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|Date of Scene=2017/12/03
|Location=Earth Court Frat House
|Synopsis=Sayaka and Lacrima find Alexis grimly trying to take charge of at least enough of himself to be able to move. And how much he's afraid he isn't in charge of.
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|Poses=:'''{{#var:182|Alexis Raskoph| (182)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>At least Mamoru's giant of an apartment hasn't exploded or anything else of the sort during the time that Alex has been recovering in there. WHich... probably is considered to be a miracle under some standards.<br /><br />Whoever comes looking for him now, though, finds that the door to the room he had been dumped in is left open, and... Well.<br /><br />Alex himself. SLowly dragging feet along the hallway, with one arm pressed against the wall to keep his weight supported in a lean. Knees occasionally wobbling, but otherwise stubbornly making on way forward like that.

:'''{{#var:160|Lacrima| (160)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Lacrima isn't surprised. People who screw with someone with a lot of friends has to face all those friends. One doesn't poke a wasps nest unless they want all the wasps. Hulda is gonna go a different route. She isn't sure on that. But it's the most likely one. However.<br /><br />Lacrima has not been feeling much better since she broke up with Natsumi. But she has to make an attempt to appear like she's actually alive and/or free and not some plant/dark energy clone put out by Hulda or something. So thusly she steps from a Dusk Zone step on the balcony and walks in and looks around. Everyone must be busy today. That's fine.<br /><br />She'll make her way down the hallways and----<br /><br />Oh! He's walking. Kind of. Maybe.<br /><br />She frowns and sighs. She gently takes a few steps down the hallway. "Alexis-niisan. Are you sure you can walk all that way?" she asks.

:'''{{#var:7|Puella Magi Sayaka| (7)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Sayaka Miki had been lurking about ECFH for a few days now, doing what she could to heal the injured after the big battle, and regularly checking in on Alex who had not yet woken up - at least not on her watch. At some point, her parents had returned from their vacation and had been quite concerned to find the house vacant, and so she had to return and make up some excuses, followed by more cram school which left her absent for a few weeks. But she had returned once more to check up on Alex, frustrated and busy as she was. Finding the door open, she steps in and makes a beeline for his room, but catches herself as she hears Lacrima in the hallway..And Alex not far away, inching down the hall. "Lex-chan!" eyes go wide in concern, and some relief that he's actually up and about now. She rushes to his side, offering him an arm for support if he'll take it. "Hey, are you feeling better? Should you be out of bed?" Oh, she's got so many questions for him.

:'''{{#var:182|Alexis Raskoph| (182)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>The combined serties of voices more or less concerned directed at him brings Alex to come to a stop, eventually. And leaning all the more heavily against the wall there. Slowly, he turns his eyes towards Lacrima, first, and then to Sayaka, eyes all reddened and bagged from... well. Poor sleep, really.<br /><br />And so, what does he tell them?<br /><br />"...I'm fine."<br /><br />No points given to anyone who saw that coming.

:'''{{#var:160|Lacrima| (160)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Lacrima sighs miserably at this reply. "Do you need help, Alexis-niisan? It's okay to ask." she says quietly as she turns to. Oh. Sayaka-chan. Great. That's what she needs right now, she thinks. She sighs a little. "Hi Sayaka-chan." she says softly.<br /><br />"He's awake. And barely walking." she says.<br /><br />She sighs a little softly.<br /><br />"He's fine apparently." she says rolling her eyes.

:'''{{#var:7|Puella Magi Sayaka| (7)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Sayaka Miki glances between Alex and Lacrima, smirking a bit at the latter. "Heh, there, Lacri-chan. How's it going? Thanks for getting us out of there the other day...That was pretty incredible. Glad you're looking better than you were the other day." but most of her focus is on Alex right now, frowning a bit at his claims and shaking her head stubbornly. "Geez, you are such an idiot sometimes, why cant you just reach out for help once in a while?" she leans forward then, to embrace him in a soft, careful but heartfelt hug. "I was really worried about you, know know? I'm glad that you're better now. Are you sure you're okay, I mean, both inside and outside? That's gotta be pretty traumatic I mean, having your own mom turning out to be some kinda magic weilding force of evil like that." yeah, trust Saya to bring things out in the open and say the painfully obvious.

:'''{{#var:182|Alexis Raskoph| (182)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>"Well, since you're putting it that way," Alex grumbles over towards Saya after her words. "Considering I've apparently been steadily injected with Dark Energy and brain washed for my whole life and had nearly every aspect of it secretly decided for me, then..."<br /><br />His eyes squeeze shut, and he pushes at the wall he's leaning against, setting himself into motion of walking again, slowly, unsteadily.<br /><br />"I guess I'm only about as bloody fine as I can ever be. At least I can make myself walk of my own accord."

:'''{{#var:160|Lacrima| (160)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Lacrima sighs. "''Alexis-niisan''." she says quietly as she leans and whispers. ''This is the first time Sayaka-chan is hearing some of these things...'' she says quietly. She sighs and leans back and looks to Sayaka and tries very very hard to muster up professionalism. She doesn't succeed. "Alexis-niisan has been going through things like that for the past eleven years." she says softly as she fidgets a bit. "Apparently. The whole. Vampire thing. Messed it up. So Hulda Raskoph had to do something stupid." she says.<br /><br />She sighs and looks to Alexis. "You'll be fine, but you need to rest and escalate activity." she says quietly. "But. Where were you going?" she asks.

:'''{{#var:7|Puella Magi Sayaka| (7)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Sayaka Miki bites her lip, hugging Alex more tightly. "Oh..Geez. I'm sorry, Lex-chan, I really wasn't thinking of your feelings. I guess it's all pretty overwhelming, I mean, hearing all this stuff now." she sighs, letting go of him finally, stepping back to give him some breathing room. Saya glances over at Lacri, and frowns more deeply now, shaking her head. "Eleven years...? And you never said a word to me? Why!?" the question is more focused on Alex than Lacri, looking..Bothered by that somehow.

:'''{{#var:160|Lacrima| (160)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Lacrima shoots to Sayaka. "He didn't /know/ Sayaka-chan. It has to do with that blanking out he was experiencing before. Some kind of. brainwashing or body control." she says quietly. "It was his mother's doing." she says quietly and looks away a moment.<br /><br />"It's always the f***ing mother's doing." she says a little gratingly through the teeth.

:'''{{#var:182|Alexis Raskoph| (182)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>"Like she says," grumbles Alex after Lacrima. "I didn't exactly have a bloody choice in the matter." SLowly, he keeps on moving forward, an unsteady step at a time supported by his arm pressing his weight to the wall. "Since every last goddamn bit of what came before was, apparently, a *lie*."<br /><br />At Norie's question to him, he draws a look to the tiny vampire. "Anywhere," he mutters. "I just don't want to stay still. I just want to *move* again at least. ANd I'm not going to do that by staying in bed. I'm going to take at least that much back."

:'''{{#var:160|Lacrima| (160)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Lacrima sighs a bit. "Then let's walk up and down the hallway then, okay?" she asks. "Because there's a wall there. You can lean against it. Okay?..." she could also offer to go get a walker but... that may be pushing it. She nods at Sayaka. "All that happened, that led to us freeing him was Hulda Raskoph's fault." she says.<br /><br />She step aside though, Sayaka should walk next to Alexis, she motions her in.<br /><br />"Just. This is a mess, okay Sayaka-chan? It's gonna take time to figure out." she says with a falbbergasted 'ugh'.<br /><br />Even for Lacrima she's a little more lethargic in her motions.

:'''{{#var:7|Puella Magi Sayaka| (7)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Sayaka Miki blinks at Lacrima and frowns more deeply, shaking her head. "Ugh, I'm really sorry. I guess that makes sense then.." she sighs, hanging her head, mentally berating herself for that. Sayaka, you idiot! "Umm, do you need fresh air, Lex-chan? Some hot chocolate perhaps?" she glances back to Lacrima, nods and frowns, "I understand, and I'm sorry. Thanks for taking care of Lex-chan for me. I guess it'll take a while for things to go back to normal right? We just gotta take things slow."

:'''{{#var:182|Alexis Raskoph| (182)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>"THat's what I'm doing," Alex points out to Lacrima, grumpily. And in turn, to Sayaka he mutters, "No. I don't. I just need to *walk*."<br /><br />Anotehr slow step forward, with his hand dragging along the wall-- accompanied by a frustrated grunt deep within his throat. "And... I don't know." Eyes squeeze shut with another step. "I just don't know, okay? I don't know what to do after."

:'''{{#var:160|Lacrima| (160)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Lacrima sighs. Sayaka-chan needs more explanation. "Sayaka-chan." she says softly. "It's very likely. A lot of decisions. And things Alexis-niisan did up until his rescue, could had been the result of things his mother wanted, or .. orders. Or 'programming' inserted into him. He'll need time to sort out, what he wants to keep. What's 'Him' as opposed to.. what his mother wanted him to be." she says quietly.<br /><br />"Alexis-niisan is is Alexis-niisan." she says. She's confident in that much. "He'll be fine. But it'll take time. And contact with people. Like you. And others." she says quietly.<br /><br />"I'm not good for that." she says softly. "Dark energy beings aren't good for that." she says softly. She snorts a bit to herself. She has to drain people's identity to patch her own, after all.

:'''{{#var:7|Puella Magi Sayaka| (7)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Sayaka Miki sighs a bit, stepping back from Alex, still frowning, still..Frustrated. "Alright then. Well, I'll be here if you need me, I know you dont want to be stifled though.." she does look a bit hurt though, looking away briefly. "A lot of stuff has happened, Lex-chan, and maybe it's too soon to be thinking about the future. Just think about now. You're up and walking and I'm relieved. That's great! Focus on today, not tomorrow, okay?" she nods to Lacrima as well. "I understand, I think. It's a lot to go through. All I know is that he is safe here, for now, and I wont let that happen again, I promise. And you, Lacri-chan, will you be alright?"

:'''{{#var:182|Alexis Raskoph| (182)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>"And what would 'Alexis-niisan' be, then?" Alex suddenly asks, when he comes to a stop and sends a look back to the two of them.<br /><br />"What part of *that* is real? What if what I felt for either of you was a lie and a construct too? If even me getting to know you all was planned, to be some kind of... spy or something, I don't know..." He shakes his head and groans heavily in frustration before he turns forward, to try to continue moving on forward.<br /><br />"Don't even know who I am anymore."

:'''{{#var:160|Lacrima| (160)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>''What if that was a lie''.<br /><br />It's an insinuation that Lacrima had been heavily beating back. it was always there tingling at the back of her head. Even when she broke up with Natsumi Matsumoto, she managed to keep that at bay, with slicing dead rose bushes in the manor's backyard apart. It's one that causes her expression to go blank in an odd way. Slack and bizzare and...<br /><br /><span style="color:purple">''See. He doesn't want us either.''</span> says Lacrima in her head. <span style="color:purple">''/Fake/''.</span> insinuates the voice.<br /><br /><span class="fg_59">''No! That's not true! He just needs time!''</span> Norie's voice says back in her head.<br /><br /><span style="color:purple">''But you just /heard/ him say it yourself!''</span> says Lacrima's voice.<br /><br /><span class="fg_59">''That's not true! That's!.....''</span><br /><br />While this has all been happening there's been a rather growing pool of ichor forming under her. Leaking. Then eventually her fists start to shake and it seems with force, her eyes begin to refocus and she's suddenly just seething through her teeth. "I...I i...."<br /><br />"I need to g-go..." is all she manages to say, not looking at anyone particular, as she lets the usual effect of the cloak of dark mist envelope signaling at a rather abrupt step into the Dusk Zone, leaving the ichor puddle behind.<br /><br />That's kind of the thing she was trying to avoid coming here for.<br /><br />Dammit.

:'''{{#var:7|Puella Magi Sayaka| (7)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Sayaka Miki blinks slowly, taking another step back from Alex, shaking her head slowly. "Wha....What are you trying to say, Lex-chan? Regardless of what..Things..She put in your head, you cannot truly say that the experiences you shared with either of us were lies, can you? Can you!?" her voice is raised a bit, a bit anxiously, fearing the implications of his words. Saya turns away then, hiding her face from view. "You are who you choose to be, not anyone else. You are a result of your memories and experiences and who you believe yourself to be inside. Perhaps some of that was a lie, but not all of it. Both Lacri-chan and I are WITNESS to many of those experiences. Please don't forget that, and dont forget us, Lex-chan.."<br /><br />And then Lacrima does that and she narrows her eyes, taking a defensive step back, her finger brushing her soulgem. Saya is getting ready to transform, just incase, but fortunately it looks like Lacrima is leaving instead, leaving a puddle of ichor behind in her wake. "Err...Lacri-chan..." she calls after her in concern. But right now, it is perhaps wise not to follow.

:'''{{#var:182|Alexis Raskoph| (182)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>"I DON'T KNOW!" Alex groans out in response to Sayaka, turning himself around in place to set his back against the wall, almost so quickly that he's almost sent falling over, but not quite. "I don't... bloody *know* what's real, what isn't, what..."<br /><br />Whatever else he was going to say, it gets disrupted b Lacrima's sudden leaking. Puddles of dakness.<br /><br />And her suddenly disappearing before he can get so much as another word out.<br /><br />"--Ah."

:'''{{#var:7|Puella Magi Sayaka| (7)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Sayaka Miki frowns deeply at Alex's words, still staring after Lacrima. She draws a deep breath, still running on adrenaline, half-minded to slap some sense into Alex but holding back at the last moment. "I understand. You're still confused, still trying to sort out reality from fantasy. Then take some time to yourself. I wont get in your way. I know how confusing that must be.." she sighs, looking...Broken-hearted, taking a few steps away from him, towards the exit. "Just..Please take what I said into consideration. I know this is a lot for you to digest...I'm sorry.."

:'''{{#var:182|Alexis Raskoph| (182)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>"Damnit, damnit..." Alex mutters, with his left hand lifting up to press his palm against his face, rubbing down along it. And upon Saya's words, he splits his fingers just enough to peer past them, at her.<br /><br />After a few seconds, his hand falls down away from his face, and just... ends up going all limp-armed besides him.<br /><br />"I'm going to need a while," he mutters. "Just..."

:'''{{#var:7|Puella Magi Sayaka| (7)}} has posed:'''<br><span></span>Sayaka Miki bites her lip as she watches him out of the corner of her eye, feeling tears falling down her cheeks. She already feels like this is a battle that she cannot win, much like when she lost Kyouko to another. And just like then, there is little she can do to stop the downward spiral. "I know, I just...I care about you too, you know? Do you want me to leave?"
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