Don't Ever Say Those Things

Sayaka, after her fight with Alexis, is growing unstable. Miku catches her, and directs her toward both steady ground and ice cream.

Date: 2017-05-20
Pose Count: 25
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 19:27:56 76859
    It's a cloudy day, which fits right in with Sayaka's currently cloudy mood. The park is not terribly crowded today, perhaps because it's a little chilly and looks like it's gonna rain at any minute. But Sayaka is here, in her school uniform, not really dressed for cool weather as she swings slowly back and forth on a swingset, just...Staring blankly at the sky. She seems pretty sad about something.
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 19:32:53 76860
Miku isn't dressed for cool weather, either. The grunette is in the park for a run, rather than for enjoyment. She's dressed in a pair of spats and a lavender racerback, streaking through at high speed. She's been running long enough already that she hardly notices the chill; she's sweaty and tired, and about ready to head back towards the school for the final leg of this jog.

Of course, that's when she nearly runs into Sayaka--literally. She holds up short as she passees the bluenette, then turns back and blinks at her. Panting, she puts her hands on her knees and asks, "What's ... wrong ... Saya-chan?"
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 19:46:57 76861
It is perhaps strange that she is dressed in school uniform with her bookbag next to the swingset - on a weekend no less. But perhaps she is going back to cram school again, having fallen behind in her studies due to slacking off, skipping school..Oh, and being the misunderstood heroine who has nothing to show for it.
    Either way, it doesnt seem like she has much 'me' time these days, not even today. And she almost doesnt notice Miku standing there, until she calls out to her. Blinking, she slowly glances up at her in confusion. "Umm..Miku-chan? Eh, hi..." she smiles faintly, but it's a weak smile and there is sadness in her eyes. She sighs and just shrugs at the question. "Oh..Nothing really, just the usual..." she bites her lip, unsure how to approach that, but she's so full of pain right now, she just has to tell something. "You were right...Alex is a real jerk. He totally rejected me. After everything we've been through...I'm such an idiot.."
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 19:54:38 76862
Still catching her breath, Miku stops to consider that for several moments. Eventually, she pads towards Sayaka, then flops down in the swing next to her. "More an idiot than you know," Miku says quietly, as she starts swinging as well. "I'm sorry that you had to go through that. I know what it's like to be rejected by someone you care so much for; to feel like they're keeping things from you, and that they're being needlessly cruel. I'm sorry."
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 20:00:26 76863
    Sayaka sighs, "I just...Dont get it! He seemed to show interest in me before, made it sound like the only thing standing in our way was his being an emo-vampire..But once I helped clear that problem for him, he just found other excuses to keep his distance. He doesn't even make sense! He thinks getting involved in him will somehow cause me pain. As if he could ever hurt me, a magical girl! Ugh! He is soooo stupid! Annd..,And..." she peers back at Miku, babbling more than she should.

    "I'm sorry, I feel like I rejected you in the same way he rejected me, so I guess I have no right to complain. I'm just a terrible friend. I'm surprised I lasted this long.." whatever that means!? And Sayaka begins to swing more furiously, swinging higher and higher on the swingset, hands tightly clutching the chains. Ugh, what a stupid girl she is! The ring on her finger seems to murk over just a bit, should Miku notice.
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 20:12:39 76865
Unfortunately, Miku doesn't know what that ring means. She knows only a little of Puella; not enough to truly understand. What she does understand, though, is the human heart. "Mmm," she agrees quietly, and swings along for a moment--not keeping up, just swinging at her own pace.

But then she hops from her swing and moves around to stand behind Sayaka. Instead of inhibiting the bluenette, she gives her a push, helping Sayaka reach even greater heights. Not that Sayaka needs the help, but maybe the touch will comfort her. "It's okay," Miku says quietly. "I am not upset that you turned me down; I ... honestly I still regret that you found out in the first place. I feel guilty for having a crush on you; like I'm betraying my best friend. But I also don't see the point in lying about it now that you know. Still, I think we can be friends. Good friends, even."
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 20:25:01 76867
    Sayaka smiles behind her tears. And suddenly the swinging is flying higher and higher. She was all about the exhiliration. At least for a little, it helps her not feel so..So low. and she laughs a little, nodding as the swing slows down a bit. "thank you, Miku-chan. You truly are a great friend. I hope you find that girl that you were searching for. Perhaps she will come back to you someday soon. Maybe we'll both find happiness somewhere.." she shakes her head, hopping off the swingset finally, "And dont regret being honest with me, I prefer honesty to lies. Unlike *someone*.." she grits her teeth, trying not to think of Alex. "You never betrayed me, and who knows? Maybe someday, if it's mean to be. We might just become more than friends." she smiles.
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 20:28:15 76868
Miku winces just a little at those words, but she doesn't show it to Sayaka. For Sayaka's sake, she just gives another push, and then another. And when she's over the flutter of heartache and desire, she responds, "Just put him out of your thoughts, Saya-chan. I know he hurt you, but dwelling on him won't help. You just need to convince yourself you weren't interested in him in the first place."
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 20:33:11 76869
Sayaka Miki chuckles and nods. "Yeah, I guess so. And anyways, I just dont have the time for romance in my life I guess.." she peers down at her darkenning ring and sighs, "I'm a Puella Magi and my only purpose in life i suppose, is to fight witches. Nothing else. If I have too many distractions in life, I guess I just cant do my job properly, and that can be disastrous afterall.." she laughs, trying to trivialize it. "Just wish i hadnt confided in him.."
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 20:37:15 76871
Here's where Miku's frustration boils over. When Sayaka comes back towards her for another push, Miku doesn't give it. Instead, she wraps her arms around Sayaka--and the chains of the swing--and digs her heels in, bringing the puella to a sudden stop. Tightly, Miku hugs her, pressing her face into Sayaka's back. "Don't," she mumbles quietly, a little quaver in her voice. "Don't ever say you don't have time. Don't say that your only job is to fight. Please don't say those things. Please don't become just a sword, good for nothing but to cut.

"I didn't realize I liked you because of those things," Miku continues, her tone a little thin and reedy where she's holding back her own pent up emotions. "I don't like you because of any of them. I like you because you're brave. Because you laugh even when you're scared. Because you give and give so much of yourself to others. Please ... please don't stop being who you are, Sayaka-chan. Don't let Alexis Raskoph change you. Don't let your fight against the darkness change you. Be you. Please."
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 20:57:36 76874
Sayaka Miki blinks slowly as she is hugged and gently returns the hug. "Miku-chan..." she sighs and nods, "Youre so sweet..No one has ever told me that before. Thank you..I wish I had as much belief in myself as you do. I feel like I dont have many friends who appreciate me as much as you do..." and maybe that appreciation is what she so yearned. If only she could make Miku happy.
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 20:59:30 76875
Miku just keeps right on hugging Sayaka, appreciating the arm over her head in return, but mostly just not wanting to let go for the moment. "You've got me," Miku promises quietly. "I'll always be your friend, as long as you stay Sayaka Miki," promises the grunette. "As long as you stay yourself, I will never give up on you. So please, please don't let this change who you are. Okay?"
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 21:24:49 76878
Sayaka Miki bites her lip, peering down at her ring thoughtfully. "Yes..I will do my best to try. Sometimes it can be hard you kniw? But I think as long as even one person believes in me, I can feel like my life still matters."
    She chuckles as she looks skyward at the suddenly clearing skies. Looks like its warming up! "Heey, wanna get some ice cream?"
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 21:44:36 76881
The question draws Miku away from her concern. She squeezes Sayaka just a little more, then lets her go. "Ice cream soudns good," she agrees quietly. "Also .. I'm sorry if I got any of my sweat on you. I just ... felt like hugging you was more important than hygiene. I'm sorry. I'll buy the ice cream," she promises.
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 21:46:28 76882
Sayaka Miki grins, "Dont worry about it, I'm just grateful you were here to lift my spirits! Have you been to Gull cafe before? They have good ive cream flavors there. Do you have a favorite flavor?'
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 21:47:53 76883
"I've never been," Miku says with a shake of her head. She steps away from Sayaka and offers her hand to the girl. "Show me the way. My favourite flavour is sweet potato, but I like a lot of different ice creams."
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 21:59:13 76887
Sayaka Miki smiles and grabs her hand, "Yea, I'll take you there, c'mon!" of course, now that its warming up and Miku's just been working out, Saya doesnt insist on running but walks at a leisurely gait as she leads her towards said. cafe.
    "Hmmm do they really have a flavor like sweet potatoe?" she makes a face. "Is it...Tasty?"
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 22:08:07 76890
"Mmm, it's really tasty," Miku says, twining her fingers through Sayaka's as they walk. She makes no rush to get to the ice cream shop faster. She should be heading back to school, but spending time with a sad friend is far more important. "I think it's really tasty. But I also like the melon. And the cherry. It's so hard to decide, sometimes."
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 22:20:03 76892
Sayaka Miki laughs, "Never troed it but I figured ice cream was supposed to be sweet." she chuckles, "But I'm curious to know what its like."
    She nods to the other flavors and sighs, "Honestly dont remember the last time I had 'me' time or even ate ice cream..Dunno what flavor wouod be my favorite.."
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 22:35:34 76893
"Well, sweet potatoes are still sweet," Miku replies with a smile for Sayaka. "I mean, they're not as sweet as berry flavors, but they're still sweet! I'll order it and you can try a bite, okay?" she offers. "How far is it to this Gull cafe, anyways?"
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 22:38:52 76895
Sayaka Miki nods, "Hehe okay! I'd like to try that! Always up for another adventure!" she peers around and hmms. "Lets see, we're about two blocks away..Almost there! Hope theres not a line.."
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 22:40:37 76896
Miku pauses and glances at Sayaka, then frowns a little in thought. She catches right back up one step later. "So why are you dressed for school?" she asks curiously. "And ... are you really okay with me being stinky? I mean, I could go and change and then meet you somewhere later if you prefer."
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 22:49:57 76899
Sayaka Miki shrugs and smiles sheepishly. "Welll..I guess, since I'm not doing so great in school and I've been having trouble trying to balance school, and fighting monsters, so.."
    She shrugs, "I guess, my rich parents had the brilliant idea of sendibg me to cram school to catch up on my studies. On the weekend no less.."
    Yea, she could really do with ice cream now! "Anyway!" she clears her throat, "Dont worry about it, you were just working out, and you dont smell that bad.." she laughs, "Maybe later we can go swimming if you like.."
Miku Kohinata 2017-05-20 23:05:09 76902
Miku rolls her eyes just a little at Sayaka, amused but not upset. She squeezes Sayaka's fingers, then shakes her head and looks back towards the girl. "I don't have my bathingsuit here," she notes. "I'd have to go back to the school to get it. But I do like swimming."
Sayaka Miki 2017-05-20 23:17:10 76903
Sayaka Miki smiles as she turns the corner, "Sure, I'm in no hurry, just trying to make up for a miserable week. I havent gone swimming in a long time either, not since I tried to teach someone.." she sighs wistfully as she remembers that bittersweet event. Seems so long ago. She sighs, peering around, "There it is!" she points out the cafe, just across the street. Looks like a bit of a line up though.