's just the way he acts. He's super dependable and always there when I need it. And it's ture, no one can take care of things the way he can. But we can still take care of them good enough they get done and don't cause problems. And the same is true for you, Norie-chan. We can help you, you don't need to take the weight of everything on.

She put an arm around her shoulder and hugged her. "And don't worry. Even if you full on drained, we've done it plenty of times. That's why we limited it to once a week now, silly. So I don't get sick anymore. So you don't need to keep worrying over it, okay?"
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 21:55:17 71718
Kukai-N hmms and then nudges Amu in the stomach. "You shouldn't talk so nicely about my most vile and awful opponent Sky Jack. He's a butt." She stretches out, head in Amu's lap, sighing. "Yeah. Well I hope everybody can take care of things for a bit, I imagine Kukai may be a little flighty for a bit." She snorts. "I imagine that you would help me all you can, but I've got some things I just can't be helped with."

She snuggled into the hug and hummed. "And I know. I know. I'll just be careful, because not being careful would be awful. And I don't want you to get sick. That would mean you couldn't feed me anymore." She pokes Amu in the stomach.
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 22:00:30 71719
Amu Hinamori snorted a bit. "Yeah. Kukai-kun has had a lot on his mind lately, Na-chan too. But I've been making sure to help Tadase-kun with the paperwork so he doesn't get over whelmed. They have a lot going on in their life right now with her... well..." she made a 'things' gesture. "Hopefully when it's over he'll realize some of the rest of us can help, too. He doesn't always have to handle everything alone."

Then booped her nose. "Uh huh. And I know you're growing a bit fond of him too. And he's getting okay with you, too! Who knows? In a few months the two of you might be acquintances," she teases. Then gripped her hand. "And he has been looking out for you, too. So... don't hate him. Okay?"
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 22:24:26 71720
Kukai-N listens to Amu talk, then nods, stretching. "Yeah. Tadase-kun, the paperwork king." She hmphs. "He'd be fine, really. I guess. Everybody's busy. Yeah. I would hope everyone learns how to work together, but it may not happen. We will have to see."

She acks and then glares up at Amu. "I... dunno how I feel about him, but not 'ok'! But... maybe." She shrugs, then acks. "...I know he's looking out for me. I know it. I don't hate him. much." That's what Norie would say, right?

Kukai-N sat up, looking at Amu for a moment, then nudges her. "....so is it time?"
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 22:27:49 71721
Amu Hinamori giggled softly and nodded. "Well, he is our king. I guess that'd kind of make Kukai-kun the paperwork prince? The paperwork knight? Either way, yeah. We're all keeping busy and working together. And we'll do our very best, no matter what." She gently stroked her hair.

"It's okay. I know how much you're suffering. I... wish I could help more. Find a way to fix this." Then she took her hand and gave it a squeeze. "If you want. Or we can keep tlaking. I'm here for you either way. okay?"
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 22:40:42 71722
Kukai-N makes a face at the idea of 'paperwork knight'. "Ugh. And yeah. We work together, do what we can, keep things from being awful." She looks over at Amu and then sighed, finally nodding. "It's... bad. It's really bad. I hate it. I want to fix it. I'm already so tired of this." She squeezes Amu's hand back. "Well we can talk more after, right? Or are you planning on taking a nap?"
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 22:46:54 71723
Amu Hinamori smiled. "Nah. You'll just need to do a slow drain, okay? And... what's so bad, Norie-chan? Maybe i can help. And, if I can't... can at least listen and let you tell me everything, okay? I just want to reduce your suffering. Even if I can't take it away."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 23:11:55 71724
Kukai-N nods, sitting up and taking one of Amu's hands in hers, putting her arm around her, and nodding. "OK. I'll try to go slow. And..." She looks to one side. Should she say? No. No reason to. "Just... things, right now. I don't think anybody can help right now. It's ok, though. I'll figure it out."

She sighs, then hugs Amu again. "I know. ...Well, then. Sit still. Drain." The sudden icy pull of Lacrima's energy drain begins tugging at Amu's form as Kukai-N consumes her energy, pulling it away and making it her own, even as she grits her teeth, despising herself for it.
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 23:15:36 71725
Amu Hinamori sighed. "I wish you'd depend on me more. i... wish you could trust me more. But... In the end, it's your choice, Norie-chan. I won't force it. Maybe in the future you can." Squeeze once again as she relaxed.

And then the drain and she cringes, biting her lower lip. Okay, okay. It was... Her cheeks turned a little red as when her eyes were opened she could imagine it was Kukai-kun actually doing it and OH MY GOSH she did NOT NEED TO GET EXCITED BY THIS OF ALL THINGS! Oh gosh she wanted to die, gahhhh, baaaaad!
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 23:40:51 71726
Kukai-N shakes her head. "...Sorry. Trust is... I don't know if I can trust anybody like this. I want to, but trust is something that comes from positive actions and I'm... not very positive right now. Sorry."

She wants to stop when she sees that cringe, but it feels ... good. It's maybe the one thing that feels good at all right now. She presses in a little closer to Amu, the arm around her back just as cold as her hands as she hangs onto Amu, taking in deep breaths as she tries to monitor how much of Amu's energy she had in her...

Finally she pulls back, leaving Amu drained and exhausted but not fainting or even unable to walk. She shivers all over, closing her eyes, and looks at Amu, blinking. "....Amu, your cheeks are red..."
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 23:47:48 71728
Amu Hinamori blinked and then quickly shook her head. "W-what? They're always red. The drain is just a bit intense, that's all." LIAR! Oh gosh, please buy it. And oh gosh she was giving off all her tells that she was LYING!

"Either way I trust you, so ummm, if you can't trust me, I'm sure you have a good reason. Yes!" Trying to distract her. The charas of hers shared knowing looks.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-23 23:52:49 71730
Kukai-N arches one eyebrow as she looks at Amu. "You know, I've known you for a while now, and you only blush when you're embarrassed about something, never when you're exerted. ...What are you thinking?"

Kukai-N blinks. "I do trust you, I just worry about how you'd feel if you found out some of the things I've been doing lately. It's crazy, even for me..." She sighs and looks down.
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-23 23:56:40 71731
Amu Hinamori blushed even redder. "W-what? No! I could never get mad at you, Norie-chan!" Pause. "Well, okay, i could. Crazy things, though? I can forgive that." And another hug. "There's nothing wrong with what you do. The only thing wrong is with your situation, the way you're suffering and having to go through all this, alone."

"But I am always here, no matter what. Okay? Even if things get out of control..."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-24 00:25:14 71736
Kukai-N narrows her eyes, staring at Amu. Did she know? Was she making fun of her this whole time? She stared deep into those big eyes for a long moment. "So.... if there was something I had done and you knew and you didn't think I knew and you tried to hide it from me, you know I'd find out, don't you?" If Kukai-N had a tail, it'd be lashing right now.

She hmphs. "And I'm usually suffering, I just don't say anything about it. Most of the time I expect it to get better. This time? Noooope."
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-24 00:29:16 71739
Amu Hinamori blinked a few times. "If... you had done and I knew and... what?" she asked, cocking her head to the side in confusion. Right, she's not the smartest person. "Did... you do something I'm supposed to know, Norie-chan?" she asked a little nervously. Oh dear. She was starting to sweat.

"... It will bet better. Soemhow. I'll fine a way to fix it. Okay? Somehow... I don't care how..."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-24 00:34:59 71740
Kukai-N suddenly grabs Amu and shakeshakeshakes her, yelling! "You know, don't you! You KNOW! You were all friendly and nice and you knew all the time - HOW COULD YOU! That's an awful thing to do to someone you call a friend!" Not that Kukai-N has been the best person right now.

She releases Amu and slams herself down on the seat, fuming and embarrassed and arms crossed, staring at the floor. "I don't even know what to DO with you right now..."
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-24 00:42:23 71743
Amu Hinamori lets out a shriek as she's shaken, her head wobbling from side to side. Then, just lays there for a few seconds as she tries to process what just happened.

Finally, she takes a slow, deep breath and.... hugs him. Again.

"I'm sorry, Kukai-kun. I wanted you to be able to tell me on your own. Norie-chan told me when I noticed something was odd and she was afraid she'd cause problems if I suspected something was wrong. I haven't told anyone, I've kept toyr secret safe..."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-24 01:09:00 71748
Kukai-N doesn't look at Amu as she lays to one side, arms around herself, trying to decide what to do now. Finally she sniffs and then lets out an ack as she's hugged tightly. "...what are you even doing, after I did something so awful like that to you?"

She listens to Amu talk, then leans against her, shivering. "It's so not a secret. It's not. Everybody knows now and I'm so embarrassed. I don't even know what to say. It's awful, awful, awful..." She seems on the verge of tears.
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-24 01:10:45 71749
Amu Hinamori shakes her head. "No. They don't. And no, you aren't. Kukai-kun. She only told me to keep you safe. And this is NOT your fault. Something bad happened to you and none of us think less of you for it. There is nothing to be embarrassed about. We'll figure this out and help you, okay?" She then... kissed her on the cheek. "I promise. And I wouldn't lie to you about something like this."

She then leaned back. "So... don't panic, okay? We're all here to help you. Me, Ran, Miki and Su. Okay?"
Kukai Souma 2017-02-24 01:22:23 71752
Kukai-N sighs and leans against Amu, eyes closed. "Safe? Safe?" She looks at Amu, eyes narrowed. "They need to keep other people safe from me. I need to eat, Amu, and I need to eat people's energy. I'm not going to die, and I'm not going to go rampant, and I am NOT going to lose Daichi during all this. That is still my dream."

Kukai-N hmphs as Amu kisses her on the cheek, looking at the four of them. "... Well. Maybe I could take a little draining nibble off Ran and Miki and Su to keep you from having to suffer so much!" She raises both hands, making evil faces at the three Charas!
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-24 01:29:31 71754
Amu Hinamori blinked a few times and then... the charas fled and hid! Amu chuckled and patted her shoulders. "Let's... not do that. But..." She then frowned. "Kukai-kun, where is Daichi-kun? Is... is he okay?" she asked softly, suddenly worried. Extended draining had hurt her charas. She didn't want to imagine what was happening to poor Daichi now. Not when it was like... this.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-24 01:36:11 71756
Kukai-N lets out a little laugh as the charas flee, then looks back to Amu. "Aww." She then frowns, looking down, and stands up. She goes over to the coffin, digging in under the pillow, and pulls out Daichi's egg case, opening it up. The egg is there, sealed, and she pulls it out, cradling it close to her chest. "He's... alive. He's not doing well - he's having to live off more and more energy, and it's all dark energy, and it's... not hurting him, not changing him, but it's not sustaining him like it should be."
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-24 01:38:56 71757
Amu Hinamori frowned and gave a nod. "I... i see." She walked over to him and frowned, holding out her hands... then pulling them back. Right, maybe reaching for the egg would be a bad idea with his current state. "Can I hold him, for a second? Is there anything I can do? Any way to like... give him more energy? Of mine? Maybe I could open heart him and... that might end poorly for you. Nevermind."
Kukai Souma 2017-02-24 01:53:47 71759
Kukai-N looks up at Amu, then clutches the little egg closely. "I miss him. He's sleeping a lot." She thinks for a long moment before holding out the egg, putting it in Amu's hands. "I dunno.... I just don't. I wish I did. I would do whatever I could to help him... but I don't know how." She rubs her head, shivering. "Ugh..."
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-24 01:55:34 71760
Amu Hinamori nodded and then took the egg. She clutched it to her chest, holding it tightly, against the dumpty lock that she carried with her always. Gently holding it to her.

The girls glided down, stroking their hands on the egg, the four of them willing... well... something to happen. Anything, to help their friend.
Kukai Souma 2017-02-24 01:57:55 71761
Kukai-N leans in, watching Amu and the girls, growing tenser and tenser as nothing happens. After a minute she sighs and reaches back out for the egg. "At least he isn't vanishing. He's just not coming out right now. I don't think he likes me who I am now."

She cradles the egg close, holding it against her and rocking.
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-24 02:00:46 71762
Amu Hinamori shakes her head and then hugs her again. "No. That's not it. He loves you. You're Kukai, the most important person in the whole, wide world to him. And you're suffering. So, so much. And it upsets him. But he could never, ever not like you. He just doesn't like what's happening to you. That's all."

She slowly pulls back. "Are... you sleeping okay?"
Kukai Souma 2017-02-24 02:06:43 71764
Kukai-N sighs and then puts the egg away carefully into the case, setting it to one side. She looks over to Amu and then hugs her again. "I don't sleep a lot, no. I sleep some.." She sighs and shakes her head. "I dunno what to do now. I just wanna get back into the coffin and curl up."
Amu Hinamori 2017-02-24 02:08:56 71765
Amu Hinamori nods and then motions inside. "Then... do that. But... Kukai-kun? We're GOING to fix this. We're going to get you back in your body. We're going to save you. I swear. And I would never, ever break a promise to you." She gave his hand another squeeze. "Because you mean the world to me, okay?"