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Date: 2018-11-09
Pose Count: 34
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 16:48:15 100033
The place Takashi is hiding out - as much from people in his own company as from any do-gooders that might seek to take advantage of his weakened state (a very real worry in his mind given that Jupiter, Mars, and Nephrite chased him to Ireland) - isn't anything like the house he owns, the one Ami recouperated in all that time ago. It's on the outskirts of Tokyo. It's one small apartment tucked into a group of them. It's a nondescript safe house, except for the fact that some of the apartment staff are youma.

But apparently having learned from the Tarnished incident with Ami, none of them so much as give her a second look as she makes her way to the apartment that Takashi now resides in. Inside, the place is a bit of a mess - but more in the fact that there are too many computers and pieces of strange equipment and purple crystals around. Other than that, it's reasonably well kept, even as Takashi is moving from one side to the other, tablet in one hand, a half eaten slice of delivery pizza in the other, stopping only when the bluenette arrives. And he looks tired, exhausted, like he hasn't been getting enough sleep, because he's been plugging away on a problem. Only this time the problem is him...
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 16:50:21 100034
Ami waits a while to visit. It's a week or so before she knocks, wearing a pretty outfit--a blue skirt, white shirt, and blue vest. Leggings under the skirt to stave off any chill. And her eyes take him in, the state of the apartment, as she walks inside.

"Hello, Takashi," she says softly, gently, hands spread in a way that shows she means no harm. "Don't be mad."
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 16:57:16 100035
Takashi stops, and looks at Ami. For a while. Like he's missed her. Or he's checking to see if she's a threat. It can be hard to tell with him, especially when he's running on fumes like this... But finally he speaks, and when he does his whole body slouches, like the work was all that was keeping him fully operational. He looks even more tired now.

"Why would I be mad at you? I'm just trying to figure out what happened to me... And you didn't have anything to do with that." Then he stops, and sorta perks an eyebrow. "You... Didn't have anything to do with this, right?" It's less paranoia and far more a healthy respect for the capabilities of his bluenette girlfriend that makes him ask.
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 17:00:57 100036
Closing the door, Ami walks over and opens her arms. She's a healthy distance away, but close enough to run in and catch him if he falls. "No," she says softly. "And I'm furious with Mars, Jupiter, and Nephrite." Her eyes flash dark, icy fury somehow scarier than Rei's fire. "I've got to talk to them. But. Anyway. I'm glad you're not upset."
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 17:23:21 100037
Takashi looks up at her. "I'm upset, but not at you." He says, moving around to flop exhausted on the couch. "I'm not sure who I'm really upset at. Kinomoto? Clow Reed? My mother, my father, the universe's special cruelty?" He flicks his hand and there's just a sort of sputter of energy in his hand, a failed spark of power.

"I'm useless now." He added, dejected, glaring at his hand like it also betrayed him. "Can't protect anyone, even me..."
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 17:24:36 100038
Ami moves to sit near him, frowning softly. "You're not useless, Takashi," she says tenderly. "You're still very important to me. And you're still alive. That means so much." The unspoken 'to me' hangs in the air, shivering with promise.
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 17:35:13 100039
"I know... Like I get that. It could be worse. But that doesn't mean this is good. None of the possibilities I've narrowed down bode well for me, make sense of my history, give me a path for my future... It's a good thing I've managed to keep you through all my screw ups... or the only thing I'd have is a house I never live in that costs me property taxes."

He looks down at his hands. "I used to be able to throw cars. Now I needed help to get this equipment in here."
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 17:41:40 100040
Ami says this next bit as tenderly as she can. "Well, Takashi, of course you did; all your strength was your energy. You should... consider, maybe, getting a gym membership and working on physicality. I'd go with you, even. We could swim together."
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 17:52:18 100043
Takashi turns to look at her. "I'm not going to be like this forever. I'm going to find some way to get back what was stolen from me." His hands ball into fists and he's as much telling himself as he is her. And then he gets still and quiet.

"You know... I've had nightmares. They keep reoccurring. About that time you almost died. When you fell, after Kunzite, off the building... But I didn't have my powers, I was like this. And all I could do is watch you fall and hit the ground..."

He turns away because there is totally not water at the edges of his eyes. "I'm not going to be responsible for that. I'm not going to accept that world."
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 17:53:42 100044
Ami stands up and moves to sit next to Takashi, where he can see her when he turns his head back. "Let's talk about something else," she says quietly. "Have you been eating anything other than take-out?"
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 17:59:22 100045
Takashi shakes his head. "We've never really been much for uh... home cooking, in UMBRA. Not since my Familiar left... Lacrima has brought me a couple things from some shops around here. I've been really hesitant to like... spend any time not trying to solve this problem..." he admits.
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 18:01:13 100046
Ami Mizuno nods and stands. "I'll make you something easy," she says. "Do you like spaghetti?"
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 18:04:28 100047
Takashi blinks for a moment and is quiet. Almost a little too quiet before he gets out "Well, if you're going to make it, I'm sure I will." Something, perhaps, about him being less loaded to the gills with negative energy. "But you don't have to cook anything for me, you know. I'm doing fine."
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 18:13:37 100049
Ami Mizuno turns to look at him. It's the classic girlfriend look of, 'you're lying to make me feel better and it's having the opposite effect than you want'. "What would you rather have? I've been taking cooking lessons, if that'd encourage you to eat it," she says, biting her lip.
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 18:24:52 100051
Takashi smiles. "You really don't have to do anything to convince me. One, it's you. Two, I'm sick of pizza. Cook whatever you like, I'll eat it. Just don't be silly and do something like not eat any yourself. And let me know if you need help. I think we have pots in here..." He doesn't really KNOW...
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 18:43:12 100053
Ami Mizuno nods, and smiles gently. "I'll go shopping if I have to, Takashi." And she heads to the kitchen, looking around.
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 19:07:42 100056
Takashi shakes his head. "I'm sure you would but this is 2018. We can have stuff delivered up here. If you go shopping that's time you're not here and I already don't get eno..." And he blinks and just... Stops right there. Like his mouth got way away from him.
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 19:09:28 100057
Ami gives him a shy little smile. "Okay. I'll let you know." But the look in her eyes--she figured out what he was going to say, and it warmed her heart immensely.

After a few minutes of clattering around in the kitchen, she emerges with a list of things she needs. A couple of pots, a colander, some spaghetti, some sauce--maybe even plates. And definitely parmesan cheese. That's starred. Hm.
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 19:15:02 100058
Takashi is still sitting on the couch when she comes back with the list, and he's looking down into his hands. "You know, there are some things you said that... Really are true. Without the Dark Energy I am thinking a little bit more clearly about things. And... I've put you throught a lot. And I can't really even put into words how much it means to have you standing by me, even still."

He starts putting the information into an app. "You've ALWAYS meant so much to me. Even just coming over here today, you didn't have to, but you choose to."
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 19:19:54 100059
Kneeling beside Takashi, Ami blinks up at him. "Why wouldn't I?" she asks, curious, and mildly concerned.
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 19:26:23 100061
Takashi shakes his head. "I mean I wouldn't want you to. I've just done a lot of things that didn't make sense from your perspective." And in a quieter voice. "or that have inadvertently hurt you. And for that I'm sorry."
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 19:27:53 100062
Ami nods gently, and moves to hug Taka. "You're forgiven." There's a bit of silence before she speaks next. "But..." She says. "To try to make it up to me, can you..." She swallows, letting go of him. "Maybe try to live without your powers, just for a little while? Be a normal mortal for a bit?" She looks at him seriously. "Let me protect you for a while?"
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 19:33:35 100064
Takashi's tone turns just a little petulant. "But I don't like being normal..." He says sulkily. "I don't even know what to do with myself all day, really." He stands up and goes to the window. "I see these people, kids, adults, people our age. Going to and fro. I don't really know what any of them are doing though. How they live their lives. I've had this power forever and now I don't know how to be... Normal." He turns to her. "Like, I've never done... Things. Like movies. You know I've never seen one?"
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 19:35:52 100065
Ami Mizuno tilts her head at him. "I can help you learn," she says softly. "I'd love to see a movie with you, some time."
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 19:37:31 100066
Takashi nods. "I should've taken you to one by now, shouldn't I have?" he asks, looking at her.
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 19:38:26 100067
Ami shrugs. "We have a different type of relationship, Takashi." She says it quietly, without reproach.
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 19:39:23 100068
Takashi smiles. "As long as you're happy with the one we do have, then it's okay."
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 19:41:43 100069
Ami Mizuno wraps her arms around Takashi and hugs him. "It's perfect." She lingers longer than a normal hug would last, but finally lets go. "Talk to me. What's in your head?"
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 19:51:42 100070
Takashi leans into the hug in the way he hadn't often. And seemed to visibly sag just a moment when it ended. "I don't know. Until you came by I just felt lost. I mean. This is who I am, who I've been. And without it, it's like I'm a boat with no anchor. But now that you're here... The sea calmed down at least."
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 19:54:06 100071
Ami smiles at him softly. "You should learn to cope," she says softly. Then, she exhales. "I think," she says very, very slowly. "That you're using the energy as a crutch when you have it. You should be strong on your own, Takashi. Use your own strengths. Build up muscle. Build up more brain power. Be you. Then, if it comes back..." She trails off. "You're not allowed to kill my friends," she says simply.
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 19:57:40 100072
Takashi shakes his head. "I think you're more than smart enough to know I'm not out to kill anyone, and I know you wouldn't stay with me if I was. I want to use my gifts... Or at least the gifts I have... To do things nobody else can do. To protect... You, most of all." He sighs.

"I know I probably should... Try to be better at being normal. There's just this part of me that says anything but trying to get my power back is a waste... But listening to that has just left me sad and burned out, really. It's time to try something different I think..." He nods at her.
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 20:00:02 100073
Ami Mizuno nods and hugs him. "I know you wouldn't intentionally kill anyone. I just... worry that the darkness was winning." And then her smile comes back, but it's a little bit fragile. "I'll help," she promises. "After I make dinner, we'll go to a movie. Or just rent one. Whatever you want."
Takashi Agera 2018-11-09 20:04:25 100074
Takashi smiles. "I'm in control of myself. But if things got tough, I have people I can go to. Very special people who are dear to me, like a certain blue haired genius." He grins.

"After dinner let's go out. I have to get out of this place... And you should let me treat you, especially since you're cooking..."
Ami Mizuno 2018-11-09 20:05:42 100076
Nodding, Ami smiles. "I'd like that," she says with warmth. "Let's go out."