It's A Good Tree

Naru is notably lacking her zen. Kunzite takes her somewhere that sometimes helps to look for it, and they consider possible reasons beyond the obvious domestic ones.

Date: 2017-06-02
Pose Count: 22
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 01:49:35 77644
    Naru TXT Kunzite: I should go sit under Jadeite's tree a while.

    Kunzite TXT Naru: That might be a reasonable idea. There are a few of us who should consider doing that more often.

    Naru TXT Kunzite: It's a good tree. I should not be losing my temper at Kyouko. I know better than that.

    Kunzite TXT Naru: Obligatory comment: Kyouko should also not be losing her temper at you. She's taking steps to work on that.

    Naru TXT Kunzite: No, she shouldn't.. but it wasn't one sided.

    Kunzite TXT Naru: Actual comment: Mamoru has been lecturing me on a regular basis for the past year on the topic of it being permissible to be human and therefore fallible. I trust you are willing to consider one of those to have been passed on to you without my having to spell out the details.

    Naru TXT Kunzite: Yes. I'm /very/ good at fallible. OMG this spring is all about fallible. I'd like to possibly stop acknowledging my fallibility quite so often and not suck at something, but in lieu of that, I'll attempt to refind my zen.

    Kunzite TXT Naru: Reasonable. If you'd like to avoid the endless stairs, please let one of us know and we'll give you a lift. (By 'one of us' I mean 'me or Zoisite,' since our midterms are tomorrow. I've been studying and Zoisite doesn't need to, but the other two are likely not sleeping tonight. Mamoru has of course been studying for these classes for several years now, but the two of us don't need medication.)

    Naru TXT Kunzite: If you've an urge to dodge studying for a little while, I won't protest. Otherwise the stairs are good cross training. (Fighting with Kyouko is a crappy way to PB all my workouts for 2 days.)

    Kunzite TXT Naru: A break sounds entirely reasonable.

Kunzite's teleport is as it always is: something not unlike an unsettling sudden transition into a deep and unlit cavern, and then a similar transition back out.

Jadeite's palace is also as it always is. Green and rich and growing, half sculpted and half wild. The guardians are undoubtedly somewhere around, probably tussling with each other again, but they're not in immediate sight. For now, it's only the quiet wind and dappled sun and shadow of the shrine.
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 02:00:17 77645
Contrary to so many others, Naru finds the unsettling transition so much easier than the jumps. <shudder> The jumps.

The arrival into that green and rich and growing space and there's a pause.

Naru closes her eyes, inhaling deeply of the smell of fresh and green and living, holding it for a few moments before letting it out with a sigh. "I totally need to visit more often. I'd be screwed if Jadeite ever stopped letting me visit."
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 02:04:25 77646
Kunzite lets his hands drop from her shoulders, once they're firmly in the space, and steps away. The breeze tugs at his cape, toys with strands of his hair. "The baking, once again explained."
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 02:11:28 77647
"My fondness for Jadeite's garden explains baking?" Naru asks with a quirk of a brow, curious as she steps only a few paces away to settle on a patch of grass, to be able to draw out her sketchbook.

There's not been much mention of art in the last short while, rarely a good sign of Naru's general psyche.
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 02:16:37 77648
"Reassuring yourself that you'll stay in his good graces." Via muffins, apparently. Kunzite sends one amused glance her way, then paces in the other direction, choosing a tree suitable for leaning against. Not facing Naru directly; turned half-away from her. Convenient if he turns his head. Not actually looming.

If he's slipped into her mother's apartment during that last while and checked the contents of her closet of unacceptable art, he doesn't mention that now.
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 02:26:37 77649
"I should totally learn some of his favourites. Just y'know.. for completeness sake." Naru flashes a grin at the idea of baking opening garden gates, but it's not so far off where the reality might sit.

Her sketchbook rests in her lap, legs crossed under it. Naru resettles in how she's sitting, shaking out her shoulders without even thinking of it, forcing them to relax somewhat too. She's quiet, watching the breeze tease at the leaves, the sunlight dapple and play through the branches. There's no real pressure for chat to have words, not just yet at least.
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 02:37:32 77650
Kunzite answers with a brief low sound in his throat, something to stand in the place that laughter might and gesture vaguely in that laughter's direction, and then falls quiet as well. He doesn't revert to Kazuo, not here. Stays instead in the form that's more natural to him, less complicated. The one that comes with concerns over war and protection, support and survival, but without the difficult things. Classwork. Playing host. Managing expectations. Family networks. Dating.

The quiet goes on for some time. It's ten or fifteen minutes before there's any sound from his direction, and that's only because it makes some trivial amount of noise (fabric on bark; boots on gravel) when he pushes away from his chosen tree and paces away. Not so far. Just enough to get a different perspective on the stone and the green around them. Just enough to be moving, a little.
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 02:48:34 77651
It's a good ten of those minutes before Naru does more than just sit and watch the tree, her hands curled around her sketchbook in her lap, but not opening it. Not reaching for a pencil, not transferring any of the thoughts of those minutes to paper.

Kunzite's movement prompts a glance in his direction, only her eyes moving before refocusing on the tree. Naru takes another slow, deep breath, holding it for long moments, and letting it out in a even stream of air. "I'll be glad to get back to distance training."
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 02:52:58 77652
"I'll be glad when the damned race is over with." It's more or less agreement. And Kunzite's choice of adjective does not blend well with their environment. He hasn't settled yet, but his pacing is slow, unhurried, and he takes care not to let his minute examination of different plants bring him into the way of Naru's light. "I take it the lack of the longer solitary time doesn't suit you. Or is it something else?"
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 02:57:02 77653
"Less than a month." Naru nods in agreement with the jarring sentiment in the peaceful garden. The quesiton shouldn't require too much thought, but Naru pauses to consider it nonetheless.

"Lack of longer solitary time. I don't get into that flow.. that zone of meditation when doing speed work." Naru pauses again, thoughtful perhaps, on if she wishes to admit more. "Speed work is outside my comfort zone, and the wisdom of bring discomfort and frustration to my meditation is questionable."
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 03:02:58 77654
"Something to account for in future, then. At least there are possible alternatives." Like this place. Kunzite pauses again, crouching to examine the tiny pale stars of some ground-clinging flower. It keeps him still for a little, at least. Maybe it's a form of apology to the location.
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 03:09:55 77655
"Eschew races 'til I'm old enough, and just train? Possible." Naru uncurls, stretching her legs out to be able to let blood back into her feet, wriggling her toes against the painful pins and needles.

"Things feel out of sorts. I'm not sure if it's just me, or everyone." Naru adds as she watches her toes.
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 03:18:00 77656
"Or allocate time specifically for meditation, alongside the speed work." Because time is a thing Naru has in infinite quantity, clearly. But it's an alternative, technically, and Kazuo marks it as such.

That last addition brings him to a moment's pause, above and beyond that stillness; the sort of moment when breathing stops, not out of surprise so much as out of considering some small unpleasantness.

"'Yes' might be an appropriate answer," he says at last.
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 03:23:39 77658
Plenty of spare time. Race training, high school, clubs, magical training, girlfriend, parental unit and art are all pretty quick, right? Plenty! Naru nods at the option, even if it's not a good one, but it is one.

"I'd hoped it was just me." Naru points out as the stretching of her legs becomes an absent leaning forward, stretching out her back as well. "I can't put my finger on anything, I'm not losing energy, but subtle levels of weird are creeping up."
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 03:26:20 77660
Kunzite reaches out a fingertip, sliding it carefully under one of the little plant's leaves. "I don't suppose you'd care to define 'subtle levels of weird' in this context."
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 03:30:00 77662
"Scarily, creepy dolls offering cease fires and finger sandwiches isn't on the list." Naru quirks a half smile that lingers only briefly before she gets thoughtful again. "Back of brain feeling mostly. My dreams are edging back into creepier again, they'd settled to a nice coping level of unsettling, but they're shifting again. I don't feel drained in them, just the tone is changing."
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 03:34:13 77663
"That's been across the board," Kunzite says. "Nightmares. Insomnia. The city's infected." He glances down at the plant again, and corrects himself. "Infested, rather. Since it appears to be agents attacking dreams rather than the nature of dreaming being affected. The results are similar either way."
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 03:37:12 77665
"It didn't seem like most magical types were being affected, though." Naru nods. "I'm not sure that's the only thing niggling the back of my thoughts, but it's the only concrete thing that I can point at and go 'that has changed'." She considers and then shrugs. "Possibly it's just my stress levels have changed too. I can't argue there."
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 03:39:51 77666
"Most magical types also aren't inviting the White Flower to visit. She's come active again, too. And then there are stress levels. And half a dozen other things. Too many influences to untangle easily." Kunzite sits back on his heels for a moment. "We could ask Akashimaru, if you're concerned. But she and her people are in high demand at the moment."
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 03:45:51 77668
"Not enough to bother her." Naru shakes her head. "If I start waking up screaming again, or waking up feeling drained, then it'll be worth taking up her time. Until then, it's just another piece in a puzzle that doesn't have any edge pieces, nor a convenient picture on the front of the box to work from."

There's a thoughtful pause, as Naru mulls over Kunzite's words. "An interesting thought. I will have to see if Hana's disorienting of reality around her feels like a stronger version of the off kilter that I seem to be ."
Kazuo Takeba 2017-06-02 03:48:33 77669
"You've been in witch-labyrinths," Kunzite points out. "At least in one. That might provide a basis for comparison."

He should, once again, probably stop trying to reassure people.
Naru Osaka 2017-06-02 03:52:18 77671
"Hers feels different to me than the labyrinth did." Naru seems to be comfortable enough with Kunzite's version of 'reassurances', which usually are something akin to 'omg, thank you for the 10 new things to freak out about'. "Possibly because I'm more accustomed to that disorientation, it doesn't feel as off as when I was in the labyrinth fully."

There's a pause and then Naru adds thoughtfully. "As often as not, I don't even notice Hana's anymore. It is familiar."