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Just when Miku is all out of hope, a little white cat-rat-bunny offers her another option.

Date: 2017-07-04
Pose Count: 30
Miku Kohinata 2017-07-04 23:33:40 79973
There is a limit to how much stress and worry a person can go through before they reach the point of numbness. At that point, a hope for something better is replaced with a hope for something different. Feelings--positive and negative--all seem to fade away into a dull nothingness that seem to pervade existence.

Edgy and emo as it sounds, this is the state Miku has finally come to, since Hibiki vanished. Despite all warnings and encouragements from the trio of friends closest to she and Hibiki both, Miku has not managed to move on, as she knows she should have.

But she has reached the point where bringing Hibiki back is no longer her ch ief concern. Sitting alone on a bench at the entrance to Verone Academy, Miku looks completely lost. She's dressed for a jog, but she hasn't broken a sweat. Instead, she is merely leaning forward, hands dangling listlessly between her legs.

"I love her," she admits aloud, barely above a whisper. It's the first times the words have crossed her lips with quite that meaning. This is not the love of a sister, or a best friend. No, she is speaking of a deeper, more abiding love: the kind reserved for man and wife. Not that anyone who's ever heard her talk of Hibiki would be surprised by those words. Indeed, it's likely more surprising that Miku herself seems surprised.

"But ..." she also admits to herself, "at this point, it would almost be better to know that she were dead." A wish, yet not quite worded as such. An opportunity, perhaps, for someone else to interject.
Kyubey 2017-07-04 23:38:46 79974
Kyubey - the strange, alien creature who looks just enough like a few earth creatures to not be instantly disturbing - moves across the wall behind Miku, crawling up from the back side as thought it had always been there, as though its presence was normal. It has no sense of that, anyways, unable or unwanting to gauge against when its presence might be desired or not.

But Kyubey does, somewhat quickly, speak, coming from behind her, a mellow tone, almost caring and yet more curious than anything. "So why not do something about it, if your soul is crying out for answers so?" Kyubey asks as though such a thing was the most natural question in the world. "Or if you need help perhaps I can be of assistance? Or really, help you realize that potential."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-07-04 23:48:06 79976
Alex had gotten in trouble at school. Again. Enough so at least that he actually ended up being kept there as disciplinary measures well after school hours proper ended, which... well. Which is why he is walking up from inside of the Verone grounds, and through the gate, walking his motorcycle alongside him. ANd yes, he looks incredibly annoyed. Muttering in german under his breath.

The muttering ends when he spots a somewhat familiar figure on the bench ahead, however. As much as him and Miku keep ribbing at each other, he does still light up a bit when he spots her there and starts to call out "Ooooi!" with a hand drawing up from his bike to wave.

But rather than yelling anything else out during his approach, he quiets up when he spots-- something. SOmething else there. His expression turns distinctly confused. He's-- well. He has heard a *lot* about Kyubey, but... he has never actually met him. Much less seen him. "...What is...?"
Lacrima 2017-07-04 23:52:03 79977
Lacrima is out as... Lacrima because 'Norie' ran away from home again. She's not having a good week, month, year, so on. She's walking away from the Shopping Strip down the way when she spots a familar figure in a bench up ahead somewhere. And Alexis. Miku and Alexis. This is the first time she's spotted both together in the same area. She muses on this.

Then there's a white figure. Ohhh dear she thinks.

She picks up the hems of her skirt and makes a more brisker jog over as she lowers them as she frowns a bit at the white fuzzball, and then to Miku.

"Kyubey." she says softly with regards, as she looks over to Miku. "Miku-chan." she says. Then over to Alexis and nods. "Alexis-kun." she says. She looks back towards Miku.

"I take he's offering something." she says wryly. "As he always is."
Miku Kohinata 2017-07-04 23:54:34 79978
Miku glances towards the little white figure, blinking in surprise. She's read a few notes about it, but there aren't a lot provided by the Virtue databases, and all she really knows is that it grants wishes in exchange for magical powers.

Which in no way means it's a bad thing.

Alexis' question draws her attention away from the creature briefly, and Norie's naming of the creature only confirms her thoughts. "Ah," she says, then reaches down to pick the little creature up. "I've done as much as I know to do," she admits, speaking to the creature, as she sets it into her lap. It's instinct, really, to pet it. Fuzzy, cute ears. "I've tried to call her, text her, email her. I've begged Genjurou-sama to tell me where she is. Kazanari-san, too. I don't ... know what else to do," she says softly.
Kyubey 2017-07-05 00:03:15 79980
The fact that nobody wants to start a Mahou Civil War over Puella - and Witches - means that even those connected with Virtue might not know anything about Kyubey's true nature, much less the nature of Puella. It keeps his job from being harder than it could be.

Kyubey sits in Miku's lap, giving off comforting warmth, like a cat that isn't purring, and even nestles in a bit. It would be cute.

"She's not wrong, though. I did come with a sort of offering, or at least to see how interested you might be in one. In a wish, to be precise."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-07-05 00:15:48 79981
Alex stops. Alex all but freezes in place when he hears Lacrima utter that one name. It gets processed inside his head, and as every single muscle in his body tenses up, he lets out a heavy breath.

Then he's kicking the supporting leg of his bike down so that he can *run* to the bench Miku has settled on.

"Miku--" he gasps out then, with his feet skidding along the ground to bring him to a halt when he does reach the bench, eyes locking on down to the fuzzy little critter on the girl's lap. "D--" Wait. How is he supposed to word this? He *knows* enough to know that doing anything with this thing is a bad idea, but he also promised to the two Puella he knows that he wouldn't say what he knows.

It's not really helping things that it's taking a lot for him to not just yank the thing out of Miku's lap and start wailing on it.

Ultimately, the only thing that comes out of him, for these first few seconds is a single word.

"Don't."
Lacrima 2017-07-05 00:22:41 79983
Lacrima blinks. As Alexis tries to put into words 'It would be a bad idea to wish to that.' and then says just 'Don't'.' and she rolls her eyes a bit. "What Alexis is trying to say is. Don't accept that things deal. Quite frankly. I think your mileage may vary. It depends." she says.

She merely looks back to Alexis after expressing it. "Of course Alexis knows that deal." she says softly. "So he has a right to worry about it." she says a little sufferingly.
Miku Kohinata 2017-07-05 00:26:12 79984
Miku purses her lips just a little, looking between Alexis, Lacrima, and Kyubey, then arches her brows. "Don't what?" she asks, looking to Alexis challengingly, "make a decision that could benefit myself, but which will also ultimately require me to help others? The same deal that Sayaka-chan has made?"

Once again, Miku returns her gaze to the rodent, then lets out a sigh, "I can't go on like this, Raskoph-kun." But she's not really talking to Alexis. She's talking to Kyubey, and likely giving it all the words it most wants to hear. "Either something has to change, or I'm about to break. It's killing me, not knowing if she's alright or if she's not. I would give anything to just know that she is safe."
Kyubey 2017-07-05 00:40:08 79986
Kyubey leans into Miku's scratching hand, and shakes a little bit. "Well nothing is free, no. But it seems like you all already have some awareness of that." It blinks, and then looks up at her.

"But what I'm offering is very very real. And I think you have the potential to grant most wishes I think you might ask for. So... it's up to you. I won't push you into it, it's not what I do. Take time if you need it. But consider what you want, how badly you want it... and if you're willing to accept a life of conflict in order to get whatever that is."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-07-05 00:50:48 79988
"Shut up," Alex growls out suddenly when his eyes twitch down to Kyubey. "Just-- shut up."

He lets out a heavy sigh, and clenches both his hands closed, eyes sweeping back to the green-haired girl. "Miku," he whispers out. "Did Sayaka's wish make her happy? Do you think yours will change anything? Especially when... given by this..." His eyes turn back to Kyubey, and one of his fists shakes faintly. "...Used car salesman." He is trying his bloody best not to say certain things.
Lacrima 2017-07-05 00:59:15 79990
Lacrima takes a long suffering sigh. "Yes. He's offering you a wish to become a Puella Magi. I would take his advice and think long and hard on it if you're considering it, Miku-chan." she frowns a little. She looks at Alexis.

"Alexis-kun. This is Miku's choice." she says flatly.

"I'm sure she isn't going to make it lightly one way or another."

Still she begins to finagle for her phone just in case. Riventon would probably shoot her head off if Kyubey was gonna make a Puella here and she didn't at least get like- a picture. Too bad complicated scanners and sensors aren't pocketsized.
Miku Kohinata 2017-07-05 01:01:52 79991
"I've forgotten what happy is!" Miku iinforms Alexis frustratedly. "Last time I knew it was long before I knew you. And of all people, you have the least right to tell me I should do what is or isn't best for me. I'm not looking for happiness, Raskoph. I'm looking for closure," she almost yells at him.

Almost, but not quite, because Miku is past the point of tears and screaming. She's done more than her fair share of all of that. Now, all she has left is pain.

So she looks down to the little creature and asks, "Does the wording matter? Or do you understand intention more than wording? And what ... exactly are my responsibilities, if I agree to this? What do I have to do? For how long? And what will it do to me?"
Kyubey 2017-07-05 01:19:00 79992
Kyubey tilts his head to look at Alexis. "I'm not selling anything. And I'm only telling the truth. I'm making an offer, a deal. I don't know why you're getting involved, but I have nothing to hide. It's still a very good deal." Lacrima isn't so threatening to his point, so he just shakes his head and it sends his floppy ears wriggling.

He turns to look at Miku again. "The wording doesn't matter so much. The wish doesn't try to trip you up on language. Even if it is a contract. You humans put so much emphasis on wording, but the contract will know your soul." He pauses before answering, selectively, some questions. "You'll become a Puella Magi, as the other girl explained. You'll be responsible for hunting witches - monsters that ruin people's lived with grief. And that'll be a responsibility you'll keep forever. But you'll get the power you need to do it. And to help all of your friends with their own monsters, too."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-07-05 01:37:06 79994
Alex is visibly taken aback by Miku's outburst (as it is by her standards), and he just barely manages to stop himself from outright backing away. It does, however, result in a look that is best decribed as 'helpless'.

It's a strange place. To debate between giving an argument to ward off a friend from doing something he's sure she will regret, and holding on to a promise he made to two other friends.

"...Is it worth it?" He ends up just whispering, instead, the helplessness audible in his tone now too. "Throwing your life away. You didn't want me to either, did you?" His eyes fall downwards. "...There has to be a way for it to be different. Just--"

There's a realization that sinks in. He can't stop her. Because he's just as powerless as he's ever been.

"Miku. Please."

There's only begging left.
Lacrima 2017-07-05 01:43:39 79995
Lacrima frowns at Miku's words. She kinda knows what that feels like if only because she legit can't feel happy even when she should. Her eyes gently look towards Alexis and she sighs a bit as she looks towards Alexis. "I know what feels like." she says to Alexis. "Except she may have a chance to fix. Like I don't." she says bluntly.

She looks back towards Miku as she barrages Kyubey with questions.

"See." she asides to Alexis, despite his slowly forlorn state. "Miku probably won't make the wish." she says. "Besides. It's a raw deal. I think anyways. It's just not my choice to make for anyone." she shrugs.
Miku Kohinata 2017-07-05 01:46:15 79997
Miku inclines her head just faintly, clearly torn between one choice and another. She stares at the little creature, then closes her eyes and lets out another sigh, and it almost seems like she might make the wish right then and there.

Almost.

Instead, she mumbles, "I need time to think about it." Time to consider this new option rationally. "Give me a few days," she says to Kyubey. A few days. And then she looks up to Alexis and begs him, "Help me find another way, if you think this one is so bad. Because the only alternative I've considered is definitely worse."
Kyubey 2017-07-05 02:07:52 79999
"Sure." Kyubey says, but it instantly hops away from Miku, a sort of lack of physical presence, no cat-ferret-rabbit-eldritch horror to pet with her non-affirmative response. "The deal is always open. But I figured you'd have tried all of the other options."

The strange creature scratches one of its long floppy ears with one of its hind legs. "You can call on my name anytime, though. I'm almost always around somewhere."
Alexis Raskoph 2017-07-05 02:18:43 80000
Alex turns to sweep his eyes after the eldritch abomination, brows furrowing into a deep frown again. He's very much wearing his opinions on the little thing on his sleeve, even if he isn't considering himself to be allowed to explain the *reasons* behind it.

What a horrible dilemma.

"Just go," he grunts out to the thing, before turning to Miku again, taking a step closer to her. "...Then I will," he murmurs, voice low, just barely above a whisper. "I'm not going to give up on you. I'm not gonna--" His words drift off, and his eyes drift away. Somewhere inside, he knows all too well that all those thoughts are painfully, horribly futile.

But standing on the side isn't an option either.
Lacrima 2017-07-05 02:28:32 80002
Lacrima frowns a bit as she eyes Miku and then back to Alexis. It's clear Alexis is having trouble with this, as she takes a deep and hard breath. She then looks back to Miku. "Is that what's been bothering you Miku-chan?" she asks softly. "I'm sorry you were in pain like that." she says quietly.

She then looks down to Kyubey and frowns and then back to Miku. "If others see you with him, they might just kill him outright. Don't... freak out about that. Another one usually just spawns. Somewhere." she mutters.

"Basically it's useless to kill him. It's probably why I haven't bothered today." she says.
Miku Kohinata 2017-07-05 02:35:40 80003
Miku looks uncertain, as the creature removes itself from her lap. For a brief moment she had hope again. Now, uncertainty has settled back in. She sighs and closes her eyes, then shakes her head.

A few moments later and her arms slip back down to the same listless position the creature found her in, and she opens her eyes to stare at her own feet once more. "I don't see what better options there are left."
Kyubey 2017-07-05 02:42:35 80004
Kyubey shakes it's head, allowing the furry ears to flop everywhere. It'd be cute if you were unaware of its nature. "Just don't wait too long. Something could happen that changes the situation - I can only make offers based on what I see. So... take your time, but not too much time." it notes cryptically.

Then it jumps back over the wall towards Verone, and it's gone just like that.
Alexis Raskoph 2017-07-05 02:52:06 80005
Alex winces visibly by the time Kyubey's jumping off over the wall, and he mutters quietly "Creepy little thing.

He turns himself over around, so that he can back himself over to lowering down onto the bench, sitting besides Miku. "You're probably thinking I'm a hypocrite," he mutters. "That I'd probably take the deal for entirely different reasons." He just might too, at that, but fortunately for everyone involved that is not quite how Puella work.

"Just as far as I understand, those... things. Those wishes never seem to really pan out how one would like, judging from what I've heard from the Puella I know." He bites at his lip briefly. "I know I can't make your choice for you. I can't even tell you to just be strong. Just... You didn't want me to give up way back when either, did you?"

When he was a vampire. And he thought he should die.

And Lacrima's words manage to bring out an even more obvious shiver along his body. "You're joking," he mutters. "That sounds so *wrong*."
Lacrima 2017-07-05 02:58:08 80007
Lacrima looks to Alexis. "No. It's basically an actual version of 'The Cat Came Back'." she says bluntly. "You can do anything to it and it'll come back." she says. "Part of me wishes I could subsist off animal energy because I could just drain those things all day and no one would hate me for it." she says.

She looks back to Miku. She goes to have a seat next to her.

"I've learned sometimes there are no options." she says. "Sometimes that's the case." she offers.
Miku Kohinata 2017-07-05 03:04:11 80008
Miku shrugs just a little at Lacrima. "I have options," she says softly. "I could make a deal with the cat-rabbit, I could kill myself, or I could ask some horrible monster to take away my memories of her." A pause, then she notes, "I just don't have any good options."
Lacrima 2017-07-05 03:18:29 80010
Lacrima merely stares at Miku a little bit. "For the past two years. I've been dealing with my body being replaced with some sort of dark abomination and being forced to more or less hunt humans to keep sane while having half my emotional spectrum, the good half, taken from me. While my family disintegrated around me due to the change in my demeanor and my irrational actions and losing every single one of my former friends." she says.

"And not once did I think to 'kill myself'." she says a little lowly.

"Now. Most certainly I wish I could had curled up and died, but I also wished that often when I screwed up dance recitals when I was human." she asides.

"Do you really think so little of yourself to attach your life's worth to someone else like that?" she raises a brow. "That you can't possibly overcome it?"
Miku Kohinata 2017-07-05 03:24:48 80011
Miku rolls her eyes, just a little. "I said it was an option," she replies quietly. "I didn't say it was a good option, nor that I am going to exercise it. I'm not suicidal, Okana-san. I just ... I'm breaking. And I'm reaching the point where I wish I never knew her."
Lacrima 2017-07-05 03:33:22 80013
Lacrima frowns a little as she folds her arms over one another in her lap. "I broke a long time ago. Sometimes I put the pieces back together slowly. Then something breaks it again. And then I try again."

"Did you know me and Rashmi-chan tried to tell my brother recently the truth about myself? He believed it. But he also told me I was dead to him and not to come back. So now I'm not even at my own home anymore." she says.

"I'm still trying. I have options too. Just they all involve leaving my life as 'Norie' behind for good." she says.

"Not sure if I want that yet."

A pause. "Is there anything I can do to help in the meantime? I've been meaning to go to Korma Chamelon soon. I promised Rashmi-chan I would soon."
Miku Kohinata 2017-07-05 03:36:04 80014
Miku shakes her head a little, offering no other real response. It's clear she doesn't think there's much anyone can do. After all, if she had any ideas she probably would be persuing them. "I should probably do what I came out here to do," she says, instead. She means the jogging, not the wishing.
Lacrima 2017-07-05 03:40:27 80015
Lacrima nods. "Okay then." she says. "Have a fun run?" she says. She does notice the clothes. "And. Please do consider Kyubey's offer carefully." she says softly. "It isn't pleasant, the result." she says. She'll stand a moment later and begin to travel the way she was headed before. Probably back to the manor for now then.