Can Darklex Even Be Embarrassed Anymore

Sayaka and Alex talk. And Sayaka finds a threat terrifying enough to surprise even Alexis: KARAOKE.

Date: 2017-04-26
Pose Count: 26
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 03:00:53 75234
It's probably been a few days since the Alex Frenzy Run of 2017 and him getting his chained self dropped into the shitennou's place (much to the dismay of some when it came to the chains too)-- and as far as preliminary reports at least go, he hasn't... 'acted out' for the time being.

Not that he himself has really tried to keep in contact with anyone. Still-- for the time being it turns out he's still at the earth court's massive apartment at the top of the tall building-- and currently curled up on the corner of one of the couches in the main living room, dressed in cargos and a t-shirt to replace the shredded tank top from before, with his arms wrapped around his legs to hug his knees to his chest and... eyes staring off blankly into space. Not even at the television - it's not even turned on - just... into empty space.
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 03:09:37 75235
Sayaka Miki had hesitated to drop by the ECFH, uncertain if Alex would exactly be happy to see her after she beat him to a bloody pulp etc wtc.

    But with some coaxing from Miku and her own concerns about the emo-pire, Sayaka knew she couldnt put it off forever. Besides, she was pretty concerned, not to mention owing Kunz and Mamoru an explanation.

    So here she is! Sneaking in for once when she finds the door open, rather than just knocking. Cuz who knows what might be on the other side.

    Oh. Right. A very lost looking Alex. Well at least he doesnt look insane ecol or chained up this time!

    That's a good sign..Right? Well, she just quietly watches him for a few moments, glancing him over thoughtfully. Well he's not purple for one, and looks like he changed clothes. That's definitely good..
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 03:16:59 75236
Alex, in the meantime, remains sitting there unmoving-- and for a good moment silent, too. But the latter is just for a moment.

"Are you going to just to stand there?" He asks suddenly, but without even looking back to the way of the bluenette. Apparently he *heard* her coming in, at leas.t
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 03:21:03 75237
    Okay...?That weirdo' super senses never stop surprising her!

    "Whaaaa?! How'd you know I was here? I at least thought I was being sneaky. I mean, d'you have super hearing or something?!"

    Still, she cautiously steps towards him, sitting down on the sofa but giving him space.

    "Sooooo...How're you doing..? Err, anything goid on tv? You seem pretty absorbed in, uh, something!" she chuckles nervously, still hopeless at jokes it seems.
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 03:29:25 75238
"My hearing was pretty good even before I turned," murmurs Alex before turning his head just enough he can peek towards Sayaka's approach with one eye. "...But mostly I sensed your energy. I think I can sense it easier because I fed on you before."

His eye tracks her slowly while she's rounding the sofa, and then flicks away again once she's sitting down. "I'm fine," he answers to the first question. And then the second-- "I don't know. Haven't watched."
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 03:33:13 75239
Sayaka Miki cant help but shiver at that whole energy-tracking thing. "Geez. That was'nt creepy. At all. Man, you're just full of surprises, aren't you."

    She smirks, staring at him intently, trying to catch hus gaze even as he looks away.

    "Sooo, intently watching nothing, huh? sounds exciting. So how are you..Really? I mean, energy-wise? physically?...Mentally? You seem kinda..Lost? I dunno."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 03:38:49 75240
That's when Alex finally turns his head so that he can look at Sayaka with both eyes. Slowly he blinks his eyes at her.

"Well," he lets out. "I just got off having completely lost control of myself, which resulted in me draining who-knows-how-many people to the point of putting them in a coma."

A grunt, and he turns his head off away from her again. "...So I guess I've been better."
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 03:47:25 75241
Sayaka's phone beeps and she peers at it, then peers back at Alex..And chuckles.

    "Heh, he really is.." she murmurs with a smirk..Then glances at Alex. Wait, did she say that out loud? She coughs, pointing at the tv.

    "..Those guys, I mean...Funny! Haha!!" err..Yea, hopefully he doesnt have telepathy too!

    Ahem! Where were we?? Saya glances back at Alex, turning more serious, but smiles an encouraging smile. "That's true, but at least mo one was killed right? And in the end, I...We..Managed to pull you back from the brink so, dont be so hard on yourself?"

    But glancing at his dombre expression she instinctively sidles a little closer, reaching out a hand but hesitating.

    He can be weird, sometimes, when she tries to touch him, comfort him..
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 03:54:21 75242
The murmur from Saya after her phone going off and the quick effort in masking it brings Alex to peek at her briefly in confusion. Well. At least he doesn't *seem* like he has telepathy.

Her attempts at reassuring him, on the other hand? He... well. He looks away from her and mutters, "Maybe you should have killed me still." There's a sigh right after that, and he amends quietly, "...Mercury said. She might be able to cure me. But... we'll see, still. And I might be dying anyway for all we know."

He doesn't *seem* to notice her closing in and reaching a hand out... but either way, at that moment, the sound of his phone going off in his pocket comes up, and he frowns visibly-- drawing a hand away from the hug to his knees just enough that he can dig it out and stare at it for a moment before letting out an irritated grunt and tapping something through it before setting it over against the arm of the couch.
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 04:05:50 75243
Sayaka Miki rolls her eyes, pulling her hanf back, rolling it into a fist instead. Yea she'd really like to punch him right now, grr..

    Instead she reaches out and tries to grab him by the shoulders.

    "Umm..Seriously, Alex?" she practically hisses through her teeth, "Do you REALLY wish I had killed you instead of trying to save you? Cuz y'know, while you were beating me to a bloody pulp and nearly well tossed a frickin' FERRIS WHEEL at me, the thought had crossed my mind!"

    She takes a breath, letting go suddenly, but not before a little shove as she turns away,

    "But then I realized how hurt and upset Norie-san and Salura-chan and even Miku-chan would have been, heck when Miku-chan thought you were dead, she was pretty torn up!"

    She sighs again, closing her eyes, angrily wiping away the tear that trickles down her cheek, "How much that would have torn me up inside, when I saw that little hlimmer of your old self fighting through? So please...Dont ever say that your not worth it, that you'd better desd...That no one would friggin' care cuz you know what? A lot of people care about you! Especially me.."

    That last part is said softly.
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 04:17:37 75244
"..." Alex actually look vaguely surprised by the time Saya's grabbing at his shoulders-- eyes all widened up and staring into hers. Silently so. Not that he doesn't try to say something-- his mouth works itself open and closed several times through it all, but he never manages to bring himself interrupting her, and not even for a good moment once she's said the last part.

So he just looks away from her again, uncertainly, once she's done speaking. His phone's going off in several pings in the meantime, but he's not paying attention to it.

"... I only remember bits and pieces," he murmurs, voice barely above a whisper. "But... I remember. Feeling angry. Wanting to rip and tear. And just feed. I remember hurting people. Remember hurting you."

"And I couldn't stop any of it."

"What's so worth saving with that?"
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 04:24:18 75245
Sayaka's 'phone is also beeping, and she occasionally glares at Alex and back at her phone and furiously types away, like she's gonna rip the thing apart!

    "And do you believe that was you doing those things? of course not! Its the dark magic within you that's doing this! And maybe if you had more faith in yourself, like your friends do, then maybe you'd have a better chance at fighting this thing! And...."

    And she's suddenly got a funny smirk-glare on her face as she stares at a text on her phone and nods.

    "And that's why I'm dragging you to karaoke with Miku-chan and me on Friday, and I'm not taking no for an answer!!!"

    So there!
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 04:28:43 75246
"It's not as if though 'someone else' took the steering wheel," Alex points out quietly, with an equally quiet sigh. "The... Dark Energy. It doesn't... 'take control'. It just 'affects'. So deep down, during all that? That was... still 'me'."

Alex's eyes close for an extended period after that-- or they would, anywy. If it wasn't for Sayaka suddenly dropping that bomb.

"...Uh." His eyes open again, and sloooooooooowly he turns them to her, widening out evne further before blinking. "...What?"
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 04:36:30 75248
Sayaka Miki sighs, rubbing her eyes. "Sooo..The dark energy..Encourages you to experiences all your deepest and darkest emotions? Well, even so, if you had more faith in yourself and the good you can do, maybe you can actually fight this thing.."

    At leadt her tone has softenned a bit now, no longer yelling at him.

    "Look Alex..As a Puella Magi, I have to battle my negative emotions all the time, and the more I use my powers the more..Tainted my magic becomes until I risk turning into a witch..Which is probably a hell of a lot worse than what you were, because by that point, your soul's pretty much list, as is your mortal body. So I KNOW how hard you gotta fight to believe in yourself, and focus on a purpose, and the good things in life.."

    She smiles, "Like spending time with your friends, having fun, learning more about yourself, and finding bew hope and purpose in your life?"

    "She grins, impishly now, "Sooo, what do you say?"
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 04:41:46 75251
It's significantly difficult to argue against all that, so Alex just... sighs, and remains silent.

Even if he wanted to try to bring himself to say something against that, he couldn't come up with anything anymore.

So it's the matter of the karaoke he responds to instead. "...I guess if I'm going to die anyway," he murmurs. "It's... not as if I have... anything to lose. If I come. I don't know if I can... feel embarrassed like this, anyway."
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 04:46:45 75253
Sayaka's smile fades almost as quickly as it started.

    "..Why are you siddenly so certain you're gonna die, anyway? Did Sailor Mercury say you have a 99% mortality rate or something? Cuz last I heard, Norie's survived a few years with her more advanced condition?"

    She sighs..Wondering if there is something she missed, or if he's just become more negative than before.
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 04:55:55 75256
"She didn't, no," Alex admits with a slow shake of his head. "She thinks I won't, even. She thinks she can... fix me. Either take this out of me entirely or... give me more control. But..."

His hand moves over to press it against his chest. "You saw it. Didn't you? I was bleeding here. My old wounds. Norie told me, my... energy levels. Are unstable. Fluctuating. Leaking faster. I can tell that too."

"No one's said it, but I think my body is rejecting this state. In the worst kind of way."
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 05:00:53 75257
Sayaka Miki frowns, "Then you just gotta trust Mercury. She's the smartest person I kniw, and if she says she can save you, then she can.."

    Her voice is..More careful, more gentle now. "And if your old wounds are retirning, perhaps it means you are simply reverting back to your more human state? Besides.."

    She smiles cautiously now, reaching over to rest a hand on his should before he can pull away, hopefully.

    "If your old wounds return, then I'll just have to heal you up like I did before. Believe in Mercury and just once, why dont you believe in me too?"
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 05:09:31 75260
For whatever it's worth, he at least doesn't try to draw himself away from her hand.

"I don't know. Maybe," he mutters to her speculation, with his eyes closing again. "But... Mh. She tried something earlier. It... cut me off from the Dark Energy to the point that my wounds opened up again. Mamoru was there. He... is who they usually go to for healing. But back then, she rather... put me back to that state than letting it go and healing me."

"That's how bad those wounds are."
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 05:16:45 75261
Sayaka Miki arches a brow, "Ohh? They're that bad? Well, maybe you just meed stronger healing magic. J mean, I dunno how powerful Mamoru-san's healing magic is, but.."

    She shrugs, "Perhaps if you had two healers working on your wounds simultaneously, perhaps it would be enough to fully heal you before that..Err..Point."

    She gently squeezes his shoulder before letting go. "I'll talk to Mercury and see what she thinks. In the meantime, can you at least try to treasure every day? I just gave you a new lease on life and maybe you're right and your time is limited, but wouldnt you rather spend that time laughing and having fun..?"

    The idea of him singing is quite amusing too but.."But you dont even have to sing if you dont want to. Just hang out with friends, eat, drink, dance! Listen to good music! It'll be fun!"
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 05:23:32 75263
He falls into silence for a moment to consider this. Eyes flicking off to the side again for the time being. "...Maybe," he lets out in a sigh then-- and it seems to answer the question of his state just as much as the potential of spending time doing stuff.

"...But, you know..." His hand moves over to his chest again, gripping at the fabric of his shirt. "With this... thing, inside me... 'enjoying' life isn't really... easy, you realize."
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 05:29:10 75265
    Clearly, Sayaka is just too damn stubborn to give up on Alex like she really should.

    When he challenges her with another potential problem, she just smirks and shakes her head, and even risks getting slapped by resting her hand over top his, briefly.

    "It isnt easy, sure..But it's not impossible either, is it?"
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 05:36:38 75267
"I -can't feel happy while I'm like this, Saya-," Alex says in a sudden sharper tone to that, just barely avoiding outright snapping at her. "It's not like I -want- to be unhappy. It's -physically impossible-. How does everyone keep forgetting that?!"

Immediately after that, he lowers his head again, and murmrus quietly, "...Sorry. I just..."
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 05:43:57 75269
Sayaka Miki bites her lip, "And yet at times you have felt, at the least..Contentment, right? It's something and at least it's a start, right? Maybe you should just focus on that.."

    She hears an edge in his voice and instinctively pulls away with a sigh.

    "I know.." she mumbles, seeming kinda tired, "Look, are you gonna come along or not? I was only kidding, I wont force you to come, but I'm sure more good than harm can come of it.."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-04-26 05:52:57 75273
"... I don't know," Alex confesses, for the first question. "I... Maybe. I guess." He doesn't really sound particularly certain or convinced.

"But. ... I guess I will. I'll... see on friday, okay?" He lets out another heavy sigh with that. "I..." Slowly, he starts unravelling himself from his posture on the couch, and drawing himself up to standing from the couch. "...I think I need to be alone for a while though. If that's. Okay."
Sayaka Miki 2017-04-26 06:14:08 75277
Sayaka Miki nods slowly, sometimes wishing she werent so stubborn in trying to save people. Sometimes he just doesnt seem to want to be saved.

    "Okay..Well Miku says I shouldnt push you so..Just whatever's comfortable, I mean we wont force you to sing if you dont want to.."

    Then he says that and Saya frowns a bit. "Oh. okay..." Slowly she rises to her own feet, glancing at the exit, feeling kinda..Empty? "Then, Guess I'll see you Friday, huh? Ummm..Take care..Okay?" shd forces a smile but sometimes it's just soo hard.