Donuts Don't Make Great Songs

Alex and Miku talk about their current conditions. Oddly, there are a couple of actual smiles somewhere in there.

Date: 2017-03-13
Pose Count: 53
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 08:32:01 73307
It's kind of a late time of day to be going out, let's be honest. Even more so for someone to text another person to go hang out just because they need a 'distraction' from... something.

STill, it being as late as it is works pretty well for Alex, really, considering how few people are out and about to see him going about his particular shenanigans. Which in this case include him pouncing across buildings - and eventually trees - in high arcing jumps empowered by dark energy to make his way all the way over to the rooftop of one of the buildings at Verone academy like some protagonist from a discount young adult's vampire novel.

At least he doesn't sparkle.
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 08:41:23 73308
Miku dressed for the weather and occasion, not in the typical school uniform, but in a pair of calf-length blue tights and a white strappy frock dress with a lavender teeshirt beneath. Yellow sandals, and her typical white bow.

The teenager was all too quick to hop on Alexis' back once he knelt down, at this point more prepared for what's coming. On her back she has a small half-sized backpack wwith some weight in it. A book? Probably *that* book.

"Hi," she says as she climbs on. "How's it going?"
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 08:46:31 73309
It's quick enough that Alex himself is probably surprised by it, really. There's not even a single word exchanged before he finds her suddenly coming up to get on his back and himself instinctively reacting to it by grabbing onto her legs to brace her there. He certainly blinks several times over rapidly once she's settled there.

"...Hi," he offers in return to her, his head turning to the side just enough that he can peer at her from the corner of one eye, past the shoulder that her head is interposed over. "...I guess we both needed some distraction, huh?"

While he waits to see how she responds to that, he's already rising upright from the kneeled posture, and turning to a direction where the furthest edge of the building from the two of them is-- preparing for the running start to get to the Superpowered Leaping.

Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 08:48:34 73310
Miku lets out a grunt of disapproval. "Rather not talk about it," she notes quietly, as he hefts her up onto his back. Wrapping her arms gently around his neck, Miku closes her eyes and holds on. "Ready," she agrees.
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 08:50:53 73311
There's a quiet grunt of Alex's own that comes up in response to her insistence-- it's one of curiousity, and maybe some measure of concern that he can still manage in his state. Still, rather than pressing on it, he murmurs, "If you're sure," and bends himself over a bit, weight mostly over one leg-- and then launches himself forward, speeding across the rooftop to gain speed for the jump that follows upon reaching the edge, carrying both himself and Miku high up to the air and sailing towards the more dense array of buildings.
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 08:53:00 73312
Miku holds on tight, burying her face in his shoulder as he bounds through the air. She squeezes with legs and arms both, perhaps a bit uncomfortable but not too restricting, out of terror and uncertainty. But she doesn't complain. The green-haired teen just holds on in silent concern as Alexis carries her towards the donutty distraction.
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 08:56:00 73313
Alex has had plenty time to practice his superpowered parkour since he turned-- and it's a surprisingly gentle thing for her. Sure, he might be using tendrils of dark energy with every landing to make it even more graceful than normal, but with that much she might not even feel each landing. Just the wind whipping along.

"We're here," he eventually murmurs, right before the sensation of the wind striking against the two of them calms down, and when she opens her eyes and lifts her face up, she'll find him peering back at her again -- and the donut stand itself just a short walkign distance down the street from where he stopped. "You okay?"
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 09:00:13 73314
Miku's eyes open in surprise at his announcement. Already? She glances around, then blinks and loosens her grip, readily sliding off of his back onto her owwn two feet.

"Yeah," she agrees quietly, offering not very much information. But then, she hasn't really been okay any of the times they've talked, so it's not likely to be much of a suprrise.

"You okay?" Miku cruelly turns the question around. "Pretending to be someone you aren't anymore seems ..." she trails off, then doesn't finish the thought. Instead, she just looks at him for a moment, then walks past him towards the donut shop.
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 09:03:53 73315
"... Seems what?" Alex asks after Miku once she's stepped past him, rather than stepping after her right away. His eyes blink at her back once, twice, regarding her curiously-- and on the chance that she doesn't stop, he murmurs quickly, "...I might not have a chance to act like human again, so..." while she's still in range to hear it, and then starts stepping for the stand too.
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 09:10:12 73316
But whatever it seems to her, Miku offers no explanation. Instead she just remains quiet, walking at a slower-than-normal pace towards the little donut stand. A few steps from where they landed towards where they're going, she reaches up to hug herself, lost in some memory or emotion.

After another moment of silence, she breaks it finally, but not to answer his question: "I've been thinking about the book," she explains quietly. "I've been trying to figure out what I should write a song of that won't be dangerous. Inspiration has been ... a challenge."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 09:18:53 73317
And Alex steps along right behind her, too-- and at a slow enough pace that he remains behind her, rather than ever passing her. He doesn't say anything, and she probably won't see it, but... his eyes remain down on her, watching her go through that series of emotions she's keeping inside, and gnawing at her.

It's not a common thing with him these days, and it's brief enough that she most certainly will not notice it, but there's concern in his gaze.

It's only when she finally speaks up again that he steps far enough forward that he's aligned besides her. "... Maybe food is safe enough of a subject," he offers to that, in deadpan enough of a voice that it actually sounds like a serious suggestion. "Speaking of..." He nudges his head towards the stand as they close in on it. "Order anything you want. I'll pay for it."

Whoda thunk this is what he'd be primarily be using the stash of money he snatched from his parents before he went MIA.
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 09:28:08 73318
Miku rolls her eyes a little, but at least a slight smile graces her lips. "Food isn't exactly inspiring," she replies with a sigh, though she does look interested in the donut. After a few moments, she steps up and orders herself a cream-filled donut with powdered sugar, and a strawberry fizz drink.

Once she's ordered, Miku steps out of the way so Alexis can do the same, then hugs herself again. "I dunno, I keep thinking I should write a song about me getting super powers. But then I'm worried that'd just result in me being ... I don't know. Or maybe I should write a song about money. Or a song about Hibiki coming home. It all seems so ... selfish."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 09:36:26 73319
Alex does step up after her-- but he only pays for her order, rather than getting anything for himself. Huh.

...Actually, Miku hasn't really seen him eat *anything* for all the time she's known him. That might not be a good sign.

Either way. He comes along after her where they can both sit down -- and this time she might notice the look of concern he's sending her, too.

"...It's probably safest to go with small steps," he suggests. "While you don't know the extents of that thing. Or downsides. I don't know..." He peers down to her backpack. "...Maybe the donuts will be tasty enough to inspire you. To write about donuts. I can think of worse outcomes than a rain of donuts or something."

That's supposed to be a joke. But the ever-present deadpan tone doesn't really help carry it.
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 09:44:33 73320
With a wrinkle of her nose, Miku banishes the suggestion. "Donuts don't make great songs," she observes with a sigh. "Although a rain of them might be silly enough." She tilts her head faintly, then asks, "Do you ever eat?"

For a moment, she considers, "I suppose I could write a limerick about your lack of appetite. See if I can create you one." She sniffs at that idea, then banishes it as well. "Ah, feh. I don't know. None of these are good ideas."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 09:48:14 73321
The question about his appetite (or lack of it), makes Alex look away rather pointedly, with a claim of "...Sometimes?" Not that it sounds very convincing, really.

He tips his head slightly over to the side while she audibly runs over her thoughts. "What would make a good song, then?" He asks. "I am not... exactly a songwriter. If money... well. I mean. If you worry about that being selfish, you can always... I don't know. Give it to charity or something, if money really does come out."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 09:55:20 73322
"I've only ever seen you eat the okonomiyaki I made you eat," Miku says quietly. "And you seemed to bear it like a child bears eating his vegetables. It was disheartening," she says with a sigh.

Money to charity. Sure, that could work. "Maybe I should write a song about a lost kitten finding its way home," she says quietly. "Or ... I don't know. Every song I've written so far has been real. It's been about something that meant something to me. And that's the problem; I don't ... have any good feelings, right now. Every time I try to compose something happy, I just wind up frustrated and angry with myself."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 10:01:35 73323
"... Eating..." Mutters Alex, with his eyes turning away even further, slowly, in a show of some measure of embarrassment. "...Hasn't come easy to me. Since I turned."

Her words bring a frown out of him when his gaze returns to her again. "...There has to be something that can make you happy, now," he says. "What do you... enjoy? Besides music? If nothing else, maybe... You just need to be distracted from things, for a while. For you to keep yourself busy."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 10:03:07 73324
"Music makes me happy," Miku replies honestly. "Or as happy as I can be. But a song about songs is silly. The stars ... just remind me of Hibiki's promise. She was supposed to watch a meteor shower with me, but she never did."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 10:07:17 73325
Alex's lips twist further towards something akin to a scowl, while he considers her words there.

"You ever been to the arcade?" He asks suddenly, more or less out of the blue. His brows rise up slowly, while he regards her and waits for her answer.
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 10:08:34 73326
Miku's donut is delivered just then, and she glances down at it. A thanks for the delivery, then she wiggles her fingers a little before she tries to figure out how to address it. "Once or twice," she says. "It's more Hibiki's place, than mine," she says. "She always gets caught up in that stupid claw game. No matter how much I try to tell her it's rigged, she never listens."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 10:15:19 73327
That leaves Alex silent for a few seconds. Damnit. Of course that would just end up with her getting reminded of Hibiki, too. He's gonna have to try to think of something else. Trying to think of something *fun* to do isn't exactly easy while dark energy is literally draining the whole ability to *sense* fun away from him.

"... Is there..." he murmurs, voice a bit quieter with his uncertainty. "... That you would want to *try* to do...? Something that you haven't done before?"
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 10:23:17 73328
Miku starts daintily picking at the donut. There's no way to go about eating something like this without getting a little messy, but she tries her best not to. Still, she winds up with powdered sugar on her fingers and on her face, and a little bit of cream on both as well.

She doesn't answer him his question as she eats; instead, she focuses on getting it all down as quickly and cleanly as possible.

When she's done, Miku looks back up, licking her lips clean as she can. This doesn't get the sugar on her chin or her nose, but at least it gets that most immediately to hand. "Not ... really," she says quietly. "I guess that makes me terribly unadventurous. But no, I haven't got anything I'd like to try."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 10:31:49 73330
"Maybe trying something completely different from what you usually do would help," Alex provides. "A change of pace can help draw your mind away from things that are weighing on you. Even if just for a while, but..." He shrugs. "Think about it. If you come up with something you want to try, I can come try it with you. Either that or I can come up with something for you and just surprise you. But..." He brings an elbow up to the table, and propos his chin onto the knuckles of his hand. "...The way I am right now... Coming up with 'fun' things isn't easy. Unless you suddenly develop an interest in motorcycles."

Having said all that, he starts leaning across the table, suddenly-- and his other arm not propped against it reaches over, with him murmuring "You have a little..." and unless she leans away from the approaching hand, he brushes his thumb along her chin, catching some of hte sugar from there.
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 10:44:08 73331
Miku flinches only a little away from his touch, but then she wrinkles her nose as he wipes the sugar from her chin. "Nnn, well you try eating sugared donuts without getting a little on your face!" she retorts, then sticks out her tongue at him briefly.

She looks back at her plate briefly, then sighs and leans away. "Anyways, if you come up with some grand design, then I'll try it I suppose. But otherwise, I guess I'll just stick to hunting creativity in the more standard fashion."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 10:51:00 73332
"I really wouldn't know, I usually eat the glazed kind instead of powdered kind," declares Alex-- and right as she sticks her tongue out, his hand moves up a bit higher. "Here too," he notes, and brushes his fingers along her nose before bringing his hand back again.

"I'll try to think of something," he offers to her, with a slow dip of his head. "If you ever feel alone, though? I know I'm... not the greatest company, with me being how I am, but..."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 10:52:25 73333
Miku wrinkles her nose again, then glares at him. "Stop doing that," she tells him, before reaching for a napkin. The grunette wipes her nose and mouth both clean, then her fingers last of all. "And you're not ... good company at all. At least not the kind of company I want."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 10:56:39 73334
The response brings out a sigh from Alex, and he rolls his shoulders around in a shrug. "I'm trying," he lets out with a sigh. "... Not that I really know what kind of company you want specifically. Other than Hibiki."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 11:09:28 73335
"None other," Miku replies, a little frustration back. She pushes her plate away, then sighs and leans back, staring up at the sky. But for all the city lights she can't see the stars. She stares at them anyways, for a while, imagining the stars in her mind's eye.

After a few moments, she sighs and says, "Some part of me just wants to run away, too. But I have all this responsibility to be a good girl. To study hard, to sing well, to ... learn to be a good musician. To warn against the Noise. Ugh."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 11:20:45 73336
Another sigh from Alex, and he quietly murmurs, "I'm... sorry..." while his gaze drifts away from her, again.


His attention does return to her when she speaks up again, at least-- and there's that hint of concern again. "... In contrast," he says, barely above a whisper. "I've... not had any constant. Nothing to run away from. Been forcefully dragged away from everything time and time again."

"I'd like nothing more than to feel like I belong somewhere. ...WEll. Being human again tops that, actually, but you know what I mean."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 11:31:38 73337
"Mmm," Miku replies quietly. "I don't really know what that's like," she admits, "wanting to be human again. It's all I've ever known. But wanting to belong ..."s he trails off a little. "Well, I suppose I used to belong somewhere." She sighs and lowers her head. "Now I'm just drifting in the wind, like a sunflower cut from its roots."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 11:37:11 73338
"I guess we are pretty similiar in some respects," murmurs Alex, his gaze dropping down to the table seperating the two of them.

"I'm sorry," he whispers. "That I can't help you as much as I'd like to."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 12:04:13 73339
Miku shrugs a little at that. "I'm sorry I'm crap at distraction," she replies. "Or normalcy. My friends think I'm crazy to still be wondering after her. They're probably right."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 12:15:26 73340
"You're not that bad at it," Alex claims. "I... rather listen to you than worry about some of the things I have going on, honestly." Another shrug on his part. "I don't think there's anything wrong with missing people you care about, either."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 12:19:47 73341
Miku grunts her disagreement, quietly. "There's a lot wrong with it," she says. "It's really inconvenient for smiling, laughing, or having any sort of fun, to name three things wrong with it. And it's really distracting, too." She finally looks towards Alexis, actually studying him. For a moment she squints, then asks, "What are you so worried about, anyways? You know my problems, but I don't know yours."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 12:25:27 73342
"I'm not saying there isn't plenty wrong with it if you let everything become about it," Alex allows, with a quiet grunt of his own. "But still-- caring about people... Hoping after them, there's nothing wrong with that, on it's base level. That's all I am saying."

Her urging him to talk about himself makes him avert his gaze sheepishly, though. "...You know some of it already," he claims. "My being the way I am. ... Worrying about if I might lose control some day and turn into a monster. If I will never turn back to a human. ... About if I'll never be able to feel 'happy' again."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 12:29:59 73343
"Oh, is that all," Miku replies, rolling her eyes a little. "Well, near as I can tell, you're already mostly still human. And as for feeling happy ..." she considers a moment, then suggests, "The way I see it, depression is pretty normal for humans, too. So you eat energy instead of food. That doesn't make you not human."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 12:36:14 73344
"I would think the emotions that I am physically incapable of feeling now are a faily important part of being a human," Alex points out, his brows furrowing down a bit over the eyeroll on her part. "... There's a metaphorical tightrope I am balancing over every day, Miku. There's a part of me that just wants to feed and fuel all the negative emotions that I am still capable of. Every day is a fight against that part of me."

"...And even when I am winning I am still failing people." A heavier sigh with that. "There's someone who... Keeps offering energy to me. But I'm afraid I'd... accidentally drain too much from her. And hurt her. So I had to make the decision that I can't take that risk anymore. She didn't take it well."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 12:50:09 73345
"Hmmm," Miku replies quietly, considering his words. "So instead you drain thugs and rapists and jerks, and hope you don't kill them." A thoughtful look crosses Miku's mind, before she notes, "But you still jump your friends across the city at eight in the evening for a donut. You're an idiot, Raskoph-san," Miku tells him honestly. "You worry how this power is twisting you and making you do awful things, but then you use it like it's a toy anyways."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 12:57:52 73346
"Eh?" Alex blinks his eyes once, twice, three times at Miku, and then frowns. "... It's not the kind of thing that corrupts me a little every time I use it or anything," he points out. "It's just *there*. And besides..." He lets out a sigh. "If I don't have a choice about being like this anyway... then is it really so bad to make use of it for the sake of other people?"
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 13:04:08 73347
"Does every time you use it make you need a little more?" Miku asks, arching her brows at him. "Because if it does, then you're risking your friend needlessly every time you use it. And if it doesn't, then why do you need to drain people at all?"
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 13:08:16 73348
"It depends on what exactly I do," Alex offers in explanation, and his hand slowly moves over to press against his chest. "The way I move back there? The dark energy infused in me already makes that a possibility without me needing to focus any more into it. ... It's partly because of that, too, that I am constantly burning it at a certain rate even if I were to do nothing more than lay in perfect stillness."

"...I have all those other ways of feeding," he mumbles then, glancing aside. "...It's dangerous to feed from the same source. A specific 'taste' can be... addictive."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 13:13:52 73349
"Mmm," Miku replies again. "Well you cannot have a 'taste' of me," she says with a wrinkle of her nose. "I've been drained by one of you. Unless it's an emergency, that is not an experience I'd like to repeat."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 13:15:21 73350
"... I wasn't going to ask to get one," Alex points out, squinting his eyes at her. "I already told you before. I'd resolved to not... put anyone through that who didn't deserve it."

"... Except for my other friend," he admits with a sigh, and his eyes dip downwards, in shame. "I. Slipped. She offered it because it was an emergency at the time, but... I should never do it to her again. Even if she asks me to."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 13:18:56 73351
"Great," Miku says faintly. "Then with that out of the way, I can trust you to take me home when the time comes." She smiles at him, but the smile doesn't reach her eyes. She's still frustrated, still unhappy with all that life's thrown her way.

A faint sigh, then she asks, "So is that t, then? Just the two of us? The only friends you've got?"
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 13:23:57 73352
... Somehow, the fact that she offers him that smile makes him seem all the more ashamed. his eyes, at least, dip downwards enough as a result that he can't see the look in her eyes.

"...I'm not sure," he admits, quietly. "I... Associated with a lot of magical people before I turned. I haven't really... Been in contact with that many of them." Beat. "There is the person who turned me too," he mumbles then, with his teeth teasing at his lower lip. "She... Even before, she was like a little sister, to me. I don't feel any different about her now."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 13:36:40 73353
"Mmm," Miku replies quietly. "And yet you avoid them. Not a very good friend, are you?" she asks, arching her brow. "So what makes me any different? You see me. But you don't feed from me. You carry me off at late hours for donuts, and yet I'm the only friend you've got that you aren't monstrous to. What's so different about me?"
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 13:42:14 73354
"... You make it sound like I act like a monster towards most people," mutters Alex, with his eyes narrowing at the girl again. "Purposefully, no less."

A sigh from him again, slightly frustrated. "... I'm not sure the other people I knew before really did much in regards to me than kept me at arm's length in the first place. But that might be the dark energy -enforced negativity in me talking. As for the friend I fed from..." His eyes close for a moment. "...I didn't want that to happen. I think we were both too stubborn for our own good."

"As for you..." His eyes open to look towards her, and he frowns in confusion of his own. "...I don't know. You accepted me despite knowing what I am. Not a lot of people do that."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 13:44:34 73355
"Then they're not very good friends, either," Miku says honestly. "There's no reason to hate you for what you are. You might as well hate fire for burning, or tongues for tasting." She shrugs a little, then says, "I do accept you. That doesn't mean I approve of you wallowing in self-pity, though. Your friend offered. It's good that you don't want to drain her again, but you shouldn't beat yourself up over it, either. Is she okay? Then it's fine."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 13:47:56 73356
"...Unfortunately, self-pity is one of those things that come easier thanks to how the dark energy is affecting me," Alex claims. "Just like anger. Hatred. Sadness. Things like that. I guess why me and Norie seem so emotionless is because we are doing our damnest to hold those back, and all the good emotions we just... they're not part of us anymore."

"...She's fine, though, yes," he allows, but the subject still makes his gaze drift off. "...But it's... Complicated."
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 13:56:40 73357
"I get that," Miku says, her voice a bit softer now. "All of that. But if you're harangued by the darkness, then I will be the light. I haven't got much to give, but I'm not going t--" she cuts off, then blinks and tilts her head.

There's a moment of thought, then she smiles a little. "Hm, that'd be an interesting test."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 13:59:36 73358
Alex falls into silence alongside her when she shifts into the thoughts within her. And just as he's about to ask something, she ends up breaking the silence first-- and his dark brows lift upwards slowly, curiously. "What would be?"
Miku Kohinata 2017-03-13 14:05:42 73359
Miku shakes her head just faintly. "Nope," she tells him. "Not gonna tell you. I said you could be there when I write it and sing it, but you don't get to know what it is until it's too late." She grins at him, actually and clearly smiling this time. "Anyways, it's cold and late, and I didn't bring a jacket. Do I need to get a cab to take me home, or do I get to take the vampire express again?"
Alexis Raskoph 2017-03-13 14:07:47 73360
Alex's brows burrow back downwards and his eyes narrow to a right and proper squint. He considers that for a while, staring at her all the while she's grinning.

"...Ah, hell," he lets out eventually, with a heavy exhale of a breath. "I already said I'd try to surprise you by taking you to do something sometime. I guess it's only fair we do it both ways."

And now, he's already starting to stand up, as he responds to her question with, "That depends on if you feel comfortable enough with flying over the city again." Not that he actually flies, bot for her the effect might be the same.