Is This A Usual Ritual

Seth and Lacrima have a conversation about both their conditions, and the drawbacks of being monsters.

Date: 2017-09-27
Pose Count: 10
Seth Locke 2017-09-27 00:56:14 83634
The Botanical Gardens are always a sight to behold, although at nightime - way in the dead of night - people are at home sleeping.

And this time suits Seth just fine, because he's trying to focus on meditating, on pushing his feelings deep inward - if not outright excise them.

And it may also be for the best that no-one is around to see him, because the harmony, or alignment of his thoughts has actually called up on the dark energy he has bottled up inside him to manifest as a swirling aura around him, also hovering some four feet above the ground.

Something happened, and this is the expression of inner conflict. Not unlike a raging storm.
Lacrima 2017-09-27 01:06:22 83635
Lacrima dusk steps into the botanical gardens at night, when it's closed, with a trowel, gardening gloves on, and a few empty pots. She needs samples she can only get here. She's just going to take a few of the plants that have a few here. No big deal. Nope. None at all.

But there's already. Something here. Yeah she can feel that. It tingles and puts her on alert on a instinctual level as she shoots her eyes around. She makes for the bushes and begins searching until she pokes her eyes through the hedge to see...

"....Seth?" she asks as she steps out, as she frowns.

"I do not think this is what me and Jiaying meant by meditating helping." she says wrly still with a frown.
Seth Locke 2017-09-27 01:21:42 83637
Seth Locke quickly holds out a hand, a plea for silence. It's then that becomes noticeable that Seth's hands were so tightly closed that his fingernails, gone claws, had sunk into his flesh, piercing it and oozing what would pass for blood - a dark liquid.

It takes a solid minute, almost two, to have his dark aura start to fade away. And yes, he soflty starts to lower to the ground, uncrossing his legs just in time to support himself on them.

He opens his eyes, glowing eerie red for a moment and then returning to their customary golden color.

"Good evening, Norie-chan", he says, finally looking at her.
Lacrima 2017-09-27 01:32:57 83639
Lacrima knows what's that like. Bleeding not-blood. Mainly because all she is , is a dark energy creature. She does make a note of this. 'bleeding oozing ichor' to her notes in her head to write down into the notebook for later.

She frowns a bit. "Good Evening. Seth. You're a mess." she says quietly. "What happened?" she asks.

"Did something happen? Or is this a usual ritual for yourself?" she asks.

"You generally should not be doing this here. I suggest a vacant concrete lot, or on top of a very high skyscraper next time. Less things that can potentially end up animated monsters." she says.

"Speaking of. How are the crystals working? Are they working at all to help absorb your energy?" she asks.
Seth Locke 2017-09-27 01:52:41 83640
"I lost a battle", the white-haired demon boy replies. "Perhaps it's for the best, but there were hopes and feelings unrequited." He almost starts growling, "This Seth doesn't handle loss very well." He makes a note about the animated monsters, offering but a small 'hm' as a reply.

In regards to the crystals, he reaches for a pocket, "I've no idea, really. Do they fill up faster if you're upset?"
Lacrima 2017-09-27 02:16:12 83643
Lacrima says. "Probably not. I leak at an unhealthy rate when I'm unstable. They handle that well enough." she says quietly. "Battle? What battle." then feelings unrequited and she rolls her eyes. She has a very strong hunch about what this is about.

"Seth. You need to get over it. Trust me." she says coldly. "I may be going through my own problems soon as it is." she says.

She sighs and shakes her head and puts down the things she came with and picks up a trowel and searches the borders of the area Seth has chosen to meditate in as she makes her way kneeling towards a small daffodil among many. She begins to carefully cut the trowel around it to dislodge it into the pot.

"I remember being what I am early on too." she says. "It's hard. But you'll figure it out. You need time. But right now. You're dangerous to those around you if you're not careful. I mean. At least those who don't handle dark energy really well. I'm fine around you. But I can't be 'polluted' with dark energy because I already am dark energy." she says.
Seth Locke 2017-09-27 02:51:12 83645
"And that's why I've been keeping my distance, within reason", Seth concludes.

"Is this how it's going to be like?", he has to ask. "This will cause you to keep away from others, for their alleged sake, but your wants will bring you misery, upon which it will feed and grow, and drive you even further apart from others in a never-ending spiral?"
Lacrima 2017-09-27 03:06:43 83647
Lacrima mmmphs. "That's why texting exists." she says coyly a little. "To talk to others at a distance." she asides. "But you can invite people to locales where it's safer for you and them. Fields. Vacant lots. On top of sky scrapers." she offers.

"Places too full of... easily touched life. Are not good places." she asides.

"I'm not leaking right now. So I'm safe to be anywhere I chose. I don't pollute the environment around me when I'm in control." a pause.

"Unless I wanted to. Which I don't." she also offers.

"Which is why you need to learn control." she says.

"Because existing as you are now leads to consequences for other people. And that isn't /fair/ Seth." she says. "Even I can understand that much in my current state." she says.

"What I earn in consequences to my own being is my own business." she says.
Seth Locke 2017-09-27 03:24:08 83649
"I think I sort of know how deep down I've changed", Seth replies to Norie after several moments of introspection. "I think this is something of the unconscious side." He continues, "I feel, but I feel stronger on my impulses; they're like something I almost cannot contain, like..."

He sighs, "...Like that's where the darkness resides. In the parts of me that were already dark to begin with." He scoffs, "Makes sense..."
Lacrima 2017-09-27 03:38:18 83651
Lacrima says. "No, you haven't changed. Kunzite has related that you acted in such manners before you changed. The darkness just makes it hard to change from such things." she says silently. "And- the darkness naturally expresses things that are bad. and sad. and despair. About you." she says quietly.

"So yes that makes sense." she says. "For example. Even if you weren't a horrible dark energy being. I think you'd still be in the same spot you are with your problems." she asides.

"Quite frankly. You're gonna want to have to change. No one can make you change if you don't want to. Not as you. or I am. Right now." she says.

She puts the three daffodils she's collected by now into the small carrying bag and closes it as she sighs.

"I study the Dusk Zone. And Dark Energy. As a job working for Riventon-sama." she says.

"I understand most of how it operates." she asides. "But there's still a lot to learn. But I can tell you that anything I tell you is correct as I've understood it." she asides. She stands up and brushes her lab coat off.