Rashmi-chan Rescue!

Rashmi-chan checks on Lacrima after she orders food in a very uncharacteristic shorthand text. They talk monsters vs. what isn't monsters.

Date: 2017-11-29
Pose Count: 22
Lacrima 2017-11-29 19:47:05 87235
Lacrima has not stopped answering texts. But her replies are short. Sometimes she uses text shorthand, which is odd for her. She usually always types out words. Basically. She is replying in the bare minimum to let people know she's still there and say- Hulda didn't swoop down in the middle of the night and nab her.

She's still a mess though. She's still crying. She's still kind of wishing to hurt something. Maybe she needs to eat something. And someone else to visit.

She decides she can get both and texts Rashmi.

Hi. I need 2 tlk. Can you bring fod plz? Will $ you.

She then miserably flumps down into the couch she's sitting on in the vestibule.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 19:49:22 87236
Thirty minutes. Is the reply text, as Rashmi scrambles to put a package together.

Twenty-five minutes later she's approaching the manor, Korma-kun ballcap on head, warming delivery box in hand, and a whole lot of worry in her eyes as she knockes on the door.
Lacrima 2017-11-29 19:59:22 87237
Lacrima eyes the door and sighs and slogs herself up and walks across the vestibule to the door and opens it. "Hi." she says softly to Rashmi. She looks 'cried out'. And there's traces of glitter still on her face, though not as much. "Sorry. About the glitter. Ari-chan was here earlier." she says softly. She lets Rashmi in and then moves to sit back down on the couch.

Oh something is wrong all right.

"Thank you." she says quietly. She settles a bit.

"I...i..." she sniffs. "I broke up with Natsumi-chan." she settles. "Her mom is just the worse. But not like. Alexis's mom just... mundane worse..." she mutters. Just to make it clear that Natsumi's mom is not magically the worst. Just the worst right now.

She tries to curl up into a ball by dragging her knees up to the couch but she stops halfway as if catching herself.

"Ariel-chan came visiting. Because she was worried. Caught me. Slicing up dead rosesbushes in the overgrown garden out back." she mutters.

"Cuz I felt I had to hurt something. or someone and... figured. Dead rosebushes. We're better than trying to go take it out on my furniture or other people." she mutters.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 20:04:22 87238
The food is set to one side the moment Lacrima curls up on the couch, and as Lacrima explains the trouble, Rashmi's eyes get bigger and bigger. "Oh, Lacchan," she whispers, and stains or no she instantly wraps her arms around her friend's shoulders, hugging tightly. "I'm so so sorry."
Lacrima 2017-11-29 20:14:31 87239
Lacrima sniffs and rubs her eyes and does let the hug happen. And she only lightly hugs back. She sniffs and eyes the food and looks back. "S..sucky time. For it to happen. I'm already having problems dealing with the Alexis-niisan stuff." she says quietly.

She rubs her eyes and shakes her head.

"E-Eilam-kun. Knows I... mostly. Prefer girls and that... I'm... always kinda. Gonna be. Seeing one too. He's. Fine with it. I'm not a two timer. Like that." she says quietly.

"E..eilam-kun is an odd exception." she says as she sniffs.

"S..sorry. Just. Trying to. Find. Ways to handle this. Without hurting. Things. people." she says.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 20:18:50 87240
"Don't be sorry," Rashmi gently chides, patting Lacrima's back before letting go.

Unzipping the delivery bag, she produces a veritable cornucopia of dishes; fish, lamb, vegetable curries, bright-smelling appetizers, and a final chilled box, stored in a separate compartment. From a pocket on the side is pulled a large thermos and a pair of nondescript coffee-style paper cups, into which is poured a steaming hot, violently yellow-orange liquid.

"I've been worried about you a lot, Lacchan, and I don't blame you in the slightest for being messed up like that. Was she your first girlfriend?"
Lacrima 2017-11-29 20:29:58 87241
Lacrima mutters. "Yes..." she says quietly. "She knew what I was and still didn't...." she unsettles a bit uncomfortably. "--care." she says softly. She sniffs and eyes the food. She gently reaches when she's able and regardless of the temperature-- because it doesn't matter to her being- begins consuming.

...and consuming...

"I'm just a mess right now." she says quietly.

"It shouldn't surprise me that people find me awful. I'm a monster afterall." she sniffs hard.

Then more food into her mouth.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 20:39:11 87242
"Two things wrong about what you just said," Rashmi notes, handing over one of the cups once Lacchan reaches a stopping point in her sadness-eating. "Here... golden milk, it's called. Basically turmeric tea, Mami thought it might help. Anyway... People don't find you awful, Lacchan. I don't, she doesn't, a whole lot of people don't find you awful. And her mom can't control who she talks to forever, so... y'know... there's that."

Leaning back against the cushions, Rashmi sips from her own cup, watching Lacrima for a moment. "Also, I keep telling you. You're not a monster. Just because your body's made up of dark energy and you have to feed off people to survive doesn't change that. Monsters don't care, Lacchan. They don't have a choice about what they do, and they don't want to have a choice. They just are. You and Riventon-san... you have a choice. You want more than what your power says you should do, y'know?"
Lacrima 2017-11-29 20:56:45 87243
Lacrima shifts uncomfortably. She doesn't really believe the things Rashmi are saying. Not right now at least. Not in her current mental state. She sniffs. She takes the tea and eyes it and takes a... well that's not a sip. More of a gulp. Most certainly not all of it in one sip however.

"You can't just change word definitions to suit something. Just because I don't act like a monster doesn't make me not one." she says quietly.

She sniffs a bit. "Riventon-sama..." she thinks. "Oh. Did you. Meet him finally?" she asks. She sighs. "I bet he was probably doing something like he always is." she deflates. "Was trying to get him to go to the Korma with me but he's always so busy with work or school." she sighs a little.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 21:03:21 87244
"That assumes I've believed 'monster' means something else," Rashmi points out. "Which, I haven't. You don't act like a monster, therefore you aren't one."

With a small smile, she sips from her cup. "Actually... He was helping us, when Jin-kun..." She trails off, her smile fading. "...When he turned out to be the eighteenth Jewel Seed. Fate-chan called for help, and he showed up almost immediately. I was really annoyed with Souma-san after that, and I made sure to thank Riventon-san for his help. Because it was the least I could have done, honestly. Tell him he is welcome at the Korma if he ever wants something different for dinner, okay?"
Lacrima 2017-11-29 21:15:44 87245
Lacrima blinks. "Oh! You were the girl... mentioned in the report then." she says silently. She nods. "Riventon-sama doesn't forget things like that. He'll probably want to try to visit once." she says silently.

She sighs a bit and stops arguing about the meaning of words as she just shovels more food into her mouth and sniffs.

"I... I knew I love Natsumi-chan." she says as she sniffs hard. "W-when me and Kukai switched bodies. I.. I was able to feel things again and I knew I did! and I knew I loved Eilam-kun! Bu..but that's all! Before I had to switch back." she says.

"I...I can't feel love! Like this! I don't even know if.. if.." she takes a hard sniff.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 21:18:59 87247
"Lacchan," Rashmi says gently. "If you couldn't feel love, you wouldn't be this messed up over a breakup, would you? Weren't you the one that said that Dark Energy makes it hard to feel positive things, but really easy to feel negative ones?"

Then, Rashmi blinks, rewinding the conversation in her head. "...Wait, report?"
Lacrima 2017-11-29 21:31:41 87248
Lacrima blinks. "Oh. You know I work for Riventon-sama already? Right. Report. You know. After action paper." she says softly. "Internal work. Mentioned someone that helped him up. But it mostly angry at Kukai type type stuff." she says softly.

"I'm mostly his second? So I make sure things get filed away like that correctly." she says.

"When not doing my own research on things." she says quietly.

"Nothing to worry about. Just. Bureaucracy and paperwork." she says. "Eclipse is more official with things like that. I work in Eclipse, in Riventon-sama's division." she says softly as she sniffs.

"It makes it hard to feel good things. In my case it's near impossible." she says lightly. "Someone like Riventon-sama is still half-human. He still has a body rooted in flesh and blood and breathing and bodily functions." she says quietly. "Mine is a mass of dark energy. It makes things different and harder..."
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 21:41:27 87249
"Exactly," Rashmi says, hunting in her bookbag for a notepad and pen. Flipping past scribbled, densely-packed notes and bad drawings of cute animals, she finds a blank sheet, and draws a line. One side gets marked with a :D face, and the other a >:C, with a line drawn near the center. "Okay so... your regular person is right about here," she says, tapping the intersecting line. When something makes them happy, they get happier!" A :) face is drawn about halfway to the left side of the line, toward the :D face. "And when something makes them upset..." Another line, halfway to the >:C and marked with a :(

"That's emotions for regular people. For you, it's more like..." Another line is drawn, marked on either side, but this time the intersecting line has about an inch's clearance from the >:C side. "So when something makes you feel good..." This time the :) ends up closer to the center of the line, and still on the bad-feelings side. "And when something makes you feel bad..." The emotive line doesn't even bother with a symbol, and is just drawn right off the side of the paper.

"See? It's hard to feel good things, but that doesn't mean they're not there. You laughed so hard when Souma-san showed up dressed like you, remember. If you didn't have the body you had, you'd probably still be giggling about it now, every time you think back."
Lacrima 2017-11-29 22:03:15 87250
Lacrima shakes her head. "I still don't know why I laughed. I just did. I can't make myself laugh again at that." she says quietly. She does eye the diagrams that Rashmi makes and purses her lips. "It's not as easy as that." she says quietly.

"Mamoru thinks I make drumps or use different feelings to accomplish the needs of others." she says quietly.

"Like it's easy for me to worry. Because it's a negative, anxiety filled emotion. But you can worry about people. And others you care about." she says. "And he says that's the same as 'love' or whatever." she says quietly as she sniffs.

She rubs her face a bit as she sighs.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 22:16:01 87251
Rashmi Terios reaches out, giving Lacrima's shoulder a squeeze. "Hey... it's okay. I know it's a total simplification, but it still makes sense based on what you're telling me. And besides... it's all just translation for my brain. I can't imagine with any accuracy what it's like to be you, but I can try to understand. And I want to understand, because that's what a good friend does, y'know?"
Lacrima 2017-11-29 22:29:46 87252
Lacrima frowns. "Kukai-kun knows. But that's just because he's the one who switched bodies with me when that stupid card switched us." she says quietly. "So he got to spend time being me. Dealing with that whole mess. It at least got him to stop insisting I could just... drain thugs. or 'bad people'. That is never always an option and rarely is when I need to feed." she says silently.

"I don't even understand sometimes so I don't think you can understand easily." she says quietly as she finally puts down an empty bowl.

She looks down at this hand. "Ugh. Ari-chan's glitter." she mutters. "I think I'm gonna look like a goth discoball for a while." she sighs.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 22:57:02 87253
"I don't think I'll ever understand it easily," Rashmi allows, "but that's not gonna stop me from trying, Lacchan. But Souma-san is.... kind of silly, I think. Too black and white, because I mean what, are you supposed to stop people on the street and make them fill out a questionnaire? It'd need to be like four hundred questions long just to have a hope of accuracy, and can you even imagine that? 'Could you hurry please, and make sure you don't miss Question 96 -- Are you a bad person?'"

The goth disco ball earns a snorty laugh from the redhead. "Yeah, that's not coming off easily... but hey, how many people can blame glitter-face on actual unicorn hugs?"
Lacrima 2017-11-29 23:17:02 87254
Lacrima grumbles. "Not from a hug. She gave me a handkerief from her pocket and it was covered in glitter." she says softly. "I mean. She did. Hug me. But it was from that." she says quietly. She shifts a bit uncomfortably. She sighs a bit.

"I went to clean up to rest and my face was just covered in it." she says quietly.

She takes another sniff as she wipes her face with her sleeve.

"I've been trying to keep away from people. Not bother them. I don't wanna hit Mamoru with this empathy wave of awful either." she sniffs.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 23:25:17 87255
"Chiba-san's an edge case," Rashmi says, shaking her head. "But Lacchan, the rest of us? People who care about you, want to help. That's why I'm here, right? Don't let your instincts shove you away from people, y'know?"

Leaning over, she rests a hand on the vampire's arm, squeezing gently. "People are stronger together, than by themselves. That's true no matter what, whether you're flesh and blood or something else. If you have friends, it's okay to lean on them. That's what friends are for."
Lacrima 2017-11-29 23:35:50 87256
Lacrima sighs a bit and nods. "Um. If you have. Recurring nightmares and bad dreams. Still? From the. Dusk Zone thing? Please. Tap Ari-chan?" she asks silently. "She deals in dream things like that." she says. "But my research suggests it should be fading away or gone by now? Usually by now." she says quietly.

"I don't have nightmares like that. I'm insulated. Because of what I am. It's normal for me." she says quietly. "Not for you though." she says.

"I should. Um. Do. Things now. Besides whine. And cry. and eat." she says quietly. "Maybe. Actually ride a bus somewhere. For a change." she says. Instead of say. Dusk Zone step.

She seems to forget a moment and then 'ahs' lightly as she walks into the kitchen and comes back with an envelope. "That should. Be enough to cover the food." she says gently.

"Thanks again, Rashmi-chan." she says quietly.
Rashmi Terios 2017-11-29 23:44:04 87257
"Anytime," Rashmi says softly, accepting the envelope with a gentle smile. "Seriously... thanks for calling me, Lacchan, and don't hesitate next time, okay?"

And with that, she gives Lacrima one last hug, gathers up her dishes into the takeout box, and makes her way out of the manor, glad to have helped out a good friend.