Definitely NOTHING ELSE planned

Kukai and Unmei go on patrol together! While initially Unmei measures him for a possible partner... She soon realizes there's something far more important than her own desires, and extends a hand to someone who desperately needs it.

Date: 2019-01-12
Pose Count: 31
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 16:20:31 102538
Unmei Tama had... begun to eye Kukai. Just a little. I mean. He's nice. He's sweet. He's gentle. Kind. Gives good advice. STABLE. Actually seems to understand her. She kissed him once, even(in front of Nades. But not relevant.) And... he was single.

But most important of all? He NEVER made her feel... useless. Or weak. Or stupid. He never made her feel like she wasn't good enough. Like she owed him and she could never pay him back. He was just a friend. Just... someone who seemed to be okay with her company and she could relax around.

So... maybe... He was a good prospect. And so, she'd asked him. 'Hey. You mind if I go on patrol with you today? Since my powers have changed, I'm not sure how confident I am to go alone. Especially after the whole... Tiger thing.' And, well. It was true. She was a bit unsure of herself since she'd changed. New magical girl clothes. No mascots. No elemental magic, just weapons. It felt... weird. Nice. But weird. Gotta love those off season power ups.

And probably good, too. They'd already run into two 'rage' youma. Nothing major. One was a broken toy, another a shake. Minor, easy things. But having someone with her helped her feel more confident.

So now, she stood on a roof top and glanced to him. "How you feeling?"
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 16:29:48 102539
Kukai, for his part, hadn't really been eyeing Unmei. Nades taking off was... Well, to be honest, Kukai didn't know a thing about what he was doing, but there'd been a steady grey cloud over everything for a few months. But that shouldn't keep him from having a good time (but it did) or prevent him from working with his friends (but it was) or make any of his other life activities any harder or worse (but it had).

That being said, going out with Unmei to patrol was a good thing. He'd been patrolling King Penguin Park for a while but her new eyes had picked out a couple of youma he'd missed, apparently, and that made him feel better, in a way. Working with a teammate was what he was good at, after all.

Kukai looked over at Unmei as she spoke, then grinned, giving her a thumbs-up. "I'm fine! Great! Ready to keep going anytime you want to!"
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 16:36:29 102540
Magical Girl Clotho nodded, glancing out over the world. "It's... so..." she mumbled, before glancing back at him. And she supposed she had crushed on him for a while. Still kind of did. But then, who didn't she? And shed grabbed his butt. And he LET her. That had to count for something.

"You know, whenever you and I talk, we usually seem to talk about me. That's... kind of been selfish of me. So... Tell me about yourself a bit, if you don't mind me asking? Like... what do you do for fun? Well, usually? And like... How's school been going? Any family?" she asked with a small smile as she started moving towards the next roof top, using her vantage to focus on the trees down below.
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 17:01:27 102541
Jack looked over at her and scratched his head. "So.. what?" He cocked his head, stepping up besides her as she begins to speak. "Well, most of the time you're the one with her hair on fire, so to speak. And not really selfish - you've got things you have to take care of, and you come to me about them."

Jack hmmed, rubbing his chin and thinking. "Talk about me? Well ok. Um. Well, I play soccer and baseball and basketball and a bunch of other sports, for that matter. You know. And I patrol and run around town and hang out with my friends and all the other stuff." He grins. "School is... well, I do well enough not to get into trouble, but my family knows I'm not going into any science related fields." Jack laughs, embarrassed but cheerful. "And as for my family? My mom and dad are overseas working, and they left my brother Kaido in charge, more or less. I've got 4 brothers - Kaido, Shusui, Unkai, and Rento, all of them older than me." He hmphs. "That means I tend to do a lot of running around for them. But they all teach me a lot of things and show me how to be a good big brother to a lot of the magical community."

Jack mounted back onto his skateboard as she began moving, hovering across the alleyways and streets without much trouble...
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 17:12:24 102542
Magical Girl Clotho gave a soft giggle, covering her mouth. "Hair on fire? Sounds about right. Sometimes I just feel like my life is a dumpster fire covered in gasoline. Granted... the saddest part? It's still way better than it was back home with my parents. Ugh. I'd rather be dead," she said with a shake of her head.

And when she jumped to a roof, her foot snagged on the roof and she tumbled forward with a shriek, rolling to her feet! "I'm okay!" she said. "Nobody saw that! And wow. FOUR big brothers? What's that like. I never had any siblings so... I'm kind of curious." She hummed. She supposed the closest thing she ever had to a brother was Kukai.

Closest she ever had to real parents were... She shook her head at that thought. Nope. Not happening.

"So, is Daigo like... there with you? Can he talk? Or is he like... gone when you do this?" she asked.
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 17:19:46 102543
Sky Jack laughs and then winces. "Up in fire and smelling like gas fumes? And.. yeah. Your life at home sounded like it was really bad, Clotho, honestly." He shakes his head. "I'm glad you're not dead. Or wanting to be dead. That's awful."

Sky Jack is there a second later as she staggers to her feet, reaching down to help her up. "Are you ok? What happened - did you trip?" He grins, nodding. "Well maybe one day you can come over and visit, huh? Meet them yourself, the strong one, the smart one, the lively one, and the cute one. Let you figure out which is which." He smiles, making sure she's ok.

Sky Jack stared at her for a minute, lost. "Dai..go? Wait. Do you mean Daichi? Yeah, he's still here, but while we're transformed I'm the only one who can hear him. He's never gone - he's always part of me. Or I'm part of him. It's confusing. So did I ever explain what Guardian Charas are?"
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 17:23:32 102544
Magical Girl Clotho nodded. "I haven't wanted to be dead in a long time. Like... life isn't ideal. There are a lot of things I really... really want. And will honestly never have. But... At least I have friends now. And I get to be me. And people DO care about me in their own way... Who needs family, anyway?" she joked.

And then giggled, letting him help her up and... "Oh, so they're each a one, and you got all four? Aren't you lucky," she teased him as she started walking to the next roof.

"No, you didn't. Like... Are they actually you? Are you two able to talk if like... He was in a room somewhere, would you know? Can you read his mind?" she asked.

Then her eyes widened. "There!" She wove a bow and pulled the air, letting loose and... A very small dog-like youma. Something tiny, easy to one shot for the two of them at least... Except her arrow missed.
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 17:44:02 102545
Sky Jack pats Clotho on the shoulder. "Good. And yeah, that's the way it goes. I wanna be a famous athelete, make tons of money, get Tadase into position to rule and protect the world, and punch Takashi in the nose, probably in front of his girlfriend. I may never get some of those, but working towards them is what makes me me." He grins. "And being you is awesome, because you're pretty cool." He frowns at that last comment, though, and reaches over, patting her on the shoulder. "Maybe tomorrow night you can come over and have dinner with everybody. Family is important."

Jack helps her up and grins, riding his board along besides her. "Charas are created when someone makes a wish from the bottom of their heart, and their heart hears that wish. They're magic, created from that person and their wish, and they are the embodiment of that desire. They have their own personalities and wants and desires, focused around that original wish and their own experiences. Sometimes when their bearer acts like they're trying to do something counter to their wish, the Chara can either get weaker or get angry at them, or even assume direct control." He winces. "That happened to me once. I said something and Daichi heard it and I ended up hurting a lot of people indirectly. But all Chara bearers have that same sort of weakness and more besides. We're driven by our heart's wishes."

Sky Jack looks over where Clotho's staring, and then nods. "Good sh- oh, you missed! Hang on, get another arrow up!" He shoots off the side of the building towards the youma on his flying board, working to herd the youma and keep it from running off. "Take another shot, hurry!"
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 17:52:18 102546
Magical Girl Clotho drew back another arrow, the threads forming into the piercing shot. She closed one eye, aimed and...

The board made the creature jump!

Unmei's arrow flew. Hitting the youma and piercing it, making it evaporate into... A broken phone? Geez. Unmei let out a sigh of relief. "I think I need to be more patient with my shots," she said once he returned.

"Did... you mean that? You wouldn't mind me coming over? I mean... I'd rather not be a bother to you and your family. And if you bring a cute girl home, well... Your brothers might get ideas," she teased. "Or maybe I'll try and steal one of them."

She nodded. "And really? Just a wish... huh. Don't take this the wrong way, but I'm happy my 'wish' came via the Clotho gem. Like... they're cool, but... I'm not sure they could actually turn me into a girl. You know?" she said with a shrug. "But... it's nice. I really like Daichi, he's fun. So if you're going to end up more like him? That's only better. What was the wish, if you don't mind me asking?"
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 18:12:35 102547
Sky Jack scooped up the phone and stuck it into a baggie. He'd drop it off for someone more supernaturally and technically minded to examine it later. Back he headed towards Unmei, and shook his head. "No, you just need more practice shooting. You can miss slow shots, you can miss fast shots, but eventually you have to reach a point where you can just... hit your shots. You're doing good."

Jack nodded, grinning. "Sure, yeah, it's not a problem. And you won't be the first cute girl I've brought home. It'll be fine." He laughs. "Well Rento's 2 years older than me, Unkei 2 years older than him, Shusui 2 again, and Kaido 2 past Shusui. So... yeah! You give it a try." He winks at her and grins. "That'll be fun to watch."

Sky Jack thinks, then shrugs. "It's.. more than just a wish. It's the sort of wish that you want with all your heart and soul, the thing that makes you, the..." He scratches the back of his head. "If you know you can do something completely, and you hope you don't fail even the slightest little bit, because you want it more than anything ever, then it's possible that your Heart's Egg will hatch a Guardian Character." Jack nods, thinking. "Well. I mean.. from personal experience, yeah, I think they could, but not permanently, not like the gem did."

Sky Jack grins, nodding. "Well. I'll end up kinda like him, I think. And I couldn't choose which sport I wanted to do, but I had to. So I asked for the ability to do all of them... so I can do all of them!" He laughs and nods to her. "Weak reason for ending up as a magical defender of Tokyo, huh?"
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 18:17:43 102548
Magical Girl Clotho flushed at his advice. He... was always like that. Always encouraging. Always... nice. But then, he was kind of that... kind of person, she supposed. He was good. And sweet. And... not really as much a screw up.

She snickered. "Maybe I like older men?" she offered with a shrug. "Or maybe I'll just go after you, work my way up from the youngest," she teased. "But yeah, I'll come. It... It'll be nice."

She stopped when he described it and... Reached up, to put a hand on her gem. "I... I wanted it then. But... but... it wasn't possible then. I couldn't like... do it, and then live on the stream. If it wasn't for Mamoru... I don't know," she said with a sigh. "For all Eclipse has done, and that's a lot, they were there when I really needed them to be."

She shook her head. "No. i think it's a cute reason. Yuo just... wanted to be good. To be talented. There's nothing wrong with that. Heck... I really wish I was better, all the time," she said with a laugh. "I've had really good luck, is all. Great teachers."
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 18:33:08 102549
Sky Jack snorted back at her. "Oh come on! I mean, they'd probably flirt with you, but.." He blinks at that second comment though. "Well I dunno how well that'd work, but.. Uh, yeah. Come on over, we'll show you how a real family does things." He coughs. "Also, they kinda know about what I do at night, but they still have this sort of.. I dunno. They're convinced I'm the only one who does it and the rest of everybody is secret or unknown or whatever, so it's weird. I haven't pushed the issue much and thankfully they're getting back to the way they used to be around me."

Jack watched her reach up to touch the gem. "That's the trick, though. You couldn't have thought 'it wasn't possible'. That's how X-Eggs get started. I'm surprised you didn't create one at some point, with such a strong desire and a belief that you couldn't do it. I'm glad, though, that things worked out another way, even if I did have to kick a few soccer balls at you in between." He grins, then sighs. "Eclipse... I dunno. They ask way too much for the little they give. And I'm still trying to close down their subsidiary Easter. Thankfully they've been quiet lately.."

Sky Jack points at her and grins. "You can be better! You just have to practice, practice, practice! I'm a great trainer, but not a lot of people can keep up with me!"
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 18:44:03 102550
Magical Girl Clotho blinked and giggled. "Flirt with me, you say? Well, I'll have to come just for the flattery and attention alone," she said with a giggle. "At night? They know you're a magical person? Oh... do... you want me to not let them know I am one, then? I mean... I hadn't intended to. But like... I don't care either way. I don't really have much of a secret identity, anyway. Everyone KNEW me as being a kind of pain in the butt," she said with a laugh.

"And no, no x-eggs as far as I know. Lots of despair, self hate. Doubts. And then, I guess, I just gave up. Figured I couldn't be what I wanted, so I'd just do what I was told and hope it all went away. Worked for a bit. But I really felt so... empty. It was like... being dead, when you're alive? I guess?"

She chuckled and nodded. "I am. I trained a lot with Kukai, Kyouko and Makoto. So... I think I can keep up with just about anyone. I've gotten a lot better since, too," she said with a smile. "Now I mostly just train alone ,though. I... haven't been wanting to bother them. I think I leaned on all of them way too much."
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 18:58:50 102551
Sky Jack laughs and then nods, poking her side. "You could use some flattery, I think! And yeah, they do. And no, you shouldn't let them know. It's still a secret for them and it should remain that way if you can help it." He stretches as they move along, then laughs. "You are not as much of a pain in the butt as you used to be!"

Sky Jack stops, then reaches over, putting a hand on her shoulder. "....Never give up. Don't give up. That sounds awful, in every way. I'm sorry you had to go through that." He pats her shoulder comfortingly.

Sky Jack laughs. "Yeah. We ran around a good bit, I think. And no. It's never better to train alone. It's always better to work with other people. As for leaning on me, do you think I don't lean on other people a lot? There's so many things I can't do at all, much less things I can't do alone. It happens. You have to have help sometimes. It's not a weakness."
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 19:13:18 102552
Magical Girl Clotho chuckled. "yeah. My life has mostly been berift of flattery. It's much better now, to be honest. And I won't tell a word, I promise," she said with a nod. "And yeah. At least, when I'm a pain in the butt now it's not like anyone gets hurt."

She blinked and looked to the shoulder, her cheeks going a little red. "I... thanks. That was then. Over a year ago. At least... now I feel like I have a future. I wanna be a teacher. I've been applying to programs. Kunzite says I might be good at it."

She flushed. "Yeah. I guess. I'm not... I know it's better to get help. But sometimes... I feel like all I DO is ask for help. People don't ever want to lean on me... People... Rarely even ask me to help. I'm not very strong or... useful in a lot of ways. Lacrima asked me to help, though. That felt really good."
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 19:22:32 102553
Sky Jack grins at Clotho. "Well you're much prettier now, and that helps with the flattery I bet. And yeah, you haven't personally gotten anybody's limbs broken in a while now! We're all proud of you."

Jack squeezes her shoulder one more time and then smiles. "That's good! You've got a plan, at least. That's more than you used to have, right?"

He shakes his head. "Nobody on the planet can survive alone. We all need -something-. And you don't ask for nearly as much as some people do. As for leaning on you, well, honestly, you're not around a lot." Jack sighs after a moment, and eyes her. "Do you really want to be a heroine? I mean, a full-blown 'call to arms to protect the city' sort of heroine? What do you want, really? And strong doesn't matter, and useful is very, very situational."
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 19:33:32 102554
Magical Girl Clotho snorted. "Oh gosh. Did I ever actually break anybody's bones? I was such an idiot back there. I can't believe I let..." She then trailed off. "No. I guess I can. For all Eclipse did, they... at least gave me a home. Ish. There were strings but... it was what I needed."

She nodded. "Yeah. And it's my plan. Something I wanna do."

She almost tripped again when he said that. When he asked. "What... I want to be? A heroine? I... don't know..." she mumbled. "I mean... I... like doing things. But sometimes I don't feel very... heroic. I watch all the anime, and the girls are supposed to be good, and pure, and kind, and all those things. And I... don't. I don't feel that way, ever. I don't ever feel like I'm... all those things," she mumbled. "There are so many times I just wanna stay in bed, or work on school work, or any of those other thousands of things. But when I'm... helping people? I really like it. I just... I..." She rubbed her head and shook her head.

"I want to be wanted, I guess. I just... want people to want my pressance. I want to feel like I add, that I don't just... detract from everything. You know?" she mumbled. "That sounds stupid, doesn't it?"
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 19:49:10 102555
Sky Jack thinks. "I don't remember, honestly. You did some not fun things from time to time. And yeah, Eclipse is... not good." He thinks for a moment, then nods to her. "Well.. maybe we can do something at some point ot help you be more of a heroine if you want. I'll help. And you don't detract from anything, Unmei. I promise." He hugs her around the shoulder for a moment before nodding. "C'mon, let's keep moving. It's getting later and I wanna get finished so we can go get something to eat before we go home. Sound good?"
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 19:55:27 102556
Magical Girl Clotho nodded and sighed. "Yeah. I think I made out with you in front of Nade's once. I am REALLY lucky she didn't hold a grudge about that. She could have made me miserable if she'd wanted. But I guess that's like... part of being oine of the good guys. Not going for vengeance?"

"Right! Yeah!" she said, going to the next roof. She was silent for a long time and then... "So... How are you holding up without Nadeshiko? Like... everything okay? Started eying any other girls?" she asked. Totally subtle. For her, at least.
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 20:25:13 102558
Sky Jack coughs and grins. "And we're all very glad you survived that event. I'm glad she didn't either. I don't think she really saw you as a threat like that, though, more of a.. I dunno. A one time assault on me." He laughs. "And oh no. Nadeshiko had a real thing about vengeance. You got lucky."

Sky Jack follows along with her in the silence, then blinks when she asks. "Well. I mean..." He shrugs. "It sucks. Honest truth, it sucks. And no, I haven't been eyeing anybody else." He frowns and shakes his head. "I..."

Jack stops, looking down for a moment, thinking. "...So there was this time when I met Nadeshiko in an alley while I was on an evening patrol, by happenstance." In reality, it had been Nagihiko, but as far as Kukai's concerned that doesn't really matter to Unmei. "We started talking, and she started flirting with me, and we ended up right next to one another, talking about how we felt towards one another, and suddenly I found myself kissing her, and it was like the entire alleyway was on fire. I think it was in that moment that we really came together." He sighs and rubs his eyes. "And now she's doing whatever, and I have duties to attend to, and I think about that night every night or other night since I realized it wasn't going to happen again. It's like the fire she started in that kiss went out and now it's ..cold." Now it's like I'm cold. Jack keeps that thought to himself as he looks up at Clotho, then shakes his head. "Sorry. Not your problem. No. Not eyeing anybody." He starts to move on across the rooftops, going back to searching for youma.
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 20:37:36 102559
Magical Girl Clotho squeaked a little. "W-wait, really? She does? Like... how scary is she?" she asked. "That protective of you, is she?" She wondered if NAdeshiko would be pissed at her if she...

And then she listened. And she was still. Listening... And... And she internally sighed. How could she ever compare with that? That fire? That passion? Heck, she didn't even know what passion was. All she knew was what the animes said. But...

She could never be that for him... No matter how much she may want to be... She couldn't help feeling stupid. She was so SELFISH. But...

At least he wouldn't know. Instead... She hugged him from behind when he started moving. "No," she said softly. "It IS my problem. Remember what you said? About... not leaning on people, how you like to lean on... how you need to lean on people? So... no one is leaning on me. So lean on me for a bit, Kukai. Let's talk about it... Because you're hurting... and... As much as you listen to me panic and freak out, I owe you this. So please..."
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 20:57:10 102560
Sky Jack grins over at Clotho. "If you ever piss her off enough to launch Yamato Maihime, it is like fighting a giant elegant furious wall of razor sharp sakura petals. Death by a million tiny slices and one big skewer."

Jack blinked as Clotho hugged him, hugging him tightly from behind. "I mean.. it's not the same, is it?" He stands for a second, then shakes his head, staying still, not breaking her grasp. "I don't know if I'm hurting or not. I'm just..." He stops, then exhales, looking down. "I don't know what heartbreak feels like. I can't tell if that's how I feel or not. I feel like if I were heartbroken I should be on my knees, weeping, or unable to leave the house, or... something. But all I feel is like the warmth is out of life, but I've got to keep moving and going. I've got sports and patrols and friends who need me and I don't want to look like people can't rely on me so.." He shrugs, thoughts of youma and sports and patrols all faded into the background now.
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 21:08:14 102561
Magical Girl Clotho sighed and just gave him a tighter hug. "You feel... You feel like things are missing. And... you feel you should be sadder. You feel like... 'Oh, it can't really be that bad.'" She let him go and moved in front of him and stared. "'After all, other people say this, and act like this, and do this...' And then you just feel... dispassionate. Empty? Like things just... aren't as good as they were? As they should be? And you end up longing for when things were that good? And then you try just... distracting yourself, and hoping you'll be able to find some trace of that warmth that you lost? That... slipped through your fingers?"

Then... "And you're afraid if... you complain, or reach out, or say a word, people won't... understand... or will think less of you... Or worst, they'll be compassionate and caring and make you feel all the worse because you think it should be easier, so it's just.... easier to bury it down and try and block it out and focus on all the other things that SHOULD make you happy... but don't like they used to. Right?"
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 21:15:35 102562
Sky Jack listened to Clotho talk, standing still as she hugs him from behind. Every word she says sounds right. It all sounds even more correct than he'd thought it might. It's not really that bad. He's got his freedom again. He can get along. Other people have, like she says. And things are still plenty good, right? Even though they're not nearly as good as they were. As for distractions... they just don't work like he thought.

And then he sighs and looks down, reaching up to rub his eyes. "I don't know if people will think less of me. I don't care, really. I just know that people need me to be able to help them with their problems, and trying to help me with mine may be too much for them. So.. I just sit on it for now." He looks down at Clotho, then sighs, leaning forward, resting his head on hers and suddenly hugging her close. "Just... give me a minute, I'll get past it..."
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 21:20:44 102563
Magical Girl Clotho sighed and then... Shoved him back from her. And grabbed his head and cupped his cheeks, making him look into her eyes.

"No, you idiot. That's NOT what I'm saying! Of course you feel like shit!" she snapped. "And there's NOTHING wrong with that! You lost someone you CARED about! Someone you loved! and of course it hurts! Of course you feel weaker and melancholy! Because it's THERE and you're scared to FACE IT!" she snapped, not letting his face go.

"You're SCARED to ask for help. But you know what? Fine. Be scared. But I am here. Right here. Right now. I know. I understand. Trust me. I am not good at much. But if there's ONE THING I understand, it's pain! And it's trying to bury it down so I can just ignore it!" she said. "And I know how this ends. So no. You don't get to just hide behind a veil of 'But people need me'. Because right now, I don't need you. All I need, is for you to accept that you are hurt. That... That what you feel is okay."

"That it's okay for you to talk about. To be upset about. And there's nothing wrong with needing people to... talk about it. So... please? Just for a few minutes?" she asked, staring up at him. Watching him.

"Because I understand. Trust me. I understand... And isolating yourself, closing yourself off, burying it down so others can lean on you... so you can pretend it doesn't hurt.. All that will do is make you break in the end. And you're my friend and... I don't want that to happen to you."
Kukai Souma 2019-01-12 21:35:36 102564
Sky Jack yelps as Clotho shoved him backwards and then grabbed his head, staring down at her. "Wait, I.." He blinks, listening to her talk and trying not to spaz out while she describes the things he'd been sitting on for months. "Clotho, I..." He hears her say it's ok, and then shivers, arms going around himself. There's a green flash of light, too bright for her to stare at, and when it passes Sky Jack is now Kukai, Daichi hovering off to one side, watching his friend and bearer worriedly.

Kukai hangs his head in her grasp, closing his eyes. "It's not ok. Nothing like this could be ok. I hurt less when Lacrima shotgunned me with dark energy. I hurt less when I was waking up from a coma." Kukai rubbed his face with both hands, then stood up, staring at Clotho. "I don't want to face facts. I don't want to tell myself that I may not see Nadeshiko again. I really don't want to tell myself that I may see her again with someone else. I don't know if I'll ever feel right again but I don't have time to not feel right, but I know that if I wanted to I could stay at home and some other magical boy or girl or whatever would help whomever I couldn't find. I just..."

Kukai shakes his head, then looks down at Clotho. "Ok then. So tell me. What the hell am I supposed to do now?"
Unmei Tama 2019-01-12 21:44:11 102565
Magical Girl Clotho smiled as he became Kukai. Slowly, her hands lowered to his shoulders and she nodded and then... "I'd say move on, or it'll get better, but that's stupid, canned answers that everyone says, but doesn't actually MEAN anything," she said with a sigh. "You can't jsut move on. And you can't jsut turn those feelings off, it's impossible. And it's not easy and... frankly. It doesn't..." Her hands slipped from him.

"It's like... a wound, I guess? In your heart. One that won't go away. Like... one of those tubes, yeah." She put a hand over his chest. "And it's burning, now. I mean, it hurts like hell. But... every day it'll maybe hurt a bit less. And then other days it'll hurt a LOT more and you won't know WHY, it just DOES," she said with a shake of her head. "It burns and it aches and it makes you want to just tear it out with a knife but you CAN'T and you don't know what to do... and... I don't know how to make it stop. If I did, well, I'd have a LOT less problems. Hell. I wouldn't even BE Clotho most likely if I knew how to fix things like this... So... I can't tell you that..."

"All I can tell you... is it's okay. It's okay to be upset. It's okay to be sad. It's okay to be mad or angry or hateful or jealous or ANY of those things you feel. It's just... okay. Because it sucks. And it blows. And you have every REASON to hate it," she said firmly. "And it's oaky if you can't deal with it. It's okay if you need to cry, or hold someone, or just break down, or eat a tub of vanilla ice cream because it just hurts so bad you want to feel SOMETHING other than that," she said softly. "It's all okay. I promise. No matter what happens. No matter what you do. Wehre you go. Who you are? It's okay... And if the world says you don't have time for that right now? Fuck the world. If it wanted a say, it shouldn't have hurt you to begin with."
Kukai Souma 2019-01-13 06:04:58 102609
Kukai nods after a moment and then pats her sides with both hands. "Thank you for that. Not just throwing out platitudes and saying 'it'll get better' without showing me how." He grins. "You sound like you were in love with somebody who turned you down before."

Kukai nods, reaching over to rub his chest. "It makes it hard to think sometimes. But... I know what you mean. A week ago I had a really good day - went out, played soccer, went and hung out with friends, had a good meal, laid down in bed, thought about her, had a miserable time getting to sleep. So.. yeah. It aches."

Kukai rubs the back of his neck, then shakes his head. "I know it's ok, but I never.. I mean, I don't feel those things. At least, not till now. I don't even know how to start to deal with it." He smiles. "Well if I cry and eat a tub of ice cream I'll at least know why." He reaches over, putting his hands on Clotho's sides, and bows his head to her slowly. "Thank you very much. Thank you for talking to me, for helping me. For wanting to be with me to help me. I can't thank you enough."
Unmei Tama 2019-01-13 06:13:07 102610
Unmei Tama chuckled and nodded. "Yeah. A lot of people say 'just be strong' and stuff like that... it's easy to say when you're not the one suffering. It's... just not that easy. Things hurt for a reason. Especially like that. And... no. I've been rejected a lot... Heck. My whole life has been a whole steady conga line of rejections. But I'm not sure if I loved any of them," she said with a shrug.

She nodded. "And that's just how it is. Getting through each day. And hope, eventually... the good days outweigh the bad ones. And..."

She reached up and put her hands on his shoulder. "And it's fine. Trust me. I know how it feels to not know how to deal with it. But... don't cut yourself off. You'll just end up... if you're arm is broken, you can't just hope it heals on its own. You know? You need to get it taken care of. And even when it's healing, it'll hurt," she said with a smile.

"And of course. Honestly, it... feels good to help. It helps me in it's own way. So... Thanks for letting me...."
Kukai Souma 2019-01-13 06:36:03 102613
Kukai rolls his eyes, then reaches out, hugging the white-haired girl tightly to him in a sudden movement, squeezing her close. "I dunno how anybody rejected you, even beforehand. You're awesome. Thank you for talking to me. I..." He sighs. "I didn't know how badly I needed it." He holds onto her for a moment, feeling the warmth of the small girl against him and trying not to lean on her too heavily. "Yeah. I'll make it through, don't worry."

Kukai looks down at her for a moment, smiling, and then nods. "OK. Well. At least now I know who to talk to when my heart hurts. I can bring you a tub of ice cream if you'll help me eat it." He blushes faintly at her last comment, nodding. "Thank you for helping me. I appreciate it."

Daichi has parked himself into Kukai's pocket and is dozing faintly. The past few weeks have really taken it out of him, apparently.
Unmei Tama 2019-01-13 06:44:43 102616
Unmei Tama let out a tiny little squeak as she is grabbed and hugged. She didn't expect that. But she couldn't help but blush and... chuckled. "Y-yeah. I'm just a bit much to handle for most people, I guess," she said with a small smile. "But it's getting better. I'm sure I'll find someone." She looked up at him and... No. He wasn't. He wanted a fire. She... wasn't. "And... I mean. I know it may ring empty. But... You're great. And i believe you'll find someone who stirs that fire in you, like you do. You deserve it..." she mumbled.

"And sure. You have my number," she said with a giggle. "And hey. I can use a distraction. And hey, you could come watch anime with me sometime. And I could try playing... sports ball with you. And make all of strikes and hit the touch downs!" she said with a grin.... hopefully joking. "Now... want me to carry you down, so Daichi can rest?" she asked with a tease. "I can do the princess carry in my henshin."