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Date: 2018-09-27
Pose Count: 24
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-27 05:28:12 98310
Nakusu Miki spoke to Lacrima the last time she was here, talking of feelings for others, and the ethicality of incorporating a past life into your current life. But that was last time. Here and Now!...

Nakusu has arrived and wanted that one on one time with Lamya without anyone else. Lacrima had mentioned that the sitting room off to the side was a good private room, so she's taken Lamya there and shut the door and sat on the same day bed that Lacrima and her had used before. She smiles warmly. "Ah-ha." she goes a little eagerly. "Lacr-- Norie? I dunno which name she prefers. But. Lacrima said that this was a good room to use if we wanted to talk without anyone butting in."

"Sit down?..." she asks, patting the spot beside her. "I mean. If you rather sit in one of the other chairs or something. You can." she says a little nervously. Yup. A nervous mess. A happy nervous mess! But nervous still!
Lamya 2018-09-27 05:35:47 98311
Lamya had a pleasant surprise this evening when the person at the door turned out to be none other than her Princess! And she's here to talk! With her! They negotiate their way into the sitting room, with Lamya snagging one of the everpresent boxes of donuts to bring with them.

"I'm not sure myself," Lamya says in regards to her housemate's name. "I think it depends on her mood, and who you are. I usually call her Lacrima, except for when she seems to want to connect more to her family and past. I haven't been corrected on it yet."

She sets the donuts down within easy reach, and when invited to sit next to the Princess, she obediently plops herself down in the indicated seat. "This is good," she says, indicating that she's okay with sitting on the same couch. "So..... help yourself to a donut?" she asks awkwardly.
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-27 05:54:58 98312
Nakusu Miki grabs a donut and begins to eat it. Eating, having her mouth full, gives her time to think. She swallows. "I spoke with Lacrima the other day as I said. She had questions for me. About. Me and well.. you." she says gently. "-and I talked to her about an issue I'm having." a pause then SUDDEN fluster to raise her hands. "Not with you! I mean. It's my issue." she says.

"She said I should also tell you." she takes a breath.

"When I met you the other day." she says. "I had met you for the first time. But. Talking to you. It also felt like I knew you for a lot longer." she says quietly. "It feels... natural talking to you. Like. An old old friend? Like I feel I trust you a lot. Like I can tell you things." she says. "-and I think that's the 'princess' at the forefront there. Her memories and thoughts and feelings." she says.

"There's also other feelings I have about things now. I'm remembering bits and pieces. Making more coherent thoughts on things about it." she says.

"I know that. I am not Sabra. This is a fact. I do have her memories, her feelings in me though." she says. "Thoughts, memories." she shifts.

"Ahahah--! I'm getting so serious! I'm never this serious." she says with wide eyes. "It's.. that princess part. What I'm talking about." she smiles.

"What I'm saying is. I want to make that, part of who I am, who Nakusu Miki is." She says. "Be both- Nakusu and Sabra. As best I can. I don't think I have magic. But I want to.. ah-ha--" she blushes a bit and shoves another donut into her mouth quickly. Another bite. More time to think.

"--I guess what I'm saying is. I want to. Have those feelings. As part of me. And have you-- too. There. Because. You're a big part of these feelings." she says.

"I'm sorry. I guess I'm not making much sense." she says as she looks down, before looking back up. "Ha-ah. This is awkward, I'm sorry. We shouldn't be so awkward... but we are!" she giggles a little in mirth at this fact.
Lamya 2018-09-27 06:10:00 98313
Lamya watches her Princess talk with undivided attention, with a familiar intensity that Sabra would be familiar with. Sure Lamya may look like a normal(ish) middle school girl, but the way she looks at Nakusu with rapt fascination as she tries to explain herself, absorbing every word and processing it without interrupting, is the same kind of look she had when she was an elephantine dragon.

"I think I understand," Lamya finally says after a long moment of silence. "It is something that I have been struggling with, reconciling the Princess that I remember and the person you are now." She finally breaks her gaze and looks away, "It's hard," she admits. "For you it's been many, many lifetimes but for me... it was only a few years ago and a very long nap."

Lamya's voice softens, and a lot of the dragon drains out of her, leaving a vulnerable girl in it's stead. "It all blurs together," she admits. "You and Sabra. In my head. It's all fuzzy and confusing, and I feel that it's a disservice to you if I let it all mix together. "

She bites her lower lip as she struggles to articulate her thoughts. "I have a lot of feelings for you... for her," she corrects herself. "And I don't know what those feelings are. They're.... they're foreign to me. Dragons don't have these. And part of it is I'm afraid that I might hurt you with these misplaced feelings."
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-27 06:26:19 98314
Nakusu Miki smiles a little. Nervously, but still. "Right. I want. That blur. As you just said. Together. I want you to know that, it's okay. If you see me 'as Sabra' and-- I mean you can even call me that if you want. Only you. For now though. It's odd. To have another name you remember. I need to get used to it. But not that fast." she admits.

"...I spoke to Lacrima about that too." she says gently. She doesn't elaborate on it, instead she asks a question.

"Can you tell me about these feelings? Do they make you feel like you want to do something?" she asks quietly. "Maybe make you feel like you should not do something?" she asks awkwardly some more.

"I can talk about what I told Lacrima. It's a little embarassing. But I trust you." she says. "Not to hurt me intentionally. I don't think you can do anything to me that makes me feel like the way I do about George, Lamya-chan." she smiles. "Or even how I feel about some perfeclty normal jerks at school."
Lamya 2018-09-27 06:40:01 98315
Lamya looks puzzled for a moment when Nakusu mentions George, as if the thought that she could hurt her, even unintentionally, that badly was completely unthinkable. Which it was for her. Still it gets her thinking about the past, and what she wants to do, and how she wants this to go forward.

She doesn't say anything at first, but slowly she moves and gently headbutts her Princess' shoulder. It's an odd guesture of affection for a human, and would seem more natural if she was, say, twenty times larger and scalier than she is now. "I do not think I wish to call you Sabra," she concludes. "I think.... I think I wish to know you as you are now, not as you were. I want to know everything. Your family. Your likes and dislikes. I think these things would be more fascinating than any Princess' tale."

When asked about her feelings she lifts her head to look at Nakusu, and opens her mouth as if to speak. She closes it again, frowns for a little bit and tries again. "I want to put my head in your lap," she confesses. "I want to wrap my wings around you and protect you from every danger. I want you to wrap your arms around me as I lay beside you. I want to keep you as my own, and share you with the world. I want..." she hesitates... "I want you to command me again. Only you."
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-27 07:09:43 98317
Nakusu Miki nods a little. "Then, we'll do that." she smiles. "Because I am Nakusu." she says, as she gently smiles at the headbutt. She understands it's nature-- you're a dragon. Just currently in a human form. She reaches down and gives you a headpat.

She listens and she nods a little, gently reaching out to touch one of Lamya's hands, trying to hold it, turning- then trying to lean and touch her others, trying to grab it too. "I t-think there's a name for what you're feeling Lamya-chan." she says. "But I. Want you to figure out what it is, for yourself." she says quietly, as she squeezes. "Because I could tell you. But I don't want to.... to... fudge with your own feelings. Mislead you myself." she says. "But those things...." she says.

"Those things sound nice... comforting." she says. "Hee... Lacrima. Said that. You've been calling me 'your princess'. So some of those things are not surprising." she says. "You have a good friend that's been through a lot. Going through a lot, you know. She helped me talk a lot of this out." she says.

She gently releases the other girl's hands and sits properly again and gently gives a soft tug to your arm. "Come here..." she says as she gently smiles. "Put your head on my lap. I can do that much right now..." she smiles sweetly.

"...I can feed you donuts!~" she says.
Lamya 2018-09-27 07:19:47 98318
"There's a word..." muses Lamya quizzically. "How can there be just one word for all these feelings?" The poor thing just doesn't understand complicated human feelings all that well, still. She looks lost in thought for a bit before the mention of her roomate brings her back.

"Yes, she is a good friend, isn't she?" she says. "It took me a while to recognize what friendship was. Dragons.... dragons don't make connections like this. Not like any of this. We're solitary creatures who run on instinct and habit. And... and it seems a little sad and lonely now." Lamya seems confused at this conclusion, as if pieces of a puzzle she didn't know ever existed started to fit into place and she's suddenly aware of a larger picture.

Her eyes, drift towards her hands, which she suddenly notices has the hands of her Princess in them. How did they get there? Then there's a gentle tug and a command, and she rearranges herself on the couch to lay her head in the lap. She closes her eyes to take in a deep breath, breathing in Nakusu's scent, so familiar to her. So like Sabra's, but also distinctly different.

Her eyes pop open, "Donuts?" she asks hopefully.
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-27 07:40:44 98319
Nakusu Miki is already grabbing a donut by the time Lamya is moving her head down and with a little 'nraawwwn!' sound like a plane she moves the donut towards her mouth. "Nom~" she says teasingly.

She smiles. "Feelings, Lamya-chan, are very complicated. One feeling can be many different things, but also one thing..." she says.

"It's okay Lamya-chan to be confused by feelings, because even us humans are confused by feelings, I'm pretty sure." she admits. "What's important is sharing those feelings with those you trust."

"It appears you really like donuts. I take it that's your friend's influence?" she asks with a smile. "She seems to keep lots of those in the house. She had a box when we talked too." she says.

Another donut comes down to Lamya's mouth, 'nawwwwwrrrrmmm!' again.
Lamya 2018-09-28 04:50:49 98330
Lamya looks a bit confused at the little airplane sounds, but when she sees the donut coming towards her the meaning makes itself clear. She opens her mouth wide and easily gets the entire donut in there (careful not to take off any fingers.) She chews thoughtfully as her Princess speaks to her, taking in what she has to say.

"Yes, but, you all have had a lifetime to learn what all these feelings mean," she protests gently. "This is still all new to me, and there's a lot to figure out." Oh! Here comes another donut! Nawm!

"Actually," she says, mouth filled with donut. "Donuts were the first human food I ate after I woke up. It was a ... a difficult time. I was still adjusting and I didn't understand a lot. That is when I met Rashmi for the first time, and she was kind enough to buy them for me."
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-28 05:00:32 98331
Nakusu Miki smiles a little. "Yes, I have. But I had to figure those out for myself." she says. "-and I think it's important you try as best you can to figure that out for yourself." she says softly. "or." she quitely adds. "Ask someone else you trust. Like I said. I just... don't want to be misleading you." she says. She grabs another donut and dangles it overhead before she lowers it. Here comes another donut!

She nods. "Rashmi-san was nice. I still need to get my book back." she says quietly. "I'm still a little self concious about some of the stuff I wrote in there. Some of it was written in frustration and anger." she says. "-and some in depression and sadness."

"Do you eat other things?" she asks. "Besides donuts? Surely Lacrima-chan makes sure you eat things besides donuts and donut based foods, right?" she asks with arched brows.
Lamya 2018-09-28 05:11:56 98332
Donut... just... out of .... reach! Nawm! "I trust you on this," Lamya says softly. "It's hard, but I trust you. You could lead me anywhere, and I wouldn't mind."

She nods at the mention of Rashmi. "Your book is safe in Rashmi's hands," Lamya assures. "Some day, when you get it back, I would like to read the things you wrote." She snuggles in a little closer, all but purring like a cat. "This is as nice as I thought it would be."

As to the question of what she eats, "Curry! And an occasional mouse if one should be so bold to sneak into the mansion. Mostly I metabolize the ambient magical energies that surround us, like how plants use the sun, but eating helps suppliment that."
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-28 05:44:05 98333
Nakusu Miki twitches when Lamya says that first park. 'You could lead me anywhere, and I wouldn't mind'. This puts a very vivid picture of her leading Lamya right behind George. Who promised to help her show the city that she meant no harm. IF... she agreed to marry him. She didn't want to. But he said he was going to have to try to slay Lamya then. What choice did she have? Some choice. It still ended in the same thing.

"Y--yeah.. I know." is all she can say to that. "-and's is important yo--you find out from someone else... Lamya-chan." she manages to say with a nervous tone. The nervousness doesn't sound like the good kind this time. The kind of nervousness that comes with remember bad experiences, bad times, expecting bad things to happen.

"I'm willing to let you see Lamya-chan. In the book I mean." she says. "A lot of it isn't happy. It's been a really bad past few months until recently. Being confused and worried because you swear a thousands year old story is wrong because you rememeber things differently but that doesn't make any sense because the story is supposed to be just a story, right?"

"R-ight! Rashmi-san's family runs a curry shop. I haven't been there. I don't like.. um. Well geeze. Now I feel bad. I don't really like 'Indian' food." she says just ever so meekly. "but I should be polite and try at least once. Right?" she asks Lamya.

Another donut. She doesn't hang this one just out of reach. Nope.
Lamya 2018-09-28 05:55:34 98334
Lamya's focus shifts from the dangling donut up to face of her Princess, who is struggling with a bad memory of leading the dragon to her doom. Lamya's brows knit. There's something troubling her friend about this and she's not quite able to suss out why.

The conversation then shifts to the book and Lamya nods. "At least now you know why. And I... I understand that it's not going to be happy. But I think it's important for me to see to help... to help keep you and Sabra separate." She blushes a little and lowers her eyes. "I think, despite that, I'll still call you My Princess."

"Rashmi and her parents are very good about finding food to suit people's taste," Lamya comments. "I'm sure they can find something for you that you'll like." She stares at the donut. Reaches up and delicately engulfs it with her mouth (and maybe lingering a little bit to catch a taste of a delicate Princess finger.) *BLUSH*
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-28 06:03:52 98335
There is a little playful sounding 'eek!' as Lamya catches her finger. She draws back her hand though as she looks back down at Lamya. "You can call me that." she smiles. "George can't call me that though. And I know he has." she says more demurely. "...I don't even know why." she says.

"None of the reasons he'd want me even matter. I've said it before. No kingdom to be an heir of or turn to a religion-- and..." she says. "It's not like I'm dreadfully beautiful. There's a lot of other girls. A VERY lot of girls that are prettier than I am."

"Maybe it's something else..." she trails off before she beams. "H-ey. I explored around when I was here the other day. I saw there's a big big backyard, with a large hedge, and a trees." she says.

"Do you think.. you can show me your dragon form, Lamya?" she asks.
Lamya 2018-09-28 06:15:30 98336
Lamya scowls at the mention of George. "It's because he thinks you're his like... like a prize to be won. He's just.... " she pouts in frustration as words fail her. "He's just a butt who thinks the world owes him everything."

She raises a hand to touch the cheek of her Princess. "I do not think I am the best judge of these things, being a dragon, but I think you are very pretty." She smiles softly up at Nakusu. "There may be other girls," she concedes, "but you're the only one who is my Princess."

At the mention of her dragon form she sits up. "Oh, that's right! You mentioned you wanted to see it!" She stands and holds out her hand to lead her to the back yard. "Come, I'll show you!"
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-28 06:24:38 98337
Nakusu Miki is blushing at those words yes she is! She takes Lamya's hand and lets her lead her to the backyard. She sighs. "I think that's part of it. It's possible my and your existence defies the story he prefers. Where he was the hero and got the girl." she says with a little smarm.

She'll reach the backyard with Lamya as she stands and waits for Lamya to change. She doesn't know how that happens, or how long it takes.
Lamya 2018-09-28 06:37:38 98338
Lamya leads Nakusu out to the back yard, and places her in a good spot, and takes a few steps back. She's nervous about this. Why is she nervous about this? She shapeshifts all the time. Heck, she was stuck as a dragon for almost a month!

"Anyway," she says, interrupting her own train of thought to prompt herself into action. And suddenly she shifts. There's a sucking kind of feeling when she does, as if she's Kirby inhaling all the air about him, but it's more... the ambient mana being used to fuel the shift. It's quick, all told, taking only a few seconds, and by the end there is an honest to goodness dragon standing in front of Nakusu.

"Well?" asks Lamya hopefully. Her voice is deep, and rumbly, but still somehow feminine.
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-28 07:17:44 98339
Nakusu Miki is watching with bated breath. Even before the past few months, ever since she was a smaller, younger girl, she really loved dragons. Lamya is one, but she hasn't seen her dragon form yet. Well. She has not seen it as Nakusu. Sabra saw it. It's all Sabra saw.

When Lamya's finished her eyes are wide. "Eeeeeeee!" she squeals out. She leaps out and hugs at one of the front legs. "Wow!" she says. "Wow wow wow!" she says. "It's just like... in the dreams." she says.

She does run a hand up the side of said leg. Scales! There's something familiar about this touch to her hand.

"I've liked dragons for a long time." she says. "I have little figurines, and posters of make believe dragons." she says. "I wonder if I could get away with a picture of you as one of those posters..." she says. "So I can have a real dragon on my wall. One I know..." she smiles.
Lamya 2018-09-28 07:33:40 98340
Somehow Nakusu's delight in her transformation delights Lamya, her giant hed butting into the shoulder of her princess when her foreleg hugged. Lamya's scales are smooth, like a snakes, and her hide gives off a pleasant warmth that one could get easily lost in.

"I do not think a picture of me on your wall will cause undue alarm," she muses, her voice rumbling throughout her chest. "I have seen computer images that are quite lifelike, and people would be more apt to believe that, than a picture of a real dragon."

Once her Princess is done giving her hugs, she settles down onto the ground, tucking her legs underneath her like a giant reptialian cat. "It is strage," she says, lost in thought. "This used to be what I considere to be... well, I don't know how else to put it, but, my 'base' form. How I identified myself with. After... " she hesitates on the unpleasant memories, "after George betrayed us and you saved me. After that and I woke up here, in Tokyo the form that was... well... 'me' was considerably smaller. About the size of a cat. Being this big took a considerable amount of energy and I could never hold it for long."

The dragon looks up at the sky thoughtfully, and rumbles. "I think you did... sorry. Sabra did something to cause that. Not intentionally!" she quickly elaborates. "But I think it was a side effect from whatever she did to save my life. And later, after George nearly managed to kill me again" she says sourly, "when Joy healed me, she healed... something else. I cannot put my finger on it. But since then, that human form. That's the base form. I think between the two of you, you have managed to make me... mmm... human. Mostly."
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-28 08:03:48 98341
Nakusu Miki beams when she gets her shoulder headbutted. That is a familiar feeling to her too. She looks down when Lamya talks about what Sabra did. "I don't think Sabra knew what effect she was going to have." she says quietly. "She was just trying to save you... she was.. there was two options. Save her friend and spite the monster and give him no satisfaction... or watch you die and marry the monster that killed you." she says. "-and I.. I know it sounds sad. But I think she knew either option meant death." she says a little sadly, quietly. "and I think that's why I was so happy when Miho told me you we're alive. Because it meant the first one happened. That you we're saved." she says.

She gently places a hand on Lamya's front. "I'm sorry that happened. That he almost...did... did that to you again, before I even got to meet you. Was the issue that allowed that fixed? Someone mentioned him being able to invoke the collar..." she says quietly.

"I'm afraid to touch it. I'm not sure if I'll undo it by accident. I don't have any magic, but for all I know, there could be special touch that 'fixes' it and I've forgotten." she says. "-and I wouldn't wanna ruin everything." then that nervous "Ah--haha!" again.

"I wish there was a way to remember more. Everything I remember of Sabra's memories is a mixed bag. I have really vivid images and parts sometimes. Others are fragments and blurry and sometimes things are weird about the memories for the parts my brain can't figure out. Like blank signs and faces."

"I need to get my book back to write these down."
Lamya 2018-09-28 08:16:33 98342
"I... I am not complaining," Lamya says gently. "I think it saved me in more ways than one. If I ... if I had completely been the dragon I was before, I don't think I would have survived for as long as I did. I think... I hink I like being human. It's strange, and complicated and I don't understand what's going on half the time anymore, but it does have its benefits."

She shakes her head and headbumps Nakusu soothingly. "Do not worry about that encounter. In the end, I survived, and we did manage to fix the collar so he could never order me again." She raises a forepaw and taps a claw against the silver tag that's hanging from her collar. "So should we encounter him again, he will face the full brunt of my wrath and fury."

"I think... I think it's safe for you to touch," ponders Lamya. "Magic like this doesn't come undone with a touch. Who knows," she chuckles, "It might trigger some of your past life's memory."
Nakusu Miki 2018-09-28 08:29:47 98343
Nakusu Miki looks up at it. She sighs a bit. "Not today. Maybe soon? I just. I'm still processing a lot of the things I have in my head now I don't need to add more things to that. Not yet. Not until I figure some of it out." she says sheepishly.

Then he phone starts going off and she scrambles for it and brings it up. "Ah-ha. Hi Daddy!" she says. "Y--yeah I'm ok---omg..." she looks down at her phone and suddenly puts the phone back to her head. "---I didn't even realize the time!" she says with wide eyes.

She looks back up to Lamya. "Lamya-chan I need to go I'm an hour late for an outing with family I'm going to need to meet them at the place!" she says with wide eyes.

"I'm sorry." she says as she moves to try to... hug Lamya. This just means placing outstreched arms against her she guesses.

"I'll be back soon, okay!?" she says.
Lamya 2018-09-28 08:36:57 98344
"I understand," Lamya says gently, when Nakusu refuses to touch the collar. "I'll be here whenever you want to." Then the phone rings and Lamya tilts her head curiously as she listens in. "An hour late?" she exclaims in surprise! "You better get going!"

There's a soft *POP* and a rush of air as suddenly Lamya transforms back to her human self. She catches the arm and smoothly turns it into a hug. "You are welcome to come back at any time," she says in parting, letting her go. She watches as her Princess then departs the mansion.

At last, when she's gone, she heaves a deep, sad sigh. "So there's a word for this..." she muses. "I wonder what it is..."