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Date: 2018-08-06
Pose Count: 19
Lacrima 2018-08-06 17:15:25 93723
Lacrima has gotten away from the main group eventually to go meet with Ami in one of the side rooms. (What the player understands of these rooms is that they're probably basically furnished in some way, so we'll go with that, and can just fix later!). She sighs a bit, in that elegant dress she wears when she's a mess, though not exclusively in such situations. She adjusts it as she sits down at the end of the bed that's here. There's probably a chair of some sort across the way.

"I'm sorry." she says softly and quietly as she looks down. Yes she's apologizing again. The darkness does many things, and right now it makes feel like she's basically fifty percent responsible for this mess like she personally helped create that thing.

She of course, had nothing to do with it.

"If I knew. I would had said something to Venus. I would had said something because she told me what this 'Earth' was doing was hurting Mamoru." she says quietly. "If I had found out something after I'd had said something." she says, as she shifts.
Ami Mizuno 2018-08-06 17:19:41 93724
Ami sits across from Lacrima, and sighs. "I'm the one who should be sorry. I attacked you. That was unfair. You're honest, if nothing else, Lacchan, and I know deep down that you're trying." A small smile creeps across her features, even though her eyes are still that weird facade of icy cool. "It's no one's real fault but--Riventon's anyways. He's the bad guy here." She scowls deeply, eyes breaking the iciness into something angry and terribly sad. "I thought he'd learned better." She then slumps. "I'd hoped he'd learned better."
Lacrima 2018-08-06 17:48:33 93725
Lacrima snorts. "YOU think he learned better? You didn't see how much the lab was messed up when Jupiter finally got out of whatever he was keeping her in, and she started punching things on her way out. You think after that, and how everyone and their siblings basically wanted to slap him and how it nearly c----" cost him Ami. She shakes her head. No need to go down that route.

"I mean I had to save him that night. Because he got so in over his head." she shifts again.

"I also wondered what went through his head when he thought stuffing a Jewel Seed into a Nullheart was possibly the best idea since someone invented sliced bread. Everything I know about those, is that things go bad when they're involved. Oh right. Also. It apparently got it's hand on a Grief Seed too- I'm not sure if Riventon actually gave it that or not. I dunno what the eff he was expecting- but it incorporated it's energy into itself at some point." she says. "I tasted it when I drained the person she was controlling the first time I encountered her personally--- erm..." she says. "Not to... feed but..."

"It was a good way of quickly getting him unconscious without also inducing a lot of physical damage." she offers.

"...everything seems to be falling apart around me again though." she says. "....First... my blood brother... Ryo... turns out to be. This.. reincarnation of Saint George-- which I tell you makes me question history more and more-- and apparently Saint George isn't the hero the legends want to tell because he's a backstabbing bastard with some sort of Teraphobia that makes him want to murder anything he perceives as a monster, which apparently has a loose definition because he tried to kill Rashmi as a 'witch'."

"...and this now. Earth whispered to me that Riventon might be some form of upset during the fight. It's what let me in it was him after all. I'm afraid to try going to UMBRA. Not sure if I'd just be locked out or attacked by the guards he has." she says quietly. "I can't return to my real home... because of Ryo-- doubly so now, and I can't go back to one of my second homes, UMBRA." she shifts.

"Right now all I have is the Manor." she says. "And for the F*** I know, that'll be attacked, again."
Ami Mizuno 2018-08-06 17:54:26 93726
Ami Mizuno frowns, listening, absorbing. She stiffens a little at the 'nearly c---' knowing what Lacrima meant. She is the person in question, after all.

"I don't know, Lacchan." Her voice, usually so sweet and soft, is brittle, quiet. "I could use some company for a while. Mom's working crazy hours again. If you want, we have a spare bedroom. No one would really expect that," she offers. Her blue eyes meet Lacrima's. "I would rather you stay with me than at the Manor. I don't want you in danger. Despite all this, I am rather fond of you--we're friends, or were, before I yelled at you." She winces lightly, twisting the skirt of her school fuku in her hands lightly, wringing her hands with the fabric between them.
Lacrima 2018-08-06 18:19:50 93727
Lacrima shakes her head. "No." she says. "Firstly. I sleep in a coffin, and we don't need your mom finding a coffin in a room and wondering about it. While I can sleep on a bed, I start having more vivid nightmares when I don't sleep in a coffin." she says.

"Secondly, I'm a magical dark energy hazard-- when I have really bad emotional states I'll start leaking a miasma that affects the moods and demeanor of those around me" she says. "-and right now I can't promise I'll be okay for that for any discernable amount of time at the moment. I mean. If Ariel came with me, I could potential stymie that, but you also don't need a magical glitter unicorn hazard in your apartment." she says dryly adding that little bit of humor at the end..

"Thirdly, I don't need to aggro Ryo 'openly stabs you with a large magical spear in the daylight with potentially in a bunch of people' Okana to your apartment and you need to explain to your mom why everything is wrecked, a mess, walls blown out and so forth." she says quietly.

A pause and a deep breath. "When. This is over. When Mamoru is okay...." not 'if' he's okay. Lacrima is positive that people are going to find him then absolutely murder the bejesus out of Earth. "...and I figure out what my situation is and have time to calm down and center myself, I'll reconsider- if the offer is still open after." she says quietly. "I'll just need to safeguard any room I'd be staying in. I do have a way to 'absorb' that miasma problem, it's just a localized solution is all."
Ami Mizuno 2018-08-06 18:23:42 93728
Ami Mizuno nods, her blue eyes darkening with worry. "If you're sure that's how you want to do it. I just worry. You deserve--good things," she says, stumbling a little over the words. "I know you're a vampire, but--you're a living being. You deserve good things, too, Lacchan." She smiles at the other girl, even though the elephant in the room is now neon pink and doing a tap dance. When Mamoru is okay, not if. That's important. Ami mentally cleaves to this, breathes, and refocuses on Lacrima. "Okay. How can I help you, in other words?"
Lacrima 2018-08-06 18:56:20 93729
Lacrima shakes her head. "You can't right now." she says. "I'm not going to be 'okay' until this is over. I'm too angry, depressed, upset when I think about that thing." she says.

She shifts a bit. "...that thing. Told me I'm just a wraith trying to reclaim my humanity. Ryo keeps saying his sister died and I'm just something wearing her skin." she says.

"I will concede that I'm not human anymore. It'd be silly to insist I am when I can also turn into an amorphous blob of black shadow and a spooky ghost like thing as my basest forms." she says. "But I am a /person/." she says quietly.

A pause. "You know I'm Undead, right?" she says bemusedly, at the living being point, but she shakes it off.

"Regardless." she says. "I'm going to figure out where Takashi is when I get out of here. He might be willing to tell me where she might be." she says.
Ami Mizuno 2018-08-06 18:58:32 93730
Ami Mizuno shrugs. "Regardless, you deserve goodness," she tells Lacrima, about the Undead thing. Then she sighs. "Takashi. You're better than me to confront him, right now. I'm ready to Shine Aqua Illusion his face off." She grumbles a moment. "Putting a Jewel Seed in a Nullheart. He always plays with fire, and not in the safest ways possible."
Lacrima 2018-08-06 19:16:49 93731
She sighs. "The only thing I know about Jewel Seeds are the standing order and information packet about them when Precia Testarossa was still working with Eclipse. That they're powerful ancient artifacts that have the propensity to grant wishes-- but in a bad, horrible manner-- or be a tremendous source of power-- and you know the general capture and contain and procure order at the end. CCP." she says.

She crosses her arms and purses her lips. "Is there anything you want me to pass on to Takashi when I visit? I mean. Beyond the 'everyone is upset at him'." she says. "I'm probably going to try to scare some sense into him when I visit." she says. "I'll probably fail. But I need to try. I don't think I'd feel great if I raised my hand at him. But I can tell him some harsh truths about what happened."
Ami Mizuno 2018-08-06 19:21:03 93732
Ami Mizuno listens, her eyes on Lacrima. "Have you passed that packet on to anyone on our side? Because I'd love to see it, if that's not crossing boundaries," she says.

Then Takashi is mentioned again, and she slumps once more. "Tell him he has a lot to make up for. That there's... a lot of broken trust."
Lacrima 2018-08-06 19:28:09 93734
Lacrima shakes her head. "No I haven't. And I mean. I can. It's old information, and it's nothing really pertinent beyond 'hey they look like this, they cause this and if you find one, obtain before anyone else can.'." she says. "I'd be stealing Takashi's studies otherwise, to give you more information. And I'm not even sure I can get into UMBRA right now." she says. "But I'll try to make Takashi hand it over willingly." she says.

"Because honestly?..." she says a little coldly. "It's in his best interest to be very very cooperative with ANY information he can provide about the Jewel Seed or Sailor Earth to me right now to pass on."

"Broken Trust? Obliterated Trust I would think. Non-existent Trust." she says. "I think I'll call it 'Anti-Trust'." she says as she taps her bottom chin.

"....." she sort of lowers her head. "Before this happened. A few months ago. Mamoru said he was going to try to be Takashi's friend." she says quietly. "And what kind of wrings me in a place inside. Is that Mamoru is upset as hell right now I'm sure. But that he'll probably still attempt that. After more time has passed." she says.

"I have a theory..." she says quietly. "About dark energy and it's effect on various beings." she says quietly. "Would you like to hear it?" she asks. "Mind you, it's based on my limited small sample observation.. but..." she trails off.
Ami Mizuno 2018-08-06 19:31:35 93735
Ami Mizuno watches Lacrima and nods, thoughtful. "Yeah. That still might be useful."

Then she sighs, a wibble in her voice. "I think he won't, but I hope you can get through to him, Lacchan. I'm angry but I don't LIKE him like this." Her eyes seek her friend's, before her gaze drops to the vampire's chin. "I'll agree with anti-trust."

"..." Ami stares at Lacchan. "Yeah, he probably will," she says with a sigh, after getting over the initial shock. "Mamoru's a good guy. He doesn't really hold grudges the way he maybe ought to."

She sits up straighter then. "Yes. I'd love to hear your theory. Please share?"
Lacrima 2018-08-06 20:01:12 93736
Lacrima continues. "I'm a creature of purely dark energy." she says quietly. "I don't feel compulsions to do anything except feed. When I don't feed, when I starve myself, I do have what you call 'a voice' that sometimes sneaks into my head and I act differently then I do right now." she says. "More what you might stereotypically except of a dark energy mass with intelligence." she says. "But otherwise. I have control over myself... nominally, despite some emotional dulling, and some odd compulsions like 'sleeping in a coffin', I still like the things I used to as a human, I can still do them. I still want to do them." she says.

"But for... Well I'm going to use the term 'Infested' here. Dark Energy Infested humans. Everyone I've talked, current or past 'infestation', to says there's a voice or any outside force that makes them act differently. That makes them do things that they would not do normally, to a more extreme. It tries to make it do things that drive them more towards the darkness. More into either ruin or permanence within it." she says.

"Basically. I'm saying. I think there's a point the darkness stops caring about you." she says. "It knows it's won, it doesn't need to drive you anymore. It has you in the dark, and it knows that's where you stay." she says. "...when I gave in. When I stopped caring about the fact that I 'hurt' people when I feed. That voice...? It stopped. I only hear it in extreme circumstances, but usually at that point we're on the same page anyways. Which I think is more proof it stops 'when it has you'." she says.

"But. For others. It's constantly poking and prodding you and voicing to you. Trying to push you into the dark and keep you there." she says.

"So. You do dumber and dumber things. Even if there something in the back of your head telling you it's a bad idea. Or making you not think of the consequences." she says.

"What I'm saying is that you worry when someone who is dark energy infested is able to control their actions. Because it means the dark fully has them. You keep trying as long as they're conflicted because it means there's still a conflict inside to be won." she says.

"...I have no actual evidence to back this up. Just observations." she says silently.
Ami Mizuno 2018-08-06 20:03:04 93737
Ami Mizuno considers for a long moment, silent. She breathes slow for a while before piping up. "But is Takashi really all that conflicted?"
Lacrima 2018-08-06 20:07:04 93738
Lacrima takes a deep breath. "I'm not sure." she says. "But he seems awfully convinced that everything he does is for some greater good." she says. "Even when all evidence pointed to the contrary that putting a Jewel Seed into a Nullheart and making it be some female version of Mamoru suggests the darkness was a good idea suggests it is trying to drive him hard." she says.

A pause.

"You know those dumb fanfic writers online are going to have a field day with that one. Making a female version of Mamoru?" she asks. "It's already dumb with the ones with him and actual normal Mamoru." she says.
Ami Mizuno 2018-08-06 20:08:14 93739
Ami Mizuno sighs. "Yeah," she says softly, but her smile returns, even if it's wry and bitter.

"More seriously, though," she says, and the smile fades. "I don't know if we can save him, but I want to try. Angry as I am... He deserves that."
Lacrima 2018-08-06 20:16:06 93740
Lacrima nods. "Takashi seems to think he might /die/ without his Dark Energy." she says. "I don't think that's nominally true. I think the darkness makes him think that- make him confuse 'not having power' with 'not living'." she says.

"I mean. When you're born with something, you might believe you can't exist without it." she says.

"I mean. /I/ will die without my darkness." she says. "Because my body is made of it. Alexis-niisan, when I resurrected him, would die with out his dark energy because it was literally a physical plug in his body stopping him from bleeding out." she says.

"I don't think Takashi has that problem. He's been hit with powerful purification before and lived. He doesn't loose consistency. Or bleed from parts of him missing. It..."

"It always looks like something is forced out of him for a second before it reforms back to him." she says. "Have you ever seen that?" she asks. "If you're ever in a fight with him and someone blasts him with purification, watch for it." she says.
Ami Mizuno 2018-08-06 20:23:37 93741
Ami Mizuno nods. "I've heard him say that." Then she tilts her head. "I don't remember," the Senshi of Intelligence says. "I'll keep an eye out."
Lacrima 2018-08-06 20:26:58 93742
Lacrima sighs and looks at her watch. "I should get Kunzite to take me back to the 'real world' out of his place so I can start making calls and texts." she says.

"And also I just kind of need to hug my unicorn girlfriend until I sparkle in sunlight." she mutters as she stands up.