Awkward Body Swap Talk

Norie and Kukai talk about their experiences having switched bodies for a few weeks.

Date: 2017-04-09
Pose Count: 14
Lacrima 2017-04-09 03:59:36 74576
Norie Okana has gone out of her way to text Kukai and ask him to visit her in the park somewhere near night time. She is sitting on a bench in a small little round about area that a fountain sits in the center of on a branched path from the main walking path. It's quiet. Not many people out about. Some couples. Some other children up to no good at this hour.

She has her arms crossed and is looking down at the ground as Norie, not Lacrima, right now as she sort of pushes her feet together. She looks entirely unsure of herself in a few ways in her posture- but this isn't uncommon for her age. She is listening to the sound of water spray up and then fall back down into the fountain. The fountain has some sort of penguin motif. Well. It is penguin park.

That makes sense!
Kukai Souma 2017-04-09 04:11:40 74577
It's been raining today, which probably explains why so few people are out walking around. Kukai was going to head to practice today, even though he was exhausted, but then the rain set in and by the time it passed it was too late for proper practice, so Norie's call had come at an opportune time. He'd agreed, and after a few minutes had left the apartment he shared with his brothers.

Kukai at least doesn't splash his way through the puddles as he walks, even if Daichi does in one or two of the smaller ones. The sky was somewhere between grey and black, in that dark, fading light of the evening after a rainy day, and he'd dressed to match - a light jacket, long pants, and heavy shoes. When he clomps into the roundabout near the fountain Norie can hear him coming from some distance away. Which is fine by him, he wasn't hiding or working light today anyway.

Kukai sees Norie sitting off to one side and moves towards her, raising a hand. "Hey, Norie. How're you doing? What's up?"
Lacrima 2017-04-09 05:01:40 74578
Norie Okana looks up and to the side. Yeah there's Kukai clomping into the small round about/cul de sac the path makes here. She looks around. Yeah. Not a lot of anyone about now. She head tilts at Kukai as she nods a little. "I'm. Doing okay. I guess." she says quietly. "I wanted to see how you were doing. I told Mercury that she should follow up with you about the experience. Did she?" she asks. "I don't know what you told her, if you did." she says.

She fidgets a bit. "I wanted to make sure you were okay. I know it couldn't had been easy being in my body for a bit." she says. "While I got a little respite." she says. She sort of rubs her far arm a bit.

"Have you had any luck with the other card you're dealing with?" she asks quietly.
Kukai Souma 2017-04-09 05:34:07 74579
Kukai nods back to Norie as she greets him, then sits down besides her. "That's good. And me? Well... I'm sort of exhausted, but I'm not too tired today. I slept the past night or two. And you spoke to Mercury?" He makes a small noise. "Yeah, she visited me at the Gardens. We spent a while talking about the switch. I said I felt kind of bad afterwards, and she said I might have some residual depression. There was a lot said but honestly right now I don't remember a lot of it."

Kukai sighs and then shakes his head. "Physically? I'm ok. Mentally? Right now I'm a wreck. And I'm tired. I'm trying to find the Twins before anything happens to them, but I asked Mercury to help me look for them, which will help. And I'm doing ok." He looks over at Norie as she rubs her arms, then puts an arm around her shoulders. "I'm glad for that, at least, that you got a chance to rest."
Lacrima 2017-04-09 06:10:37 74580
Norie Okana nods a bit and softly closes her eyes. She doesn't react much to the arm around her shoulder. Which is better than pushing away, but not better than anything else. She sighs a bit loudly as she falters a bit mentally. "Yeah..." she says quietly.

"I'm a mess." she says. "I know what love feels like. And when I should feel it. But I can't actually feel it. it feels..."

"Second hand..." she says.

She shifts a bit. "But I guess it's better than nothing. Or confusion." she says.

"I've been thinking I might be able to force myself to feel or act in ways I used to, but my attempts so far have actually hurt to try." she says. "--it feels like I've whipped myself with purification. Though it's just the feeling. Not 'for real'." she says.

"I was working on that even before that whole change mess." she says.

"The night before... that whole thing started." she says. "I managed to ask Eilam-kun something that I had to force myself to ask. It isn't even... that heavy. But. The fact I forced myself to do it..." she says quietly.

"I'm wondering if there's something I can do to help that along now. But I'm not sure what." she says.
Kukai Souma 2017-04-09 06:23:18 74581
Kukai nods, and then pats her back before withdrawing his arm, letting her sit. "I dunno. Second hand love is still pretty good. It's not as good as the real thing, but it can sustain you in its own way. And it is better than nothing."

He thinks, listening to her talk. "It's probably not actual purification. It's probably the positive energy from the emotion when you feel it. And I almost think that... 'she'.." He points at Norie's chest, where he knows the necklace is hidden. "..has something to do with that. But that's something you'll have to deal with."

Kukai nods. "It means you're fighting back, and that's good." He rubs his chin. "Did you have to feed a lot more after forcing yourself to do something like that? And as for doing something about it, I think the only thing you can do is keep trying to fight your skull rider, take control away from her. I dunno what else."
Lacrima 2017-04-09 06:51:25 74582
Norie Okana frowns. "I don't think she has control. If she 'had control' she'd been able to /make/ me do things." she says. "I don't think it's really an entity either. I think it's just a personification of the darkness. I have a theory...." she says. "About it actually." she says quietly.

"Imagine that. You are a power." she says.

"Imagine that. People usually. Summon you. Perhaps through some ritual. And then bind you to their will. They gain the power. Become something like I am." she says. "But you are just a pawn. You were bound into someone." she says.

"Now imagine you are ripped forcibly from someone and then stuffed into a necklace." she says.

"Now imagine you are bound to someone, but not because they asked for it. Or did a ritual. Just through happenstance." she says. "-and while you're a part of that person. You're not bound to them." she says. "For the first time, you are perhaps. Semi-free." she says. "And you are experiencing things for the first time." she says. "And you are curious about these new things. But. All you know is 'darkness'." she says.


"When. Someone. Hurts. Natsumi-chan. Or. Eilam-kun." she says silently.

"I get mad. But. more notedly. She also. Gets mad." she says.
Kukai Souma 2017-04-09 07:11:39 74583
Kukai nods and then shrugs. "I ... dunno. I didn't really get that much time with her, so I suppose that would make sense. I know you'd know more about her than I would." He listens to her explanation about the 'power' and then nods. "So it's the embodiment of darkness - but it can feel some good things? How does that work? She gets angry when the things she - you - care about get hurt?"
Lacrima 2017-04-09 07:19:09 74584
Norie Okana nods. "That's my theory. I don't think it's an entity in so far as something that can exist on it's own." she says. "The fact it's even quiet now as I'm discussing this means it's probably musing itself over it." she says quietly.

"I mean. If it could exist on it's own. I imagine it'd be having me strangle Sakura over the Change Card now and getting it so it can switch into something elses body so it can be free or something." she says with a shrug.

"I mean. You should be use to that. Shouldn't you Kukai?" she asks.

"Some small tiny being that can just take control when it wants sometimes?" she asks.

"It's like that for me just. Less. Control and more. Acting without thinking...." she says gently.
Kukai Souma 2017-04-09 08:08:32 74585
Kukai nods. "So how did it get hooked into the necklace? And does that mean it can think and feel on its own? And maybe even not be.. y'know, evil?" He leans back in the seat, scratching his head. "This is some heady stuff to consider. Ah... well. If it's strangling Sakura, then maybe not going to not be evil, so..."

He arches an eyebrow, then looks over at Daichi, who is splatting his way through more puddles. "Yeah. I understand what you mean, at least. And yeah. I don't exactly control myself either when he's driving. I wish. It's not altogether fun." He sighs and leans back, then rubs his head.
Lacrima 2017-04-09 08:19:19 74586
Norie Okana head tilts. "Did I not tell you the story?" she asks.

"This power belonged to another being." she says. "His name was Poderoso. The power names us. Poderoso means 'Powerful' in Spanish. He wanted the power. He wanted to revel in it." she says. "He lived for a few hundred years until what I believe to be vampire hunters, or some sort of 'bad thing' hunter... figured out a way to destroy him. He'd become so powerful that... Purification just sort of slid off him like he was covered in teflon. Anyways. They sucked the power into the necklace. Then they were able to destroy his mind and body." she says.

"It ended up here. The hundreds of years had weakened the seal with I guess no one maintaining it. So. When I took hold of it. Wore it. It sort of leaked into me." she says.

"And it named me, 'Lacrima'. 'The Tears'." she says. "In Spanish." she says. "Because it knew I did not want this. It knew I would become sad." she says. "Just like it knew the last person wanted it for power." she says quietly.

"It's why I keep the necklace close." she says quietly. "It's the other thing that can conceptually be used to destroy me. Though. I do not know anyone that knows the ritual." she says.
Kukai Souma 2017-04-09 08:46:30 74587
Kukai huhs, then shakes his head. "No, I never heard it." He thinks and listens to her story of Poderoso, before looking at the necklace. "Hundreds of years, huh? Do you think you'll end up that powerful, so strong that purification can't stop you?" He eyes Norie for a moment. "And it named you? That's kinda awful. I think."

Kukai pats Norie's shoulder again. "I wish you didn't feel so sad. It's the part about all this I wish I could fix the most. And yeah. Even though I don't want you to do bad things, I don't want you to be destroyed. We can do something at some point, I hope."
Lacrima 2017-04-09 09:13:10 74588
Norie Okana shakes her head. "I have to do 'bad things' to keep being 'a reasonable facsimile of an almost functional human'." she says. "You remember how hard it was. Don't you?" she asks.

"Yes. He was immortal. I'm also immortal. This is not the same as 'invincible'." she says frankly.

"I'm not sure. Maybe? It'd be nice. I mean. Right now. When I help Ariel-chan. I need to... make myself scarce when everyone else unleashes their... bright happy fun attacks." she mutters.

"It'd be nice to be able to shake those off and help too." she says quietly.

"And yes it named me. When it was done. I ceased to be human. It named me something else. I work hard to still think of myself as 'Norie'." she says. "But. Norie is really just a disguise for convenience now. Really." she says gently. "It costs energy to be 'Norie'. It doesn't cost any energy for me to be 'Lacrima'." she says.
Kukai Souma 2017-04-09 09:24:16 74589
Kukai sighs. "... Actually I remember how easy it was when it came down to 'survive' or 'die' or worse, 'turn into ravening monster.' So I know what you mean. And.. ok. Yeah."

He nods, grinning. "When we all get powered up, you have to bail. I understand. It... well, yeah, but on the same hand, can I shake off your dark energy when I want to?" He nudges her. "We do what we have to. And... maybe you're not physically human, but your mind still is. Your heart still is. I still think of you as Norie, even when you're Lacrima."