Strandings and Opening Hearts

The world continues to be stranger than Eilam thought, and he's not adjusting well. Lacrima does what she can to help.

Date: 2017-08-02
Pose Count: 11
Lacrima 2017-08-02 03:32:49 81090
Lacrima went home with Eilam and she'd had done her best to comfort and cuddle and overall try to reassure Eilam about various magical things. She did not talk about the Chupacabras. Eventually, she'd fall asleep either somewhere on Eliam or find her way to a closet or any other sort of bed.

Morning would come. She never understood how she knew it was morning, but it was morning. She always got up extra early. This gave her time to take a Dusk Step off to obtain donuts and coffee and pastries, which she did, before arriving back with them at around the time that Eilam-kun should had been waking up. What does this mean?

Breakfast in bed on a tray. :I.

It is pampering time after last night, yes. At least a little bit this morning.

"Did you sleep okay?" she asks softly.
Eilam Hisakawa 2017-08-02 03:50:50 81091
    Despite it all, he did sleep alright. If only because he took an unhealthy amount of sleep medication to ensure he at least passed out alright, since there was no concern at all about it having any dangerous effect on him or lasting lingering in his system. There was no crying, or fear or anything of that sort from him, though. Just... uncertainty. More along the lines of 'How much of my life have I wasted trying to hide if everyone else can just flaunt about so openly and be just fine'.

    The concept just seemed to grate him the wrong way. Like petting a cats back the wrong way.

    Though with her speaking as she came back, she would find him still in bed, where she'd left him, just how she left him, only awake. His cell phone was laying nearby his hand, screen unlocked and he was just kind of staring off at nothing. "Morning. I... well, my 'condition' or whatever the hell it is does have a few perks, like being able to overdoes on sleeping medications to just pass out when I need to take my mind off things." He laughed a little, even though the topic was awkward perhaps for anyone who wasn't aware he was functionally immortal that way. "Though I wanted to say thank you for staying the night either way. It was nice to wake up, while you were out, to knowing you were there by the state of the bed. I do not normally... let others stay overnight with me. Too much risk and all."
Lacrima 2017-08-02 04:01:11 81092
Lacrima nods. "I'm staying with you, remember?" she asks. "I just wanted to make sure you were okay." a pause. "Medications. And mundane substances. Don't affect me. I'd prefer not to talk about how and why I know that." she says quietly.

She shakes her head. "I'm still sorry about that. Lamya-san is a new one. I didn't know about her until last night." she says.

She motions to the donuts and coffee on the bed tray as she steals two of them to begin to eat one of them.

"Is there anything you want to talk about, related to last night, at all?" she asks quietly.
Eilam Hisakawa 2017-08-02 04:12:52 81093
    "Yes, I remember, just... nevermind." Eilam dropped the topic, not sure how to really explain what he meant anyways. "It is nothing you need to apologize over. I am just... still not sure how I should even proceed with my life. Seeing everyone else who is magical or what not now so open and not seeming to worry about others noticing, and everyone feeling /open/, honestly, it just leaves me frustrated." Reaching out, he took a donut, leaving the coffee where it was for the moment. "How much time, how much... effort, and stress, and problems have I created or tried to solve for no reason, if I could have just walked my eternal ass here to Tokyo a hundred, two hundred years ago. Is this just some hub for all the magic things in the world, or is this just a coincidental convergence of things?"
Lacrima 2017-08-02 04:24:11 81094
Lacrima frowns. "I will tell you what I know, objectively, on a magical and scientific level." she says softly.

"Magic exists other places. Proof is in my necklace, and your condition. They do not originate from Tokyo. MIne is from Spain. Yours appears to be from somewhere else in Europe if you've told me things right." she says.

"But they're far and wide between. Unique cases." she says. "But even Tokyo, things weren't as common as they were, from what I understand, being from anywhere to twenty to ten years ago. When things got /really/ active." she says. "That is. The 'explosion of magic' is fairly 'recent'. So. You should not feel like you're... dumb. or slow. for being careful." she says quietly.

"And there's still reasons to be careful." she asides. "Because of that." she says softly.

"But. There will be new things appearing all the time. Things happening. As they have since the start of that little outburst." she says softly.
Eilam Hisakawa 2017-08-02 04:36:24 81095
    "But what about things like dragons, or your unicorn friends parents, or..." he practically scoffed out dragons, still unable to believe it, "...or that astrology madness that you girlfriend... I still can't believe all of this madness is real. I've seen too much of that used to falsely blame people in history for too much. The salem witch trials, people being accused in general of witchcraft or unholy things. Were people just... was I just... blinded to magic?"

    Honestly he didn't even know. Was all of that just people making up stuff to try and explain away magic that whatever the whole 'magical veil' thing he'd heard people talk about before stopped them from noticing? "What even... is wrong with me. Why am I like this. I always have just thought I was. I never had any ability to know how. Am I cursed or something? Like you, did I... find some item that stuck me like this?"
Lacrima 2017-08-02 04:48:26 81096
Lacrima frowns a bit. "I do know there was a .. time before time." she says softly. "A time that existed before the start of our prehistory as we know it. But It's vague to me. It's vague to the people that know about it." she says softly. "But Earth is important. People from out of our dimension and existence all know Earth by another name. It's 'The Garden of Rainbows'." she says softly. "Multiple 'outward' places us that 'name'." she says.

"Oh the Witch Trials. In Salem? It's hard to know. Puella Magi have existed for a long time and they fight things called 'Witches'. For all we know. It's related. I could launch an investigation- but it'd be wasting time that should be used for more important projects." she says gently.

"To be honest though. I just think that was humanity being it's usual bad self." she frowns.

"When you look at me Eilam." she says softly. "You see my pale features, yes? The fact that when I'm still, I don't really 'breathe'." she says. "Mundane people? They don't see those. Their hearts are closed." she says. "They might feel something off about me. But they won't see me for what I am. Something not human." she says.

"It's possible, that. You were always walking around with a closed heart. When you came over here. To Tokyo recently. The recent going ons could had shocked it open. Suddenly you're seeing things you couldn't before. Not to say it still isn't jarring." she motions.

"...Eilam-kun. Do you WANT to find out more about your condition...?" she asks quietly.

"I have tools. and travel. and research at my disposal. If you want me to investigate. I can. I'll need your help of course. To tell me everything you can remember. I have a few theories, on how I could start." she says quietly. "But it depends if the person I'd consider asking to help, would do so." she says.
Eilam Hisakawa 2017-08-02 04:56:49 81097
    There was a few moments where Eilam said nothing, then finally he looked up to her, "I do not know. For the past few hundred years I have tried to find ways to die. So many. Tried to find ways to not be trapped. To be... comfortable if I can until I find a way. If you had asked me that even a year ago, I would have asked for your help trying to find out why I am trapped like this, and how not to be so I can just..." he doesn't quite finish his train of thought there, perhaps thinking it better to leave it. "Now I have to think about others, too, myself too. If... if you are somehow 'cured', and go back to being... mortal? I will be alone again maybe in a lifetime. But vice versa, should I somehow die finally, what about you? I have no desire to strand you alone like I have been for so long now that I finally met you, but that is something I value a lot. Choice. I refuse to not respect others choice, because I want them to respect mine. So if you ever wanted to just... find a way to end it all, I would accept your choice without trying to convince you otherwise. But my choice? Now I do not know. Funny, right? Someone who is immortal... now scared of dying, because I'm not really alone anymore."

    Yeah, he didn't really make eye contact at the moment, instead just looking to the side as he sat up against the headboard of the bed. "I do not mind you involving others, if you trust them, but I... must refuse, if you cannot trust them not to document it somehow. I do not want records formed, created and never able for me to erase them or control them. I want control of my own... existence, even if it traps me here longer."
Lacrima 2017-08-02 05:16:46 81098
Lacrima frowns. "I know that feeling. The. Just wanting it to end? I've tried various ways. Both.. mundane and magical. I think the.. silliest was trying to eat an entire bag of just garlic clothes. It felt miserable for the rest of the day because garlic doesn't taste great." she says.

"I've given up on finding a cure. It isn't possible to. Return me to being a human. I'm stuck like this. Right now I'm just trying to find a way to return as much as my emotional capacity as I can." she says. "Which seems. Possible? But it'll be hard and long." she says quietly.

She says. "I'll talk to him then. He won't keep notes or documents." she says. "I know you value your privacy Eilam-kun." she says as she places the second donut down back on the tray. She crawls up onto the bed and slides up next to Eilam.

"I'll do my best, then to find out?" she asks. "I won't start now. But soon. I'll need to ask you questions." she says. "But not now." she says.

She shifts a bit. "Don't worry about losing me. I'm not going anywhere." she says. "One way or another." she asides.
Eilam Hisakawa 2017-08-02 05:26:44 81099
    Somehow, the idea of her trying to go out by garlic overdose was cute. He really shouldn't find it cute but he does. It was only when she moved next to him that Eilam leaned down and kissed her cheek gently. "Even if you went anywhere, I am still happy enough knowing you for the time I have. Just knowing there is someone else who might keep me from being alone forever is good enough. Company even. Just... having something consistent through all of the hiding and changing."
    And then one more soft kiss in the same place before he falls quiet for the moment, content to hug around her as they sat there.

    "Dragons, vampires, unicorns. Part of me still thinks I might just be finally going crazy after all these years. Kind of makes you wonder, if all that is real... are gods real too? An afterlife? I have acted for so long like nothing else but me matters, since I'm the only thing in this world that is not going away, but now I know otherwise and I feel awkward about it."
Lacrima 2017-08-02 05:37:35 81100
Lacrima could answer that, that, yes gods are real- but not actually as all powerful as you think they'd be. But she doesn't. Eilam-kun has had enough of this garbage for the past 48 hours, it can wait for another day. Besides. She's getting kisses. This is good. She's been having her own problems as of late. She gently looks up. "When I pointed you out to Rashmi-chan. She acted impressed. She said. 'Niiiiice'." she says in a deadpan tone.

"You can trust Rashmi-chan. She keeps secrets." she says softly.

She blushes a bit with a huff. "I wanted to show you off. Just once." she says. "I hope that wasn't callous of me." she admits.

"Remember that night. You asked if the Dark Energy I'm made of left new things with me? Well that's. Part of that. The whole.... seduction bit. Coveting and...." she mutters. "Stuff like that. Because humans are base creatures and those are useful traps and baits." she mutters.